Hi there. I’m a suicide survivor. I want to share my story to everyone that is going through the same thing. I have type one diabetes and that was one of the main reasons why I got made fun of, including my looks. I’m very insecure and I hate it. I’m a survivor. I wanted to die. I got a pocket knife and I was going to do it, but my brother walked in on me and he stopped me. He let me cry into him the whole night. A few weeks ago, I drank bleach. I threw away the bottle and my mom saw […]
It’s those times when you feel completely alone when you start to feel needy for people that dont give a fuck about you id rather die of depression instead of bug someone who doesnt even fucking think about me am and forever will be depressed unhappy and forever alone 🙁
Well I just got done seeing the movie Elysium with Matt Damen.
It was really well done as far as action and cgi. But lacked a certain back story all around. They sort of just tell a rough story about how the rich live in space and the poor suffer on earth. It’s the perfect movie for those who see the world falling apart in the future through over population, depleted resources, and a society of the few wealthy enough to leave the planet and still stay within reach enough to keep total control of the worlds people.
In this movie they have portrayed the […]
It hurts the way you ignore me
You put me on the edge hoping i drift away from you
Im always with you,
My only regret in life was sharing something beautiful with you.
You betrayed me let me fall and rust and disintegrate.
Now im dead, not in body but soul
I will hunt your conscience for the things you did, and for the things
you didnt.
Do you know how it feels to disintegrate over several years of pain and suffering?
Now im empty, filled only with the pain of old and new. My destiny seems to be
pain.crying.anxiety.hate.regret.suicide. Today,tomorrow,forever.
The pain fill my […]
I really don’t know what to do. At least I’ve had my life insurance policy for several years. But, the payout is only $100,000 and the family could use more. Over time, I’ve crawled into a deeper, darker hole. I go through the motions, but even that isn’t what it used to be. I used to be able to fake it all much better. Now, my home life and work life are affected and it’s been in a downward spiral for months that is worse than the years prior. Is it better to have my son grow up with a parent who seems depressed and lost […]
The room stands still as a gust of cold air dries the tears left on my wet face. As I scroll down my computer screen I can’t help but to keep reading the tear jerking stories of what people have written on “The suicide Projectâ€.  Today in the United States, suicide takes more lives than car accidents. Over the past couple of years the suicide rates as risen and it has affected more men than women.
My story begins…..
Eyes swollen tear dots dried up and there goes the rumble of my unfed belly. I was witnessing the darkest moment of my life and I didn’t even […]
Well just saw that I misspelled my username
I can’t even get that right
I should just die right away
Speaking of which a guy I know offered me a suicide “pact”
He wants us to comit it togheter. I don’t know if I should do it or not. I wanna say yes but what if I chicken out ? What if I mess up ? What if things don’t go as planned?
I wanna die but I keep asking myself do I REALLY want it 100%. I mean if that’s the case then why haven’t I done it by now? Why haven’t I […]
u think u can tell me off…your sopposed to be my aunt gosh I fuckin give up…….
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I hope this is the final revelation followed by action, for what is a revelation in itself? I see a universe inside me and there is a god there, he was’nt there when I was born but with each passing day he took birth and grew stronger. And I am not saying this in a good way. The loop is in me, there is a disconnect in my brain and it is tough to mend it.
The solution is to let me go. Beg for wishes like we always do, but this time beg your own self for things, for you are all there […]
My life hasn’t been easy. I lost my family in a car crash when i was 2. I get beat, starved and sexually assauled by my adopted family. I cut and attempted suicide 5 times. My stepdad even uses me for sex. I will get tied down and he gets paid for perverts to come in and use me. Ive moved around so much in my life, the longest ive been somewhere was a month 1/2. Ive tried to tell teachers, cops, parents etc. but no one would beilve me because of my ADHD and being in the psych center as much as i have.
At […]
There is no choice in depression. It is not an option that I, we, elect. We didn’t want to be subjected to the hate we have for ourselves, or the pure misery that comes standard with seeing the light peer through the curtains of  a morning’s sunshine. I, for one, did not want to spend every FUCKING day in contemplation of whether it is really worth getting out of bed just to fuck up again and again and again. I wanted to grow old with that one special person, being able to look back on my life knowing that I had done my very best, […]
No one is at home, this is the last chance. I thought about it alot and if I happen to fail there is no going back.. I haven’t taken in any pills yet but I already feel very sick just from thinking of them and my stomach is churning really bad. It’s 11:00 AM here and my brother gets back at 1 o’clock  so I need to hurry.. Should I live, or die? Please be honest!
When i got back from my gospel camp i felt “new” in a way i felt good inside everything was turning around then the “shit hit the fan”. About a few weeks from being back my little sister went to Seattle for her round up band thing and my mother is a volunteer for this band. turns out my mom met some guy who is another volunteer with the round up band and now my parents are splitting up and that’s just one of the things that making me stress out hardcore. If any of you have read my other posts you would have noticed […]
Sliced my thigh open, needless to say it (death) didn’t happen. It (the experience of slicing myself open) was fun, loved itt! A wonderful rush, some drugs, some stitches and I’ve been healed (praise the lord!). Didn’t hit anything important I suppose but it’s whatever. I’m thankful for the experience. I’ve grown from it. Wheee I’m done.
Ya’ll are some beautiful souls.
Didn’t even get to meet god.
Or Satan.
Hospital bills are a rip off.
no no this cant be happening ive been feeling better for a month no thoughts of sucide no thoughts of depprsion ive been going to the gym and been feeling so much better but now all of a sudden its rushing back why is this happening i hate feeling like that what do i do i have that feeling of sorrow deep inside me it hits like bullet in my chest
I just want to cry. I can’t. I want to be depressed. I can’t. I want to fall apart. I can’t. I don’t miss it, at all. I just… I can’t anymore. My life is pretty steady. Easy going. I laugh, smile, I’m generally happy I just want to break. Fall down. I just can’t cry. I’m not allowed. I won’t let myself. I can’t go back. I’ve learned a lot, seen a lot, done a lot. I just want to be a mess. I know that won’t fix anything. I’ve been holding on. Everyone around me is happy, I’m happy. Why do I want […]
I think this is the beginning of the end. My 15th birthday was almost a month ago, I wasn’t ever suppose to make it that far. I’m suppose to be dead, I want to be dead. It’s the summer where I live and everyone seems to be having the time of there life, everyone except me. I don’t leave my house, my bed to be more specific. I don’t need to leave the house in order to feel judged, I’m my worse critic. I’m not pretty enough, skinny enough, smart enough, I’m nothing that anyone wants. I don’t even like myself, let alone love myself. […]
I used to be really depressed, even hung myself once in a motel room only to be stopped by housekeeping. Any way over the past couple of years i have been feeling much better and honestly thought i was over it. this last year it is as if there is some force that is jamming me down into a deep hole and won’t let me out. My car is a piece of shit so i start saving for a new one, it gets stolen this week and i am at $450 and counting fixing it, savings gone. I start working out to get my old […]