how about we all contact another member when we are ready? the chosen member should already know how they are feeling so no qualms on trying to talk them out of it. that person would be a ‘safety’ person just in case the attempt isn’t successful, to help the process along. I’m sure there’s legal lines on it, however if neither tells, then no harm no foul… right?

Today sucked…This has got to get better eventually….All that i can think about is ending it all….I dont know what to do…There has got to be more than this…i cant keep going on like this…everyday i feel another piece of me die……

Days since suicidal thoughts: 0

Days since cutting: 0

Feelings at the moment:

~Anguish

~Numb

~Wishing for death

I try to be positive and I try to talk to people. I start smiling, and then something or someone comes along and f**ks it up. So yeah, others who deal with hard issues and live to tell the tail, Congrad-u-f**king-lations.  The worst thing is not going through the bad times. The worst things is going through the bad times alone. Everyone deals with crap in their lives, but not everyone has the support or love from others. Some of us have to pay 75 f**king dollars for 50 min sessions to get our pain out in the open. The question is though, does this […]

Like I’m just trying to find activities to fill time until it’s all over.

This is my last post here.

I decided to take things into my own hands, to face with everything that comes. Something happened recently and it is really hard to look at myself in the mirror. I deserve everything bad that will happen to me because i did terrible things myself. I longed to become like people around me and i have succeeded. I never thought i will but what is left is shame. All my actions that took place the previous year were done by a selfish person. I managed to drove away all the people who truly care about me. I fell in love […]

You might at first have no purpose, drifting and coasting through life without a point, as though by accident. Then you might turn to religion but ultimately find it a hoas and unfulfilling. You might try to be an overachiever but it’s pointless when you realise we all finish last when we die. You might turn to art for expression but find your own attempts a facade. You might try very hard at something and realise it was meaningless, you might give up and feel even worse. You might turn to love someone or something unconditionally only to have it spit in your face in […]

Hey. I’m back again, and so soon. I don’t know…I’m just getting worse. She doesn’t even care about me anymore…I want to tell her that I want to kill myself, but I’m not sure she will care. I’m laying in bed right now. I didn’t go to school today because of a neck injury. It’s common sense that I’m not going to tell anyone this in real life, but the injury is because I tried to strangle myself. I figured it wouldn’t work, but I suppose it was just trying to relieve some of my frustration. But the injury kept me home from school today, […]

i don’t get it. why am i not good enough? why does he not tell me he’s cheating. he is. i know he is. he knows i know, so just admit it. why can’t i break up with him? he was supposed to be my sanctuary. now he’s my pain. i can’t go or be anywhere with him because i know what he’s doing. this sucks. can’t i get some peace? happiness? should i leave? it’d probably better – for both of us. he could be with the person he wants to be with. he won’t have to worry about hurting me. he can be […]

dear friends, yesterday was very bad ,bad today is even worse.everytime im outside i feel like sinking in that sea of sadness ,im such a tiny creation in a huge world ,and in the middle of the crowd i walk alone witha noticable weary face
sometimes while im walking my tears would be falling down and i cant hold them from falling ,but i become so afread from other people s looks ,because i have always wished to be strong ,carefree and self confident ,i never understand why i cant acheive that .this is not the only thing i question myself about everyday […]

well, we hugged for the first time on Thursday, then again on Friday but we didn’t hug today

Sorry I stole this from another post and just thought it was cute

I want to be/look like a club girl

Its really just you alone in this life but of course you  never tell people that and you never tell kids that they’ll find out on their own

I’ve seen throughout my life a reoccurring cop out argument and honestly the only argument happy go lucky people bring to the table. Well its your “choice” if you want to be miserable. “That’s your choice to look at things that way instead of my way, and that’s why you’re miserable.” That’s basically saying there’s only one mindset that works in this world and that’s whatever the hell works for them which they always fail to explain. Are you kidding me? Really if you think about it that’s the same sort of logic that homophobes use towards gays, “your lifestyle and sexuality is a choice, and […]

Hi…. I’m new to this so yeah

Who here thinks that the very origin of their depression and suicidal thoughts lies within school? Not that the school itself actively aims at making its students depressive, but rather the fact that “natural selection” is a far stronger force between children than sympathy/ empathy. The fact that teachers cannot and will not truly help the victims of bullying and sanction the offenders.

For those of you who don’t agree with the term “natural selection”: Of course the “stronger” students will not kill off the weaker ones. But as long as there are some children who weren’t educated to be nice to one another (and it […]

I’ll try to cut the bulk and give you guys the gyst, but it is hard. I have been battling suicidal thoughts and self-harming for over a decade. I never thought when I first started this, that I would have my own place, a growing family, and still be struggling with the razor.

Anyway. I’m an only child from a one parent family. My dad is as strange to me as people I have never met before, and I am okay with that. He wandered back into my mom’s life for fun occasional sex when I was 12; that’s when my battle began. When I self-harmed […]

Was HIHW…

Was deleted along with all my posts by the mods.

Those who reported me for my posts, you got what you want.

See you guys, it wasn’t my choice.

I used my other email to make this post and say bye.

Stay positive, folks, see, read, and listen to positive things!  It helps!!!

My first love just told me she needed a break. She said I put so much in this relationship, and she felt like she can’t do the same. She says she doesn’t know if she can commit right now. I told her I didn’t need her to, that I want her the way she is. But still, she decided on a break of “a few days at least.” I’m livid, and have already thoroughly thought about suicide. This is tearing me apart, I can’t deal with this. I’m angry, and I don’t know if it’s because of the break, or if I’m angry at her […]