She will be 1 in a few days… -.- Wow…I can’t believe it’s been a year already…

Surely some people deserve to die – like me. I’m a monster.

I did some terrible things. I hurt people more than anyone could believe. It’s not possible to fix any of it.

Most would want to see me die in prison.

I’ve chosen suicide because the pain is too much.

I wish my parents had taught me about the world. I wish I had had friends who loved me.

I blame myself and I blame them.

Knowing that Hitler and other evil people killed themselves gives me some comfort.

I must be lonely to want to have fellowship with other evil spirits.

So they say, have no expectations and life will be easier. If you have no expectations you can’t get disappointed right?

Well then, if i have no expectations, why would I even bother to get outta bed? If I don’t expect my life to get better, why would I even try? There is no progress without expectation. There will be no Drive.
It makes no sense to me having no expectation, sounds more hopeless than disappointment. To want nothing sound ridiculous.

Help me understand this. Do they just mean to lower your expectations rather than totally eliminate your expectations. Even lowering your expectations seems to show […]

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My entire family has severe anxiety/depression, mom and dad + grandma are disabled From mental illness as am I .Money is not really an issue as I receive disability but all I want to do is donate it to the SPCA , I mean more because 18$ a month is not that much but I got to live “survive” .Im so sick, please I don’t want to wake up tomorrow.

It’s 2014 and I can’t say I feel anything “new” about it.  These days, which fly by ridiculously fast, a new year really signifies how much I still haven’t done or accomplished.  Every year I make it to the next day, I begin to see the clouds in the sky that used to be a bright, beautiful blue during the day.  At night, the clouds still appear overhead, instead of the bright, shiny stars I once thought to shoot for over long distances.  Over three decades or so on this planet, and I would assume by now I would have more clarity in my perspective of this world, as […]

Have you ever seen a friends just lose interest and you and move on and you feel like shit because you know you’ve done something that made you lose whatever they saw in you? Well now that line I mentioned in my last post is so fucking clear. The line between all the depressed, suicidal fuck-ups like me and the rest of the happy world. Nothing makes me want to kill myself more than seeing a bunch of happy people, all hanging out with their friends, laughing, joking, taking pictures. And I say why not me? Why can’t I get better and just be that […]

They always come and go, you tried so hard for a couple of days then you gave up and left like the rest of them. Why try change my mind, the way I think?

Can you just accept that I am different, and stay?

Why mustn’t this website support suicide? Suicide can solve all of your problems and many problems for anyone you know. We are each a burden on each other, so why not remove that burden by killing ourselves? In fact, if you are reading this and you are suicidal, I encourage you, just for starters, to stop listening to what people have been telling you by thinking about all the people that would miss you if you were gone and start thinking about all the people who would benefit from you being dead. If you’re a teenager, your mom can finally stop making you food that […]

 I can’t run I can’t call cops because he’ll kill me before they show up I rather kill myself than give him that joy that he got to do it I hate my life now it isn’t getting any better I barley have friends I don’t go anywhere I’m Alive but I’m not living for that I’m better off dead

I came across this site looking for something to drink and kill me in my sleep. im 24 and cant take life anymore. my birthday is in June, ill end all than . ive been depressed as long as i can think of. i have no kids barely have friends so none is going to miss me when i end it. wish just wish i was strong enough to end it rite now!

I’m never coming back from peru again. I don’t know why I”m writing this.

Not sure if some of the people here are depressed because they have fucked up lives…

Or

If they are depressed that life isn’t perfect for them…

Reading some of the po–Reading a lot of the posts here will lead you to ask the same thing….and believe the latter…

I don’t care what people have to say but this is my only way out if this horrible life im living I want to kill myself but I need a fast way because my boyfriend is always with me I only have about a 40 minute window when he goes to buy sneakers someone please help me I can’t bare to live another day I am suffering and I want to die already I am a burden to my mother my family my boyfriend everyone complains about me and I want to die if I don’t find a way here I will over dose on […]

I wouldn’t exactly clarify this as a suicidal post, but I need to get it out and hopefully receive advice. My best friend and my older brother just recently began to have a ‘thing’ and it tears me apart. They understand I have been very depressed recently, and both now I cut. But they both think I’ve stopped. I thought I was going to as well, but, last night when she completely abounded me for him as soon as he got home. My parents weren’t aware of this. I didn’t want to sit and watch them be all over each other so I just left, […]

Do you know that girl that always goes for the asshole.. Whether it be because she feels like she’s not good enough, she loves him, she’s scared or a lot of other things.. That’s me. I’m that girl that went out with a guy that I “love” for two, almost 3 years. Cussing at me, hitting me and manipulating me was his game.. He made me believe it wa my fault for him having sex with girls because I wouldn’t. He would just tell me the worst of things.
I loved him so much. He would tell me when he would want to […]

I know you have probably read a bunch of articles, or comments saying don’t cut, don’t end it, you have your whole life ahead of you, though they are right. I hope this helps a little more. I would just like to say if you are reading this, then you are the strongest  you have ever been. Because at this  moment you are still alive, you want to end it, but you haven’t yet, and that makes you stronger then the ass holes at school, or who ever makes you feel like you are worth nothing, despite what ever they say. You have made it […]

I am ready to die. Its a subject that enters my subconscious daily. My depression seems to be growing stronger and stronger every time this vicious cycle runs its course. I’m tired of it, I really am. And having my family unknowing of it makes it harder. Yesterday,I asked my mom if I could get a counselor. She responded in a way that sounded as though I was seeking attention.  That was my final straw. Mustering up the courage to ask her was hard enough, but having her to shoot me down so fast was even more painful. I am ready to go now. My […]

The moment you break down crying.You hold in everything until the moment you are finally alone in your room. You go to school, put up with all the people from school, you have to hold in your feelings and tears until you get home from school, your relationship with someone is now going down hill, then you have to deal with the shit your parents are giving you. One problem became something so much more to handle, every little thing in your life is going completely wrong and the moment you finally get time to be alone and catch a breather, you just sit there and […]