I have lost all hope of my life becoming something “normal”. I’ve decided I will die on halloween. I don’t know how just yet. But I’m using the time to give my stuff away, make sure someone can take care of Violet, and that my boyfriend will be ok. He’s strong, and we haven’t been together more than a week. No one will miss me

i just hate my life…i dont want this anymore i already tried to kill myself once i was just too sad and the emottion on wrath was just going on and on i just stoped thinking for a couple of seconds and tried to break my neck out of all sudden eventhought i put strength and heared the sound it didnt work…i stoped and thought about it and what i just was about to do…some days later i have this again…i just cant stand this i feel my parents look down on me sometimes most of my classmates or the people i meet hate me […]

Like the id, ego, superego aspect.  For myself, I’m kind of on the fence.  It seems like it explains some aspects of human behavior, but it also seems a bit arbitrary.

My time is here
my love
not a sin to be together love can not be happening
loneliness is killing me
sin jail

I never thought this was going to happen
you came in my life
like a comet passing in the dark
in a blink
you robbed my heart
I no longer know what to do if you are not here 
I feel lost in a maze inside my mind
Death and fear
are unite to destroy us
grab my hand and let’s go
to find a world where we could be together

My time has come
dear love
not a sin to kiss me […]

We own a small mom and pop motel which is very stressful to begin with. In 13 years we have not had to fire anyone because it would always work out that they quit first. We always preferred not to fire people but to let things run there course until the person just left. We live on an island community where everyone knows each other and many people are related. It has always been in our best interest to let things run there course and not fire any of our contract labor as not to stir the pot. We are very dependent on locals referring […]

I have always thought I had Borderline Personality Disorder, but I find myself in a bit of a situation.  I was diagnosed with severe depression and an anxiety disorder and not anything else. I am on lots of meds, which are also used to treat that and Bipolar Disorder. They worked for a while, but it’s getting worse and worse. I haven’t been able to get anyone to help me diagnose what I think is the true issue. I can’t get into a Psychiatrist bc they told me I’d have to be put in a 72 hr hold before they could assign me to anyone. […]

you people…why don’t you come out? why, why are you stuck? enslaved by your own mind? can’t your mind think otherwise? where are you? can you find yourself among all these torrents of thoughts and emotions? do you even exist anymore? can’t you change anything? have you given up? or have you, in the last desperate attempt to save your existence, shaken hands with your dark, looping mind and now work from its side…helping it to go more downwards through your reason. you… are seekers of freedom, my friends, its the highest hope & destination anybody can ever desire!; but is this your way to achieve […]

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IfRY3SsozuM

just something I think most of us can relate to

It has been 3 weeks ago since I had to leave the psychiatric hospital. In those 3 weeks a lot of things have changed. Everything is for me too stressful and I feel really stressed. I also feel really down, more suicidal and I don’t wanna do a single thing, there’s not a single spark of happiness in me. I even can’t handle school, and I’m doing only the half of my lessons. I really don’t know how to go further anymore. I’m fighting to get a better life for 10 years now, and it only gets worser and worser, so why should I anymore? […]

Hows it going everyone?, this is us a random group of perfect strangers united by one common thing!

Ok you guys and girls, here is a post you can all argue your opinions on. I feel bad that so much arguing is being done on other people’s posts that aren’t even commenting back. lol I can only imagine the look on their faces when they see how off topic their own post have gotten in their absence.

Feel free to say anything you want here!

This should be interesting! 😉

It really was a blur. I don’t really know how it started, but when I was done, I had neat lines on my leg. It didn’t hurt like I thought it would. The razor had a bite, but it was like a mix of pain and satisfaction. It was almost like the droplets of blood proved a point to me…. I finally did something about all of this pain… It started with little nicks, just to see if I could really handle it… Then it turned into deeper, longer lines. I had no idea what to expect… At least now I do…

PLEASE believe that you are precious and irreplaceable. No one can take your place in the world. You are the only “YOU” in this world. Please don’t give up hope! You have lots of potential! And i’m sure you will do great things in life! I’ll be there for you. You can contact me at truereality1994@gmail.com. Take care!

If you think about it, there is at least one person in your life, which is really special. One you have different kind of connection with. A kind of person who understands your body language. Person you don’t have to explain much and talk a lot. For me that kind of person was Chris.

I knew Chris for over ten years. From one side our relations didn’t change much, from the other they did and a lot.

When I met him he was just this dark person, who chose company of himself rather then anybody else. And I kind of steped in to his life and for […]

I needed help, and no one was there

I needed someone

Once I found her

She died

She was the only person that was there when no one else was

I appreciate everyone’s input into my issue. Unfortunetely I went ahead and took down my post. I get it, I have horrible flaws. I know this. It’s what I’m trying to fix. I just needed an ear to listen to me and helpful words to help me feel better. This is precisely what I meant when I said I do everything wrong. I’m a screw up. Call me a slut. I don’t care anymore, it’s ok. This is also why I hate myself. Why I don’t want to see tomorrow. I don’t want sympathy, need help. But like I said its fine.

so my ma always told me that there are two types of love out there, there’s the steady breeze and the hurricane, a breeze is slow and patient, it fills the ails of the boats in the harbour and lifts the laundry on the line, it cools you on a hot summers day, brings the leaves of fall like clockwork every year. you can count on a breeze, steady and safe and true.
but there’s nothing steady about a hurricane it rips through town, sending the ocean foaming up the sore. Tearing down trees and power lines and anything or anyone dumb or fucked up […]

I need to go, before I hurt someone. I’m tired of screwing up, the thoughts are back in full force. A tiny voice telling me that leaving now is my best choice. Why can’t it shut up? Why can’t anyone realize what I’ve done to myself before? Why can’t they see the scars, or hear me at night? Why can’t anyone grab a bottle of glue and at least try to put me together, make me human?

Mad World by Gary Jules

All around me are familiar faces
Worn out places, worn out faces
Bright and early for the daily races
Going nowhere, going nowhere
Their tears are filling up their glasses
No expression, no expression
Hide my head I wanna drown my sorrow
No tomorrow, no tomorrow

And I find it kind of funny
I find it kind of sad
The dreams in which I’m dying are the best I’ve ever had
I find it hard to tell you,
I find it hard to take
When people run in circles its a very, very
Mad world, mad world

Children waiting for the […]