It’s too late to say sorry. It’s too late to come clean. It’s too late to come back. It’s too late to be a “friend”. It’s too late.

You had a lot of chances. I rooted for you. You let me down and I’m ok with that.

I’m not ok with my life. I am not ok with having suffered as a result of my choices that were made while trying desperately to improve my circumstances. I am not ok for suffering and hurting for helping others. I am not ok with people who are mean-spirited, vile, and empty making my life miserable even though I try […]

Dont know how to start. Iam so tired of this life it have nothing for me i’m depressed and i have taken some treathment for it it helped a little when i was in hospital for 2 months. now there has just becom more things that makes me want to do suicide. I have once tried to do it with pills and i was almost death when my wife found me. Then i have been for spychiastrist for talking but it just wont help. The things what eat me inside is just too much to take care like when i married my wife all my […]

I feel like a criminal. I feel like i’ve done so many unspeakably horrible things. Yet i havent. Why? I believe i deserve to be tortured and shot dead, because i feel that im such a bad person that i deserve to be dead. Someone like me who is just such a freak deserves to die. I feel like i have no good. I used to think i was compassionate, but im not anymore because my family would always tell me off for it. I just finished one of my many long talks with my brother about my bad traits. This time it was about […]

can u give me a reason not to die today. I lost my 2 boys to death

Perhaps I am to drunk and shouldnt be typing this, but I am. No one, no one, no one, should be forced to live when they are not happy. How dare all of you out there making people feel crappy because they are BRAVE enough to say F U world and do what they feel is nessary. How dare you all talk down to us as if Oh, I have been there and I pulled through, GOOD FOR YOU, do you want a gold star? No, I mean No to experences are ever the same and as humans we are all diffrent and so we […]

I used to joke that even if you lose everything …your money, your friends, your self respect… you always have sleep. That’s not even true. The nightmares, replays of each horrible day, are worse than my days. Sleep, once my only savior, is now just another one of my cruel enemies beating me down at every opportunity.

So each day I grit my teeth and wait for it to be over, and each night I lie awake waiting for the sun to come up. There is no escape from my diseased mind, except to blast it into 1000 pieces. God bless gunpowder.

Hi my name is leeann iam 28 my life is not how i want it to be iam a sweet girl and my family is not happy about it i do so much for them some times i just want to go and end my life its like there no reson for me to be here if they no want me  i driven them around go to the store for them do this and that and nothing no thank u or any thing.Iam so tired of my life i cry and cry very nite and i cant even talk to them about any thing cuse […]

I haven’t been on here in a while, so long, in fact, that I had to make a new account.

I’ve come back because I have no one to talk to anymore. Everyone around me is either ignoring me or they have other issues greater than my own to deal with. I’m in year twelve this year, my last year of school. My sister is in my year level too because she got sick last year and had to do it over two years. This is difficult for me. And I know it’s difficult for her too. But no one sees how much it affects me.

She […]

i cut just to know i feel

i cut because its so surreal

i cut just to know im here

i cut because i belong no where

i cut to cover all my lies

i cut to stay trapped in this time

the pain its just so enticing

im not living unless im slice

all the sins that cover me

it blocks out the sun its smothering

i cut just to stay alive

i cut because i know i cant hide

behind the walls and painted glass

take your hope and shove up your ass

i cant live on bible talk

im a rebel and i know i rock

so i cut just to breath the air

that is granted just because […]

im attracted to your body heat

when we touch its like the first time that we meet

and when you speak its so soft and sweet

it pulls me in like a melody

and know when we kiss its  not good bye

i ill be here lost in time

because…

i cant survive with out you

know this girl i will never doubt you

your word is born and it means to me

all the things that are in my dreams

im lost in the static sound

it pulls me in and i touch the ground

no more wandering

lost and thought and its so haunting

because everything that i wanted

is all the things that you flaunted

ill kiss and hold […]

Red.
Red like blood.
The blood that caused the scars on my wrist.
Red.
Red like the peircing evil in the eyes if the monsters in my nightmares.
Firey red that pulses in their orbs, taunting, teasing.
Red.
Red like fury.
The madness and frustration I feel towards everything.
Red.

I Cut. For All The Shame.

I Cut. And You’re The One To Blame.

I Cut. Releasing Pain And For Comfort.

I Cut. Being Molested By A Pervert.

I Cut. Thinking I’m Worthless.

I Cut. Knowing I Have No Purpose.

I Cut. To See The Blood Fulfill And Rise.

I Cut. For All Those Lies..

I Cut Because It Feels Good To Control My Own Pain For Once.

I Cut….And Next Comes Suicide.

Gives pain to those that are weak and can come out stronger. Endure and take as a reminder that the earthly ties of anguish are still knitted, and no human can untie what was tied by a supreme being. only the spirit and hand of it who laid the blocks and keyholes to that castle has the right to stand and move in it.

I wake to the sound of sadness and betrayal from a thought far far above. Understanding is all I will never get, actions turn to regrets. I lay, in a room, the ceiling is a dark night sky hidden from shooting stars. […]

I’m fifteen, and quite honestly, I’m ready to give up on life. I thought I was going to let my story pour out.. but I guess we can wait until next time.

I haven’t posted here in a while. School among other things has occupied most of my time, but I feel I need to post here.

Everything is slipping away. I’m so young, yet I’ve given practically all my youth and childhood away. I’ve been so wrapped up in trying to grow up and now I just want to turn back the clocks.

I’ve been having to do and see things I’d never thought I would at only my age. I won’t go into specifics, because in all honesty I’m not quite ready to admit them to myself, let alone anyone else… But I’ve strayed so far from […]

Honestly. I have such a broken heart, even if I’m 13. Who the fuck cares? I can’t feel loss at “such a young age”?? You try living my life, see what YOU think this is. I’m not weak. I was weak once. But I grew up. That’s right. 8 years old. My grandpa died, I had to grow up. Within 5 minutes, I was completely mature. I had to be. My grandma just lost it. I had to take care of my little sister. Of course, I was barking orders, but I had to. I pushed the feelings down. I was a drill sergeant for […]

What do we live for? or should I ask WHY?
Some of us manage to achieve something in this so-called “World” like having sonS and daughterS, wife/husband or Family itself. Others of us manage to achieve money and many more material things. But one thing I do not understand, WHY do we exist? There is no sense for us to live, we just achieve some of the things I mentioned above then we just die.. like we never, ever existed.

I know some of you will say something like “We live to create other lifes” “You are selfish,this is the Balance of our World” “You’re crazy” […]

I wanna die and this site askes some really stupid questions…. I am going to hang myself and I wanna know the best way to do it… this site is too complicated for the drunk person… tired and dont wanna do it any longer… fuck this shit

I hate you, you fucked up and lost it all. Get out of my head. Stop reminding me daily….your mom doesn’t want you back. You’ve lost your family. Your fucked. You can’t fix it. Help me. I want to but I don’t. Anybody. Talk to me. . I fucking hate you you stupid *****, look what you did. I’m sorry. I never thought it would turn out like this. It did. Now look at you, sitting here while it eats you alive while your not even fighting back. How can I try when it’s overpowered me? Nobody’s gonna fucking listen anyway, they say they will […]