My life is over. I’ve become hideously unattractive because I had to take steroids that deformed my face. When I go in to public, I get weird stares. I quit my jobs and I can’t get out of bed. There is no way anyone will ever want to marry me because my skin has stretch marks all over it and my face is so ugly. I sort of want to go somewhere and live in seclusion for the rest of my life but I’m only 27. I had such a depressing decade. I’m so disappointed in myself for doing this. I can’t get out of […]

i only asked for some guidance.. if nobody can give me just a single piece of advice without some chick copying and pasting some request to use my story then what is the point of this sight?
whats the point in anybody telling their problems to the world if no help is given?

I just wanna end it. Everyone would be better off not having me around. I ‘m just a waste of space. And everyone including myself knows it. So i should just quit.

I know how everyone is feeling cause i feel lower then low i am nobody and nothing dont want to live have been through hell and continue to go through it…that being said i want to be there for everyone and i cant so please do me a favor and hang in here with me lets make it through this together…theres nothing more scary then how alone i feel but knowing there is people out there that understand keeps me going theres too many bad people out there for us to give up and let them win over us hang in there and email me […]

Anger kills meToday I had most likely the worst day with my anger in ages. Because of issues with my ex I got so angry to the point that one of my bet mates had to put me in a headlock and hold me down and squeeze my hards so I couldn’t move. Throughout the day it got worst but I think it was only so bad because I didn’t have my boyfriend by my side keeping me sane i come home and feel like I’m gonna die. I stared at my weapon I have used many times over and thought is it worth itt? […]

We deal with death a lot on here and even mention the afterlife from time to time. So! I have tp ask, what is your favorite ghost movie?

How is a suicide act selfish?

I’m not happy, I’m tired of being angry at myself and the world. Is hard to get out of bed and putting a smile on and coming home to be miserable. I care for people and put my life on the line for them. If I want to go, I shouldn’t feel guilty right? I think people are being selfish for not letting us do something we want. Why can’t we be happy without being  judge for the choices we make!?

So I think it’s coming to a point where I really need to commit to a decision or I’ll be in hell for the next 60 years.  In my mind it’s either hang myself or buy a shotgun and shoot my head off.  Which would you personally choose and why?  I’m going to sleep now but I’ll read the answers tomorrow if I remember.  Hope you guys are doing better than I.

When I look into the mirror,

I don’t like what I see

All these expressions playing across my face,

“who is that looking back at me?”

All the pain and hurt is masked

by the fake smiles I wear each day

I’m constantly questioning my ability

to keep my emotions at bay

I doubt that anyone has noticed

and that’s all part of my plan

So now I’m left here to wonder

as to how this all began.

I’ve noticed that there’s a lot more people talking about suicide methods now that it’s getting darker and colder. I, feel the same. I can’t very much do anything to help this feeling; I can’t cut because I start cheering in a week. Cheering. Jeez. Never thought I’d hear myself say I’d be doing cheering. Especially in high school. Wow.

Hang in there guys. We can make it through.

I should be studying for my quantitative management exam I have tomorrow morning. I should be applying for internships for the summer. I should be out and laughing with friends. I should snuggling up with my ex-boyfriend. I should be watching Dirty Dancing with my best friend. I should be the happy go- lucky 20 year old that everyone expects me to be. But I’m not. Instead I sit here alone contemplating what my life is really worth.
I’ve always had that side of me that was never happy, and sometimes it would rear its ugly head and tell me how pathetic, worthless, unsuccessful, unattractive, […]

Simply because of the fact you don’t treat me like your daughter. I am your only biological child and yet…
You leave me in the dust. You tell me to just… Go to Bridgeway and get medicine. Go to the hospital. I need your help. You told mom you’d help me so long as I was in school. Well guess what dad! I’m doing my fucking best. Going to school when I’m not sick, working my ass off for shit pay. And for what? To pay for my bills while you go off with your other family for a three week trip to Europe. Oh, […]

I’m never going to get better. I’m never going to break out of this prison. I’m never going to have a future worth living. Every ray of light goes out. Every new window is a false hope. I swear it’s like life is stringing me along, and I don’t think I can live like this anymore. I don’t know if another opportunity to make progress will present itself again. The one I had might be gone, idk, but even if it isn’t I really don’t want to bother trying. I’m tired of being locked inside of my own mind. I’m tired of how much I […]

Please allow me to write some Words in German – because thats the only way I am sure, I can express myself in the most accurat way possible:

Egal wie alleine und einsam ich mir vorkomme. Wenn ich hier einige Gedanken von anderen Menschen lese, dann begreife ich, dass viele in ähnlicher Art und Weise leiden und das gleiche denken. Damit sind wir wenigstens gemeinsam einsam.

Es macht mich sehr traurig, dass es so viel Leid auf der Welt gibt. Leid ist eine subjektive Empfindung, so ist bereits auf Wikipedia zu lesen. Dennoch gibt es Arschlöcher, genannt “Freunde und Familie”, die einem sagen “Kopf hoch.” , “Leben […]

I wish of death.
I hate my life so much.
To much drama at school.
Mom thinks everything’s fine.
I’m getting called a slut and guys are asking me inappropriate questions about sex.
I feel dirty from all the stuff I’ve done over the past year.
I’ve gotten insane.
I’m depressed.
I’m young.
I wish I could just fade.
Fade away.
Fade away into a big, dark hole.
Where I will never be found.
And be alone.
Forever.
No more drama.
No more relationships.
No more bullies.
Just me.
Alone.
Forever.

Why are some comments “pending approval” while others seem to just be instantly posted? I think all of mine were instantly posted, except for one of my last ones that said “pending”. I thought it was because I had included a link with it, but then when I checked the other 4 comments that are currently pending approval, none have links in them.

I feel, like if I died no one would care!! I feel like it put less stress on me and everyone else.  My whole family looks at me like a criminal, and like I’m stupid.  A couple of days ago I did something, kind of dumb, but also explainable, and now everyone thinks I am a criminal, and troubled! It hurts in all sorts of way because I try to be smart, and do the right things usually, and now my dad thinks I am worthless! It just hurts, I’m tired of everyone acting better than me, and making feel down, I honestly don’t want […]

I have this weird urge to randomly smashing my head at random place and time

I am thankful for my misery when it is consistent, because I already do not feel I deserve what I have, and can only see my life getting worse.

Question: what would actually help those who want help with thoughts of self harm who want to deal with them, but not act on them?  G.W.