I am a 13 year old girl, i don’t really want to die but i am really not happy.
I don’t want to die is because i feel i have still to much to in life and don’t have enough time.
I am in the 2 year of highschool and i do a really hard school and i a about 4 hours busy with homework every day, my parents think it is to hard for me but i REALLY don’t want to go to another school because i always feel like a have to work as hard as posible because if i didn’t i will […]

My boyfriend of 1 year broke up with me saying that he no longer loved me. It sounds so pathetic that I’m this upset about it, but when we were together I felt lonely, and I feel even lonelier now I’m not with him. Yesterday I attempted to jump off the top of a car park but he stopped me. My parents are impossible to talk too, and I’m scared of my friends running away from my problems because they are too much. Tomorrow I intend to kill myself because I have no hope anymore. I dont even know if people on here will care. […]

I always say ” Sucicide is not the answer” But now im thinking differently, i need help, but everyone just laughs at me, i wanna runaway, fly away and smile for once, not be sat in a ddarkk room crying.

I wan to run away, and wake up in another day, live in silence for a day, no stress, no tears, freedom.

I reaallyyyyyyyyyy like this guy, we used to talk everyday but whenever he has a girlfrind he starts ignoreing me, he calls me bby and puts my hopes up and makes me feel wanted, i feel like i want to die whe he doesnt talk to me.

Hello and I am here to share my suicide story! Thinking about suicide is a big part of my life and it is hard that I am not allowed to talk about it. I am a man and I am turning 30 next month.

I remember I was first thinking about suicide when I was 9. I was not thinking about it as something I would like to do. I was just thinking about it with curiosity.

By the time I was 15 I was feeling suicidal. I remember I was living in a suicidal fantasy most of the time. I couldn’t stop imagining horrible ways that […]

I will admit, the one advantage to having no one give a damn about you is that you can do as you please. Do what you wish since no one will care anyway. Freedom in disguise?

if your with someone and you find out they were talking to a crap ton of others girl for a while, when do you draw the line? he hasn’t talked to any of them in about three weeks but I’m constantly afraid he is going to start up again and then decide he likes one of those girls better. he has done it before, broke up with me for someone he just met an hour before breaking up with me. and I just found out he was watching one of the girls via web cam when she was horny. why does he do these things […]

Yeah. It’s raining. Storming, actually, but whatever. Same thing. I broke up with Owen. I wanted to give him a chance, but he really was too old for me. Anyway, so I’m a “single pringle” as Dawson says it. Lol. Well, I just found out that Tennyson has a girlfriend. And he’s friends with Brycen again. So, even though I’m not exactly happy, I’m glad that he’s happy. Tomorrow, after school, I have to go to the band room. Kids that want to be in band are trying out instruments, and I told Mr. Kempf  (my band director) that I would help. My little sister […]

Tomorrow’s my first day at the new college. I don’t know if I should be happy about that or should I grieve, I’m at a loss.  It seems like the best option for me is not to care, like at all. I’m trying to, very hard. I’ll meet my new group mates, and they will meet me. For them I will be nothing but a new girl, or the 13th girl. They know nothing about me. And I have decided not to tell them anything about who I am, nothing about my disturbing past. Only the obvious details they won’t fail to notice. The facts […]

They say I saved a life yesterday. For about 6 hours I felt meaningful, like my disgusting existence on this world was justified. Then the feeling crashed hard. i happened to drop a glass and it shattered  on the kitchen floor. And just like that I woke up, like I’ve done every day of my life, realizing that the few pitiful hours of artificial rest from the horror of life were just that: a few pitiful hours of artificial rest.

well maybe my “heroic deed” yesterday was my grand contribution to the world. Or maybe it and the life I saved are just as meaningless as […]

WOOHOO! Finally, the one thing I have ALWAYS wanted is happening, and for real this time too! My parents are splitting up. I have been, mentally,emotionally, and even slightly physically abused but now it should be over right? Coz finally mum is going to save us from our so called “dad” errrerrrr. This is what happens when you expect to much from life. Life says wooah! Slow down there cowboy, I ain’t gonna let you off the hook that easily! Dad had officially gone crazy. If you’ve ever seen my posts then you will get a feel for how much a  phsycopath he is, but […]

When the leaves have fallen from all the trees around me
And the rivers run dry and the seas are lonely
When the skies are black and the tides are turning
i will stand in the arms of fire and burning

i have lived in darkness a long time
over the years my eyes adjusted
until the dark become my world
now i see

times up
clock starts
get in line
fuck up
all hope is lost
the end is here

the road to b’ak’tun 1.0.0.0.0.23

I don’t know y I’m so worried about if kodys sexting or cheating I can see y if he is with all the bs I’ve been doing but I just don’t want to get hurt. I really think I should just stop caring about everything again so I don’t end up trying to kill myself again. Even thoe I’m still thinking about ways of doing it. I guess I’m just still too depressed to see the good in life. I honestly think there nothing worth living for. I hardly see my family and kody seems happy sometimes but I don’t think he’s truly happy. He […]

so…I have no idea if I can go on living anymore…I’ve been lied to and back stabbed so much, yet I’m still only 14. it’s ridiculous. I’ve only told my cousin and my friend and school that I want to die, my situation, etc. I hate my life, and my adoptive parents don’t respect me. hell, if I told them I want to die, they probably wouldn’t take me seriously.  they don’t respect my decisions. for example, they both hate my real dad, who I found myself on facebook last month. I told them how much I wanted to see him, get to chill with […]

So, I’m pretty sure that everyone I knew back when I used this site are all dead. So, on the off chance that any of you are still around, let me know, if not, then I guess that I was right in guessing you’re all gone.

For those of you that don’t know me, here’s a quick description, I’m 19, graduated at 16, joined the Air Force Special Forces at 17, got kicked out from basic for medical crap. Spent my childhood getting severely abused by my mom’s husband, turns out that she cheated on him and that’s how I got here, my biological […]

I’m going to write this out here, not because you are likely to ever see this (almost certainly you’ll never see this). I know you stumble around these sites (not necessarily this one). Instead, I’m writing this because this is all a little cathartic for me. It’s kind of my own therapy for coping, to stumble around these sites.

In the few years that we have known each other, you have become my best friend, and I have become yours. You know this because we walked and talked a few days ago, watched the sunset in the park and refound each other. At least I refound […]

I really don’t care about anything anymore to the point where I no longer care about trying to cheer myself up, or doing anything to make myself comfortable, or happier. To explain a bit about how I got here let me start by saying it’s been a very long time since I have been genuinely happy, and the few times I have been happy it’s for a short time and it’s always followed by way more sadness. I’m 17 now, I finished high school last june, a year younger because I skipped a grade. At high school I had almost no real friends, and there’s […]

if only there was a switch to simply touch and then die.. it would be so much easier than having to find ways to do it ourselves.. but you know what there’s a time to go and is our decision and I’m debating..