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it really is amazing.most sp community is sleeping and it is dark.but i am typing and it is mid day really really i don’t know why but it feels strange in good way:-?
Globalization wooo
I feel your pain and see the weight you’re carrying.
Just keep in mind, more weight can be added.
People think deciding to take your own life is easy, like deciding what colour of shirt you wanna buy or what flavour of ice cream you wanna get. That couldn’t be further from the truth. Dying is complicated. I am not talking about the impulsive ones but the ones that take planning and consideration. The ones where you map out exactly what you need to do, how will your family be provided for when you are dead and who will look after your pets. The thought of loved ones finding me dead or hearing about my death has kept me going but not […]
I am in a group and we are 4 friends. My bf is 1 i am 2 my friend is 3 and my bf friend is 4. My bf is in the hhospital because she ait some cristal glasses by depression, I beging to talk to friend number 4 she begang to say that she is there for me and I feelt a little better but then she begang to say shes jelouse of me and that she wants me to get out  of my bf’s life. I said no thst I will always be there for her she got mad and begang to insultme […]
i ask that u bless them !and keep them safe in whatever they do ! my friends i do have ! i feel need ur help ”Lord thats why i prtect them !! there your angles with broken wings and we need them on our team !!
i just feel like an overall miserable person and it’s been building for so long, which is why my misery comes out often now. it’s difficult to suppress and hold inside. i dont know what to do anymore. i dont know how to convey how upset i am without it coming out in a way that will cause a fight. im screwed no matter what i do. if i just say things calmly, the magnitude of my hurt and frustration is not heard and it gets completely ignored, which leads to misery, if i yell, it just causes a fight and i get yelled at […]
been doing some research on the newest drug du jour-ativan. reading all the stories about why it is one shouldn’t consume alcohol with this drug. some silly thing about both being cns depressants and one may forget to breath. didn’t find anything that mentions pot specifically but i am guessing its about the same. home alone tonite so i can bake myself silly. not too concerned that my breathing will cease. the fact that i could do something to that affect hasn’t escaped my attention. not feeling it today. be my luck i would fuck it up somehow. someone commented on a previous post that […]
I’m a 22 year old mother, my daughter is 8 months old, I have a college degree, and I still can’t get out of my parents house. Fuck. I gotta get out. -.-
these are pretty good, if no one has seen them yet:
http://www.buzzfeed.com/hnigatu/comics-that-capture-the-frustrations-of-depression
#7 is a little scary, but #13 should be posted everywhere (imo)
Am I a horrible person for not wanting a family?
I didn’t have a childhood because of my mother’s choices. When she killed herself, all of her problems went to me. I witnessed her kill herself, and that’s the only memory I have of her. I remember how much my dad cried when he found her.
I never want to be the person to cause somebody that much pain. I can’t do that, I just can’t. I don’t trust myself. I’m stronger than her, I know I am, but my biggest fear in life is that I’m going to end up like her. I already have her […]
Is there anything left for me to hate about myself? My eyes, my nose, my personality, I hate it all. I loved to read to escape to a place where I could be anyone I wanted, I could be how I wished I could see myself, only I wake up feeling worse. How long before I end what makes me the most miserable? how long before I can drift away and never come back.
I started college this year. I finally thought I was getting better. I stopped hating the world around me, only to realize, I never hated the world. I hate myself, and nothing I seem to do makes that better. Everything I do just makes me hate myself even more. Only this time, there is no one but myself. I don’t know what to do anymore. I don’t want to be anyone else, but I just can’t live being me. All I can do is put on a mask and look like the person everyone wants me to be, but how long can I hate myself […]
maybe his story can be interesting. To the begginig at the end can be something that could surprise you.
I think the people who really get through this life and even seem to have fun in it are just really good escapists.
I escaped tonight a lot. Escaped through cooking dinner, watching television, making dessert and watching more television. The Roast of James Franco was pretty funny. I’d recommend it. And salmon’s supposed to be good for brain health. I swear the one week I ate it 3 times that week I felt overall better. Just a sense of wellness I couldn’t explain and I definitely think it had something to do with salmon. If life felt like this more often I’d totally want […]
i’m done. I’m so far gone. i love him more than anything on this earth, i care about him more than anything. and he can’t see that he is actually killing me. i hate myself. when am i ever able to redeem myself? when am i ever able to get anything positive in return? i dedicate every second of the day to him. how can someone want to be so mean ALL the time. FOREVER. please, he has to step back and see my dedication. he has to step back and see im a human. please. im done. so i’m going to try my best […]
What do i want in life?
As i have often said before, all i want in life is to be happy. but that doesn’t seem to be reason enough, it doesn’t give me the drive i need to push my self to the limit and climb higher.
As i sit here and think the goal to simply be happy will never be enough. happiness seems to happen so often and it is so stringent; it is contained in the moment and in context.
It is so abstract and can happen at any given moment.
Happiness is procured out of nothing really.
It is so hard to explain at any given […]
I’m exhausted, and not just me, the people around me as well. Some nights I just sob in bed, shoving my desire to go get help back down my throat because I know no one wants to wake up to listen to me cry about how I’m hurting, feeling destructive and suicidal. I guess when I feel like I do some times, all I want to do is get help, to talk about it, tell someone so I’m not alone. More often than not lately, I’m choosing to be alone fighting all by myself against myself. I might be screaming into my pillows, at war […]
I’m such a waste of breath. I wake up and feel clueless why I should try this again. Everyday is monotonous. I am a failure as a wife, as a mother, as a friend, a daughter, a sibling, a photographer, a Christian, a person…every aspect of a person.
Everyone else is better off with me dead. 🙁 But when I say it or share how I’m feeling, I get anger frustration, guilt trips, and lectures in return. I’m screwed up. I absorb life wrong.
I don’t know what I’m doing. I don’t think i’ll be around much longer. I’m screwing up the lives of everyone I love. […]
It’s nice to love your best friend. But it’s not easy when you love love love your best friend. I mean when you fall in love. It’s hard to hide and hurts not to tell. And share. You should never ever ever tell them how you feel about that kind of love, cause you will lose your best friend and suddenly will become a stranger. Theres no such pain that can compare to love someone who doesn’t love you back. Yes you can take that risk and be brave enough to tell them. You can fail and get really fucking hurt, or in the case […]