Links would be good and articles etc. Just anything for it to be over ASAP.  The drowning thing is going to be hard (what isnt?) as places nearby are too public, and bridges no good as I would need heavy counterweights and the quayside is too public with regards for being rescued.  Therefore would need to be where  no barrier to shove legs over- I think a rowing boat wouldnt work and also a bit conspicuous an empty boat on lake.   Practicality ackward does anyone no anyone who did this and where?  Physically I am not strong and weigh about 9 stone   Im located North east England.

Yes I know agony, but surely guaranteed using very high voltage and right conductor. I could stand pain if I know it means the end.  Fishing line? I looked up on internet but not 100% (what is?) But then their MUST surely be a voltage high enough wearing the right materials/touching with metal or whatever.  I badly need out.   Any ELECTRICIANS out there/anybody with knowledge on actual cases of it happenning.  I know there are accidents.  But surely those electric pylons carrying telephone wires will do it? Or an electrified rail.  Power sources a problem.  Yep, practicality is going to be hard to actually get to the […]

I am 36 and have come to the conclusion that me being anything or being of human worth is getting slim. So exploring suicide has its appeal. I have just had my cheap car blow up before xmas and could not run my business anymore. I have no money and never really have I have done six years jail and have felt violence numerously and have never really enjoyed hurting others growing up. I have had heaps of broken relationships cheated on left or me stuff up. Beaten bashed abused me others. Sitting back now to reflect on the chance of me being in a […]

It’s been over a year since I last posted something here. I would like to thank all those who commented and gave me advice and words of encouragement, though I seldom replied I did read every comment. Thank you.

This will be my last post.

I’m not killing myself, nor do I have any intention of doing so, not anymore, or anytime soon. I’m in a better place than I was a year ago, I’m no longer on any medication, though I’m not completely recovered. I don’t think someone like me, or anyone here for that matter, can feel the kind of sadness and hopelessness that we […]

Job, career, life, choices all that worries

and realization comes out  eventually everyone die, sun burns out, earth is gone, all universe disappear, nothing is left steve jobs, bill gates, elon musk

All this noise usa,arabs, economy, startups, investors, changing the world,creating history… flush out every 100 yrs. Every body in the world gone and new set comes in, repeat the same—again flush out

All is gone president, joker, bank robber, billionere, homeless.

Our logical ability says “life is just meaning less thing” and we start think:  why getup morning and do any thing and why we want to go on living?

knowing the fact and living is what challenge of life […]

I’m 29 years old now. I started to experience feelings of depression and anxiety when I was in gr.7. Had my first full blown breakdown in gr.11 and since then I’ve been fighting to stay alive. While finishing my first degree I work at the university as a computer lab assistant. The work was easy enough and the pay was good. I sold top quality dog food on the side line as well. While accumulating customers to sell to, my feelings of anxiety was so bad that I developed Shingles. Every exam I wrote was hell. I studied from 7 in the morning to 6 at […]

All above average human beings know the fact that ” life is meaningless and full of problems”

Why only few, like us, rant about that fact?

Is it called depression ?

If choice is ours on what to think and what not to, why don’t depressed people think of something that makes them happy?

Most of non depressed people’s philosophy of life is  ” If rape is inevitable enjoy it”  unlike depressed.

Consciously or unconsciously depressed people love to think on problems and sufferings and experience them.

Proud to be being depressed; because we love to think on what most of humans scared to think.

The older I get, the harder it gets.  I used to have some drive.  I used to care…. now its just loneliness and mental torture.   I can’t understand why more people haven’t attempted suicide.    I don’t even trust my own laughter.   Its not real.  My smiles aren’t either.   I don’t even do drugs anymore.   They don’t work.   It’s hard to sleep.   Please if there is a god… let me die…

when you know that your going to be stuck in misery but then you think everything is alright when you get friends but it never is they are backstabbers and will hurt you wen you tell them your secrets and then you will never find out who is your real or fake friends whats the point in living when nothing good comes out of it!

