Taking my own life sounds terrible to other people right now but to me it sounds really good right now. I keep hearing about how this little 12 year old girl committed suicide because she was bullied so much it pushed her to that point. You don’t understand how much that made me break down inside and cry. Today is the day after the 12 year anniversary of the 9/11 attack. I lost my uncle in that terrible attack. And people expect me to get over him? He was a hero. He saved so many people, On his way up the stairs again to save […]
I told my friends that I was raped and it made me suicidal. They not only called me a liar and a drama queen but posted cruel things about me on Facebook. All of this because my feelings prevented me from attending a trip they wanted to go on. I’m 20 and thought I would have a good set of friends by now but suddenly I have none and I don’t know what to do.
I cant remember barely who i used to be or when the last time was that icould genuinly smile and say that i was happy. Ive been looking for quite the time and no one wishes to support me. I come off as a beast not only as a coping mechanism but also a filtering system to see who is willing to dig past the disgusting to find the pure within it. I am not a bad person nor do i wish to be. Its just a matter of balancing who i truly am and who i am in person. I do know that im […]
Would you find it strange for a 20 year old boy to be hanging out with a 34 year old man every night? For a little more info: it’s not just one 20 year old boy, it’s a while bunch of boys, probably about 15 or so, some of them as young as 14 years old. And I’ve been told this man hardly leaves his house. Opinions on the situation??
been awhile since i have been here. the summer months are usually better for me depression wise. i can write with relative impunity knowing that those who know me will not likely see this. not that i have any real bombshell to unleash. same ole shit just different day. while i enjoy fall for football season i hate it for the upcoming extended darkness. my mood becomes darker along with the shortened daylight hours. trying to come up with a strategy to combat this but i am not too confident . it has been this way for x amount of years why should 2013 be […]
im tired of feeling alone and broke inside. Im tired of crying myself to sleep every night. Im tired of over thinking everything. im done with being that person everyone hates. im tired of sliding that razor across my skin just to be sure im alive. im done feeling worthless and unwanted. i hate feeling like all those words i am called daily are true. im tired of being put down. i honestly hate getting drunk just to cope but its the only thing that helps. im tired of being depressed, anorexic, and having extreme anxiety. im tired of hating myself. Can it be the […]
why is life a disappointment?  I really want to be gone but it will just show i failed at life. bu whose to judge me nobody knows what i feel so i guess i will disappear  for good
Looking from the outside, you probably see a normal teenage girl trying to fit in, but on the inside it’s more like a depressed girl trying to make it through the day. I think i have gotten to a point where anything can push me over the edge, even if it just something like you’re stupid or even if it’s a joke. I cant help but wonder what i wrong with me. Nothing i do seems to go right, no one can see my good intentions. No one would care even if they did. That’s the thing, people say they care when they have never […]
Watch out now, take care
Beware of falling swingers
Dropping all around you
The pain that often mingles
In your fingertips
Beware of darkness
Watch out now, take care
Beware of the thoughts that linger
Winding up inside your head
The hopelessness around you
In the dead of night
Beware of sadness
It can hit you
It can hurt you
Make you sore and what is more
That is not what you are here for
Watch out now, take care
Beware of soft shoe shufflers
Dancing down the sidewalks
As each unconscious sufferer
Wanders aimlessly
Beware of maya
Watch out now, take care
Beware of greedy leaders
They take […]
There’s something cold and blank behind her smile
She’s standing on an overpass
In her miracle mile
“You were from a perfect world
A world that threw me away today
Today to run away”
A pill to make you numb
A pill to make you dumb
A pill to make you anybody else
But all the drugs in this world
Won’t save her from herself
Her mouth was an empty cut
And she was waiting to fall
Just bleeding like a polaroid that
Lost all her dolls
Really, I just wish I could reach out to you all, to anyone who is hurting and tell you I love you.
It’s not bullshit. I don’t need to know you to love you – I do. I get it. I get your pain and I’m sorry.
I am certainly not telling anyone what to do or not do, I am so close to suicide myself.
I just want you to know someone cares, even if you’ve never met them.
waking up every day
wishing I’d just wake up
the nightmare is still here
haunting me
graying my vision
oh god why can’t i wake up
then i remember
i am awake
and i am living a nightmare
i
am
so
alone
The darkness is ever present
and just like the summer,
just like the light,
all things die
entering another existance
far from the nightmare
winter is coming
and i am tired
and i
just
want
to
sleep
so i don’t know if this has ever been posted here before, but you might want to look at this before deciding on methods:
http://itthing.com/the-worst-ways-to-die
brown hair down her back
blue eyes bright
a smile across her face
cant you see shes happy?
brown hair all over
blue eyes red from crying
a smile that seems it never existed
but cant you see shes happy?
brown hair matted
blue eyes shut
a smile with purple lips
but cant you see shes happy?
brown hair lay beautifully
blue eyes at rest
a smile that many will soon forget
now cant you see shes happy?
I am 300 feet above the ground.
The exhilarating and yet familiar feeling that you are above everything else that man created.
The clouds chug slowly, dragged by the wind that is working its way
to that beautiful place where no clouds have to move anymore.
A step closer to the edge and I’ll be off balance,
tumbling over this ambitious edifice that attempted to scrape the sky.
Hah! Only if they knew. No one and nothing can’t.
The sky is where height ends…of dreams, of tears, of love.
A step closer and it’ll all be gone, plus several seconds of freedom to a place that never existed.
A void paradise where everything else […]
I don’t think I want to die anymore…
But if I could just have the chance to die and come back… Just to see what it was like… Maybe I wouldn’t hurt myself anymore. To kill myself without dying; to just go unconscious and wake up in that hospital bed. To see how many people actually give a fuck. That is what I’m asking for. To see if maybe my own father would be standing there without his girlfriend, without his second family, without the disappointment that I see every time I look at you. Sometimes I hate you; sometimes I feel you […]
I’m sick of everything, not only do people not care about me, but now they don’t want anything to do with me. I can’t even cry, I just want to fucking explode already. I think I might buy some rope today, just to be ready.
I just can’t figure  out any reason to keep living. I bring no significance to this world. I contribute nothing. Everyday is torture knowing that I’m going to die. It’s like knowing that every day is your last day. This is definitely it for me. I’ve set a date. Soon this will all be over. I just must do a few things before I go and I have to wait for the money to get what I need.
There’s no way life was meant to be like this. The only thing that would fix me is a whole new brain. My brain just isn’t right and […]
Pictures of cutting are ok, but discussing methods is not? Good one.
I was depressed for a year a few years ago, thankfully I’ve overcome this and now am determined to help whoever and everyone that I can. The only problem is I don’t know how to/ the best method to help with depression/ self harm so any tips/ methods are greatly appreciated I do recommend the butterfly project as it is an amazing idea. Thanks