Yes, Little G, there is a difference between saying the words and meaning the words. What’s the difference? You have to cut through the silacone b.s. of intellectualism and take a look at what you really want. If you would look upon the darkness of the hidden motivations that you harbor just below the surface, you would abandon them.

Consider this:

I want the peace of God.

“To say these words is nothing. But to mean these words is everything. If you could but mean them for just an instant, there would be no further sorrow possible for you in any form; in any place or time. Heaven […]

After two weeks out of a mental institution after I tried killing myself I am sitting in class wondering what is my next step where do I go from here? 42 pills. 3 times trieng to commit suicide. I guess there is a reason I am still here. When you get to a point where you feel like nobody understands and nobody loves you it sucks it really does. I am lucky though because I got the help that I need and I just hope I am strong enough to do it.

Does anyone  know if i slipknoted a scarf tight enough around my neck and carotid artery that i would pass out and die about 10-20 minutes later? I read alot about suspension hanging and i would rather just do it this way if it would work. What do you think?

Note: This is my personal experience and I tried to explain everything I could, I could explain better but I’m not a writer,I’ll write whatever comes in my mind and sorry for the English grammar mistakes 🙂 So, let me show you how to die without pain, it works 100% and I know it is going to be a long article (may be) but it worth reading. 🙂 I’m not here to waste your time or make you feel bad, I want to […]

If anyone wants to talk about things forbidden here you can email me privately at aracole568@yahoo.com

Even though I have survived into my elder years and have mostly good days now, I still have my bad days. On those days, I wonder why respectful painless assisted suicide is illegal for the person who can’t share human joys and efforts; hence chooses not to continue living a painful life.

Why does society force us to suffer until the end? Once one has reached a certain crossroad and made a definite choice, all the king’s horses and all the king’s men cannot truly put them back together again. More usually, like me, they are forced to survive in a solitary situation until the […]

If i tell my counsellor, (Ontario) that i attempted to commit suicide last week, will she still legally have to do something about it, like put me into a mental health unit or get me assesed or something, or is it safe to talk about?

Why do i feel this way… I just wanna sleep it all away. forget my life and just stay in total darkness. I feel nothing when i wake up just upset that I’m awake and still breathing…

So tomorrow is my 16th , and I think it’s the perfect time to start the beginning of my end. I will stop eating for the most part, it’s already pretty no eating but I will cut when I need to, I will drink or do whatever I must do to numb the pain until one day I won’t have to be here, I hope that day is soon.

I reach out for help
Everyone leaves
My mind is a blurr
Repressed memories

Where is my heart
All my emotion
Where is my drive
My love and devotion

“A drop in the ocean
A change in the weather

I have 76 pills and a bottle of alcohol…

41 pills of Lamictal

21 pills of Zoloft

and 14 pills of Zyrtec.

I have a 750 mL of MD 20/20

will this kill me? because if I take all this shit and then I wake up tomorrow..then I know for a fact I’m a failure

Hey. So, The fast few weeks i’ve been completely emotionless. I’ve tried to force myself to feel something, but i have no emotions at all, Its like i turned them off. I can’t have a normal conversation with anyone, I can’t do anything properly. I fake smile at the wrong time, I can’t even make myself laugh when i’m supposed to. I feel like i’m inhuman. I cry myself to sleep everynight, if i can sleep at all, But don’t feel sad or anything. Last time this happened to me, I didn’t get my emotions back until I woke up in the hospital after an […]

Would this be a bad way to go? Ethylene glycol poisoning?

How much would someone need to drink?

This is my story or just a part of it.
I hope you can understand me because my english is too bad,but I need to talk (in a strange way) about it.

I want to die since I have ten years,and I’m nineteen.

Nine years spending my days thinking about my suicide, thinking why I’m still here,wondering why is so difficult for me to die when is too easy for people who,actually, don’t want to die.

self-harming, anorexia, bulimia, pills;also I tried to have an “accident” crossing the street.
And I’m still here,hating me.

My scars are going away, but the pain is here,inside.

I went to […]

it’s sad that no one realizes my pain. Nobody wonders what I’m feeling. its either that or they just dot care enough to ask…but now I’m asking for one person, one person on here to reach out…this is not long. And for good reason, what is said is all that needs to be said. One person…

This is actually a question, and if you don’t mind answering, I would be extremely grateful.

So, if you read my earlier posts, you would know I tried to kill myself the other day; and I am unwilling to report, I tried earlier tonight. It wasn’t my actual intention tonight, I was just cutting. I just got this urge to do it, and so I overdosed on the nearest pills and went up my arm again. Also, my cutting was due to school. I began having a panic attack when I had to get up in front of the class to speak. In all honesty, I […]

Usually, I cut with razors.. Today I tried a pencil sharpener blade instead. Once I began to uncontrollably bleed, I had a panic attack. I almost called 911 I was so scared. I’ll never forget the shaking, but I still couldn’t cry.. I wasn’t sorry.

10 minutes after I now realize I loved it. I can’t wait to do it again.

I just want my dad back Well im new here, as you can tell this is my first note? Story? Im not sure what these would be called on here, i just know that i found this site for, I’m not sure but some reason, and i feel the need to finally get my feelings out somewhere. Well i don’t want people to feel bad for me or anything, just that i need to let this out, when i was younger i had a great life, well i did but the bad things where always covered up so i never knew what was […]

Just got a visit from the “new owner” of my house. Evidently i have anywhere from 10 days to 4 weeks to scram … that ain’t much time to find a solution or to get a lucky break.

I know one solution that i’ve had in my back pocket for a couple years now for just such an occasion … maybe it’s time to drag it out and dust it off …  the clock is ticking …

countdown dawg

I want to die… slow.. plainless.. content. Because life has done the horrid torture.. erase myself silently from this world, alone.

Because watching time move frame by frame and not be able to alter it is unbearable, punishment for menial wrongdoings is torturing, the fight put up to no triumph – like whirling harder and harder only to find out…trapped..inside quicksand. The quicksand – a mind with harsh hypocritisism: dream big, who the hell do you think you are.. strive, you’ll break through, what an idiot: look around you, nobody likes you, you’re nothing…

It is too much to bear, i can no longer fight a dark […]

I’m not afraid of being laughed at. I just think that, even if I do my best now, I still may not be able to reach my goal. No… I know the chance of success is way too low. Knowing that, why would I even try?! Why don’t I just living my life like this ’till the end?