I spend most of my time around corpses. I wear a long sleeve shirt during dissection, the only one in my class, hoping that no one will figure out that I’m hiding scars. Whenever I scrub into surgery, I can feel eyes on my exposed wrist, see the nurses, senior docs and anybody else, looking at them, wondering, and I think, judging. I wonder whether a patient will trust me if they saw me in scrubs, whether somewhere down the line, a department chair would second guess me, if/when they knew/know that I tried to kill myself.

I can live with all that. I tried to […]

I’ve been depressed and fantasizing about killing myself since childhood. My older brother was also depressed, though we didn’t realize just how much. He took his life roughly four months, nineteen days ago now. I miss my brother, but the rest of my immediate family has definitely taken it worse than I have. I don’t think I was as sad as a true brother ought to be at the time he died, and I feel like a disgusting person because of this. I still hope that my brother is at peace, although I’m not religious or spiritual.

My mom is very depressed now too, crying most […]

I made a post a post 3 days ago telling everyone in this site that I was gonna kill my self using the overdose method. I failed. Not only did I fail, but I missed work for 3 days and I got fired, how am I gonna pay my bills? I didn’t even go to the hospital, so I don’t really have any proof to show my boss. No one even questioned why I stayed home these 3 days, no one cared. Who could care anyways? I’m pretty much completely alone. Supposedly after a failed suicide attempt, your family and friends try to help you […]

I feel as though I am slowing turning into an emotionless person, and I’m not sure what to think about it. I hide behind a picture perfect mask until I am alone. I put a fake smile on my face and continue smiling throughout the day. If you saw me on the street, you’d think I have it all together, and that theres no possible way I could have depression or suicidal thoughts. I have learned to hide behind my fake mask, and to make sure it shows well.

Sometimes I think the mask is me, the girl who has it all together and […]

I drank the last sip of wine, and set the bottle down. My medicine was failing me, my loved ones had failed me, and lastly, I had failed myself. Tonight was the night, I told myself. I had no desire to stick around any longer. I had only caused myself misery, and made everyone else’s lives complete shit. I was a heavy weight on everyone’s shoulders, a boulder, weighing down until I was dropped so suddenly to the ground. I looked at the fireplace and closed my eyes. I could hear yelling and screaming inside my head, visions of violence played out over and over […]

You ever feel like one?

I miss you

my ear is pounding

my writing is numb

the music is not here

never here

if I went deaf today

i would be deaf tomorrow

you left today

your gone tomorrow

im still here

alone

deaf in the mind

layers of you

still so thin

the scent of your hair grease

the stain of your cigaret

marked in my memory

pages of your regrets

never read aloud

you no one

but I knew

I will always know

You

i miss you

When you think you know someone

but they don’t know you

it’s not what you want

the kind of thing

that’s not possible to hear

you don’t leave

you can’t stay

make up your mind

because I can’t find mine

do I want to?

typing the lyrics to the song in my ear

but it won’t stand still

to many words for the hand

stuck

i want to be stuck

no time

and

free

that can’t happen

I will start by saying I am confused, I’m a girl and I’m 12 years old. Until a couple weeks I lived in the country side with my father, my mother and him divorced when I was younger. I don’t have any siblings. I’m generally a happy child, wow I don’t think I’ve used the word happy in a while… 3 weeks ago my dad committed suicide. I was at school when I got pulled out of class. I don’t want to say how it happened it’s hard to think about. The problem is my life i was really close to my dad and I […]

I was fairly successful in my attempt.I am seeking help but I am not abandoning the cool people here who have been supportive in the way that made me feel comfort.

I don’t feel any better today than I did the day I did it but I am open to seeing what the immediate future holds… and I guess that’s the point.

Might be losing my job though. I’ll find out soon.

It’s not that I want to die- I just don’t want to suffer anymore.  :'(