I hate myself so much. I forced myself to go to a friend’s meal this evening but it was horrible. I spent most of the time sat there trying not to cry, feeling stupid because I had no reason to. I have a very small group of close friends that I can actually hold a conversation with and I was sat next to one but she’s a very popular girl so she ignored me most of the night and talked to everyone else.

I hate that I can’t just talk to people when everyone else does it so easily. I hate that I have no […]

well my days keep getting longer and longer. i go to school in the morning and its a fight to get through the day just school alone. my girlfriend thinks im cheating on her and wont even talk to her, all because of something that one of her friends “saw me doing with another girl” which is completely false, i was with a buddy of mine the whole time that i was with the other chick, and i even told them asl the guy and he will tell you the same fucking thing. nope, they dont care. im on the verge of losing practically the […]

Let’s be honest about it.   The story line on this site is pretty much dominated by the sentiment that hurting one’s self is desirable or at least inescapable.  Neither of these things is true, but there is value in admitting the obvious.  There is also advantage in admitting that no one, however vehement their claimed desire for death, is completely enthusiastic about the prospect.

There is a way out of this self-defeating cycle of fear, hatred and guilt.  It is forgiveness.

Everyone has felt that they have suffered at some point or other.  How do some manage to continue on without being paralyzed, while others never recover […]

I again am so alone…I am sitting here with no one to talk to…if there is anyone who would want to talk, please just email me…it will get my mind off hurting myself. princess_emmy19@yahoo.com

Can someone tell me an easy way to kill myself in a single attempt? Please I’m desperate.

It is clear that neither of us want to hurt ourselves, still, one way or the other, that’s pretty much inevitable when you live in a world of randomness and constant change. I want to die, but I don’t want to hurt myself, that’s the dilemma. Well, actually it isn’t. Whatever I choose, life or death, I’m going to end up hurting myself. Once you realize that, you can face suicide like the last sickness you are gonna get. The only difference this time, is that you intentionally go after it. But really, there’s no much difference on waiting for it while you keep living, […]

I look at myself in the mirror,

My eyes showing one thousand shattered reflections.

I weigh 115,

My hips are starting to show.

My doctors say I’m healthy,

But I’m not.

I want to, no, I need to reach 100.

My body needs to be a corset of skin and bone too big for me.

It needs to protrude at the hips and collars in order for me to be beautiful.

I’m waiting for the gap between my thighs that will make me perfect.

People try to tell me I’m sick,

But I’m not.

I am strong.

Filled with control as I release my hunger and pain through the blood

Pouring from my wrists.

The smiles I wear in photographs […]

Pale scars dance across her skin
A pale reminder of what had been
A drop of silver
A drop of red
A thousand words running through her head
Nobody sees her tears
In a world of nothing but fear

The most basic expectations of the world and responsibilities of adulthood paralyze me with fear and cause me to realize what a thoroughly pathetic individual I am.

On this site is there a way to view your past comments on someone’s post? Like I will comment and want to go back to see if they responded so I just have to scroll through all of the posts until I find the one I commented on, is there an easier way to do this?

Hello to all…myself ajay rathod….i am 24 year old….my parents wanted me to rank higher during school days sothat i was not allowed to play games….so i kept on it and just focussed on study…i got arranged marriage….i planned with my wife till two year just we will live life happily than will plan a baby…unfortunately i made unsafe conception with her…she became pregnant…i told her to take medicine bt she refused…i lost all my hopes to live happy life…i feel very very suicidal….

We are all composed of skin and bones,

so what makes one ugly, and the other not?

we judge

and judge

and judge

and insert so much hate, so much pain  into  the minds,

the minds of little girls and boys pinching at their skin in the mirror

the minds of adults covering their skin, their stretch marks, their age..

so tell me, what makes your skin and bones more beautiful than mine?

I started crying and I can’t stop. I feel empty and it hurts everything hurts. I just needed to say that because I can’t tell anyone right now and I just can’t stop. I don’t know hoe to stop and I’m getting hysterical and I need help but I’m empty and oh god.

Sometimes I’m overflowing with emotions that i dont even understand what exactly I’m feeling. But there are times ,like today , that I go so numb that no matter what happens ,I won’t feel a thing. It’s so weird like even if someone really close would die now I won’t shed a single tear. I iM so lost .

Through the dark days

I don’t blame anyone for the hand I’ve been dealt with in life.  Truthfully I have never indulged in self-pity, self-hate certainly and the desire to end my life yes but not pity, nor do I want pity, more than anything I need to share my story, to get it off my chest, and to thank those angels who helped me when I didn’t want to help myself.

 su·i·cide  

/ˈso͞oiˌsīd/

Noun

The action of killing oneself intentionally: “he committed     suicide at the age of forty”.

Verb

Intentionally kill oneself.

Synonyms

noun.
self-destruction – self-murder

verb.
take one’s own life – make away with oneself

The word that ended it all, my simple life […]

Im moving up my plans to commit this site’s namesake to a week from now. I would do it sooner, like last night! but that is the soonest I can arrange to do my fool proof method.

How do you know if you’re beautiful?

I JUST WISHED YOU COLD LIVE A DAY IN MY SHOES SO YOU COULD FUCKING UNDERSTAND HOW I REALLY FUCKING FEEL I JUST DOSNT UNDERSTAND HOW YOU COULD BE SO OBLIVIOUS. OPEN YOU FUCKING EYES BEFORE MINE CLOSE FOR THE LAST TIME.

Okay, I`m nervous, very, very nervous since I don`t think people will read this, but here I go.

Is it clear to you?
My perspective of things.
Is it clear to you?
As it is to me.
Is it clear to you?
The pain I`ve suffered.
Is it clear to you?
My strange everlasting wonder.
What`s wrong with you?
Since I`ve told my story.
What`s wrong with you?
I can see your confusion.
What`s wrong with you?
Why do you run away?
What`s wrong with you?
You stare at me with hate.
What`s wrong with me?
I can`t look at you.
What`s wrong with me?

I have a rare genetical disease that’s making me blind. I can hardly see anymore. It’s so difficult to write this post. The disease has also affected my muscles and nervous system. I’m wheelchair bound and I’m getting weaker day by day. I lost my job and my fiancee, she left me. I’m just 33 yrs and I wanted so much from life. But God has left me all alone. The doctor says I won’t ever get better. I’m going to die from either heart failure or breathing failure or failure of the liver/kidney. I don’t want to die in so much suffering. I want […]