I’m looking to my right, what do I see? I see a mother, who does little, and doesn’t even care about me. A mother that doesn’t give the slightest bit of care to a child that has to face loneliness wherever he goes…

I look to my left, what do I see? I see me and my phone’s reflection staring back at me, I see something that doesn’t exist, like the hope that I try to feel. I see lights in the distance of a small town. That’s nice. It’s too dark to see much of the world I hate. Just darkness. The darkness that hides […]

i dont know what to say im crying as i wight this iv seen 2 of my frends cap them selfs right infrond of me and ther perants going mad with greef cos thay know it was them who sent ther sons and dorters to ther graves throw not lisning and juging my preants do this to me but iv manigd to keep it qwiut and inch by inch im geting there i know if i told my perants  thad ether go mad or not belev me am i wong ? iv gust read a post of a person who is going to end it […]

The other day, I did a very shocking thing. Something I swore I’d never do…. I asked for help. On the way to school I explained to my m0m the severity of my cutting and told her I wanted it to end. I’m still in awe that I did it. Everyone I’ve told is so happy, but the anxiety for what’s coming next is driving me mad. I want to understand what will happen next… am I going away? When asked, should I say I’ve thought about suicide?

I gave up three years of my life.
Three years.
To a abusive relationship.
He saved me from myself in the start.
Made me feel pretty, needed, wanted.
The first person to do so.
I fell head over heels.
Then he made little comments. They dug in my skin, little insecure words becoming engraved.
Then he pushed me, shoved, hit, kicked, cut, choked, raped.
Then his friends began to come around. Then they started the same thing.
I went through this alone.
I walked with bruises on my skin and not one person asked.
I had cuts on my skin, they averted their eyes.
It’s […]

:'(

ther are 1000 of powders and poshions all i fear and dred some will stop me from criying some will kill me stone dead all the pills and sringis deth opone ther lips

botels jars and a old cigar liter my old room wile ill fly whay up hiy in the mist and gloom all i see arownd me the twinkling of stars i see my 2 frends and famaly crying rownd a box the toom stone said “he is dead to his frends his name was will now hes gon this is his song up an till he toke the pill”

i see all my famaly all 3 in a cherch were that morn […]

I don’t even know why I am posting my story on this site, I’m just a normal girl who doesn’t want to be around anymore. I’m afraid that I have fallen too deep…

I have a boyfriend, we are both eighteen, we’ve been dating for almost two years. It is a serious relationship, we are sexually active. He used to be suicidal, and me, being a normal girl and all, I wanted to comfort him, to nurse him back to health I suppose. He was so romantic and emotional back then.

Now is a different story. Completely different. He started changing, he’s more open with himself, […]

There is always a possibility that things could get better,
STOP saying this, there is also a possibility things could get worst!
You feel this way now, but tomorrow you might feel diffrent.
NO I might have the courage for this today while tomorrow I FEEL the exact same way and you just screwed up my opening
I understand what your going through.
Actually you dont, see we are two diffrent people with diffrent make up, what might be a little to you might be huge in my eyes
You dont want to do this.
Dont try to read my mind, cause your wrong!

There are […]

A wallflower is a person going unnoticed. I’m a wallflower because I simply want to go unnoticed. I just watched “The Perks Of Being A Wallflower” I recommend everyone on this website to watch it because it is inspirational and true. It tells a timeless story and describes me in so many ways. I love it so much, I have to say I’m obsessed. I don’t have much to rant about other than me wanting to die but that’s just the usual. I can’t sit still and type to day so it’s just whatever at the moment. I will probably come back on later.

I’m not feeling so good these past few months. I’ve had plans on dying but I don’t think I can do it until I’m sure that it’s going to work. I don’t want a failed attempt. I just want to stop living. There’s nothing else for me in this world. It’s great for other people with bipolar disorder to have the strength to continue living. I’m just weak and I can’t bear shifting moods so much anymore. I want a foolproof plan. Something that’s sure and final. Something that won’t catch attention or cause suspicion. I just want to disappear.

It has been 2 months since I last came here on SP.  Some of you might remember me… Amakua, rocketman, etc.

I have become a completely different person. I hereby declare that I am out of the pit of suicidal thoughts.

I am no longer that person. The little girl who used to be afraid of the darkness. The girl who cried alone in the middle of the night. I am no longer a pessimistic fool who depreciate myself. I am no longer a weak failure who always yearn to slit my wrists with a razor.

I no longer smile with dead eyes.

Now there are really no more […]

This is a rut that I can’t find my way out of I really don’t look forward to the future and memories of my past are tainted with my way of thinking I look back at times in the sixth grade and think why didn’t I take the time to love myself  instead of ignoring the feelings and telling myself  why can’t I take taunting from other kids because it’s truth because it’s the truth and now I hate myself  and I have so much anger and I don’t know how many times I’ve wished I could go back in time and change things I […]

I’m 24 years old. I went straight through school into uni then into full time work. I work in mental health, and spend all day every day helping people as much as I can. I love my work but always know I’m a hypocrite, as I’ve struggled with depression and anxiety since I was 7.  I get treatment and continue to take medication, but obviously there are ups and downs.

my first relationship  was 18 months long, and I spent most of it being told what to do, including changes I needed to make to my personality and appearance for him to love me. When that […]

I’m thinking about doing it. Ending it all. What’s stopping me?? I don’t know. I guess I’m just not quite there yet. My friend has been helping me. I don’t know how else to stop the voices. Or the Shadows. My dad won’t let me take Pharmecuticals, but thinks Vitamins are okay. I wish I was strong enough to just do it. Someone tell me it’s allright to just let go, please.

she stands she stares
something so clear
she is faced with fear
fear in herself and with who she lies
to who dares to even try to find
the cause for the problem
that is buried deep in her mind
that cant come out
she stares down to her feet
feet that turn black
black for death
that mirror oh so clear
soon turns to fade
a near deadly shade
and what does she owe this
unfortunate day
a day she wishes to go away
she sees blood squirt out the sides
of the deadly shaded mirror
that used to be clear
she spots a […]

Hey, my name is Jack.
today has been a pretty shit day, just like every other day I guess. In year 7 is when it all started, my dad stopped being my dad.
Dad was working in the Air Force and previously worked in the navy for years, so he is a respectable man. Although while i was in year 7, he got discharged from the air force for injuring his knee and neck. Now I’m 18, I finished school last year, I hated school. I hated the teacher, I hated the education, i hated the school in general. Everyone is so stupid, i honestly felt like one of the smartest people in the […]

I am tired of feeling so depressed. Im tired of dealing with everyone who hates me. im tired of not feeling pain besides the pain in my heart. im tired of being alone. im tried of dealing with every day. im tired of my life being meaningless. im tired of seeing everyone who wants me dead. so I’m going to finally do it. i am going to do what all those people have been waiting for. Tonight i finally have the courage to end all of it…. Please someone help me. Save me. Im weak. I need help.

Crimson sleeves,

Tearing at the seams,

Broken dreams,

Smiles aren’t what they seem,

Hopefully I’ll get my fix,

From an ugly mix,

Tears and blood,

Run together as one,

As I leave behind a broken legacy.

I am scared of myself.
In the day.
I am pretty, I am smiles, I am the girl who aids.
At night?
My skin starts itching.
Then aching.
Burning.
I don’t want to die just yet.
I break perfume bottles.
Eyeliner caps.
Anything to get the words from my head on my skin.
Nothing stops it anymore.
I stood on the roof.
Three floors up, that white concrete calling me.
I shouldn’t want to jump.
What’s wrong with me.
Why do I hate myself.
Monster.
I can’t save myself from my mind.
I am falling again.
I cut my palms then left words on my […]