im not quite sure whats wrong with me anymore. i fall apart so easily on little things. i do not fear death at all but when someone makes a shrewd comment to me about my scars i completely shut down. why?
the other day when hurricane sandy came through, i was with my uncle and a couple of his friends at an atv park. well it was really windy and and the weather was bad. i had gone inside the camper and just 5 seconds of me going inside a tree fell on the camper literally missing me by inches. i almost had my life […]

Lately I wish I could just disappear and be erased from everyone’s’ memories. I hate how everything is going, but I don’t even dare to try to attempt something. It would hurt people a lot, especially my mother who has been in a battle with cancer for almost two years. I try to be optimistic, start the day and keep in my mind that things will get better… I’m 25, and I haven’t done anything with my life. I’m tired of trying and not making anything happen, just one failure after another.

I can’t help it. I just can’t stand it anymore. I’m so alone… There’s no one for me. No one to care, no one to help, no one to even just see.

My friends have been ignoring me, and I don’t know why. I know I’ve snapped a few times, but they have too. And now, one of them, one of the two who mean the most to me, hates me–at the very least. I want to say is was because he wouldn’t communicate with me. I feel like he’s blaming me for everything that happened, and I hate it. I get blamed for enough […]

Please help me.

Im on the brink of suicide.

I want to die.

Why can’t i just runaway and live forever alone?

With no harm being done to me.

Is it coming to and end?

Will it ever stop chasing me?

No!

It will haunt me for the rest of my life.

It is my fault he did what he did.

It is my fault he is gone.

Not to a better place.

No, but to a place where is soul will be tortured for ever.

That is where I, […]

I hate life. What the hell is the point of it, anyway? Why ME? Why was I stuck in this hellhole? I am so out of place. Everyone else at my school is perfect. Skinny, pretty, acne-free.  Then there’s me, an annoying, short, ugly little freak. My mom hates me. My dad hates me. Everyone hates me. I hate me. The only reason I’m still here is because I can’t get the right pills. I cut, people call me an attention whore. I’ve tried to kill myself 3 times now. My damn parents caught me and “grounded” me for 3 months because they didn’t want […]

Im ending my life tonight. I am tired of being bullied and abused. I’ll always love you babe</3 Don’t forget that! Well i guess this is goodbye. Goodbye guys, thanks for all the help you tired to offer.

 Remember, Your body is to fragile to be hurt.

-Lexis

Most days, I wish I hadn’t been born. I didn’t ask to be alive. I’m asking to die. I could careless how it happens I just wish it would. I’ve been taking my medication and it’s not working. It makes me really want to pass life. I want to be somewhere better. School is starting to depress me even more and stress me out. Everyone is so happy. It kinda frustrates me that I can’t be happy. I’m afraid of what people think about me. I don’t even want to be in the classrooms. My history teacher thinks I skip just to skip. I don’t […]

I’m Peyton, but I prefer being called Oscar. People make fun of me and push me around, and they don’t understand how much it hurts me. I’ve cut my self and had no refugee from that, I’ve attempted suicide, and stayed out from school. My home life isn’t the best either… my mom hits me and my dad is never home. I just wish I could dissapear, or never would have been born, because everyone hates me and calls me a skanky whore because im quiet.

I remember it was some day in April, I was having the worse day of my life (well one of them). I was done I just couldn’t take it anymore. My parents were no where to be found and I was just sick and tired of absolutely everyone! It was like 2 in the morning, I locked myself in my room and I was sure that, that would be the last time I would ever see anything or anyone again. Then my phone rang .. which is weird cause it’s always on silent. But I answered, and the first thing I heard was “Hey, uhm I know […]

A few weeks ago, my friend told me that she had bulimia. The next week I told my friends that I had depression and cut. I learned that another friend had the same problems. They are both getting help, but I still make sure sure that she is not left alone after she has eaten high calorie foods. I find myself looking at my friend’s wrists daily. Recently, I told them that I was hearing a voice that was telling me to kill myself and the look on their faces scared me. I never realized that one month could change everything. I don’t go to […]

Every single day I’m in so much pain.. It doesn’t get any easier. I’ve waited for a few years now and it’s only gotten worse. What’s the point of suffering through this when it would be easier to just sleep?

My birthday is coming on the twelfth. I was thinking about offing myself than. I won’t go into my long sob story, but realistically at this point I’m just making everyone around me miserable and that just makes me feel even worse.

I’ve been in therapy for well over two years now and I have tried numerous medications (which they still want me to keep trying). I talk to people, I tell them what is on my mind and it just doesn’t make me feel better at all. And, but of course, suicide scares the shit out of them.

People don’t […]

I remember one year ago round about this time I was one of the happiest people on earth, nothing could bring me down.. So now I wonder, what the fuck could of thrown me so far off course.. Last year I was a clean, happy, guy with not a care in the world.. Now, I’m high every single day, have slits across my arms/wrists and the love of my life gone… I messed up my life so much, its such a pain to carry on, it hurts so much, when I think of all the good times and how great it was, then I realize […]

okayy so..ive been dealing with this guy for over a year now..im in love with him but not sure how to get over him..heres the story..i was with him for about 9 months maybe a lil more n then we split up well with all my other boyfriends we break up and dont talk anymore..well me and this guy im hooked on talk all the time i see him everyday at school..we still screw around n shit even though he has a girl friend..how do i let go and move on..?..like i dont want to let him slip out of my life kuz i love […]

People keep telling me things will get better. I need to help myself. I need to get out there and be a part of life. But when I try it goes wrong, I make the wrong choices, make friends with the wrong people, develop feelings for people I shouldn’t and generally end up ruining things, then end up five steps back from where I started. How the hell do I break this cycle??? I don’t really want to die, but I can’t escape the evidence that tells me it’s my only option, it is the only way I’m gonna find peace. Except i’ll probably cock […]

S this so my sencom half to mnfriend Preston:) I found out yesterday that he was suicidal like me…. He’s Alive:) he was at school today!! And he seemed better but I could tell inwa kinda hard for him, someone asked him why he was crying yesterday andnhr was like it’s personally I can’t really talk about it. Thankfully the kid was just Like okay. When he asked him why Preston kinda looked at me but I didn’t say anything. At lunch idk I couldn’t at by him but I was looking at him rery while or so and he seemed fine:) I think he’s […]

So there’s this guy.. Ha! There’s always a guy isn’t there?

But this story.. My story is completely different.

I never used to talk to guys.. They never used to talk to me.. Not usually.

And I’m new.. I just came this year.. So there’s a guy who is friendly, sociable and all that. My past was my past and I’ve decided to move on from it.. Sometimes.. yes the flashbacks come back and I either cry or I either smile.

Anyway, this guy eventually becomes my friend. And then he starts hanging around me more.. Well he’s kind of popular, because he’s really friendly and stuff, so he […]

everythings supposed to be perfect. i have the most amazing boyfriend ever but… i still want to cut and puke. i cant eat normal even though he begs me to. im still depressed. i still want to die. i still feel fucking empty like i dont exist…. WHY? this was supposed to fix everything having my best friend in the whole universe as my boyfriend but somethings wrong. i just wanna starve, cut and die but he wont let me.

i dont know how much longer i can last

To experience a time where life is full of downs and void of ups is no stranger to a largely sad percentage of us. We all come from different backgrounds, experience different events, and cope in different ways. But in the end, one thing that connects us all is our mental state. It’s a dark place to be.

I was lucky enough to survive tough times, and in the end found a place where I could be a happy person again and make other people happy. I have support and love all around me, just like you will discover one day.

Believe it or not, you mean […]

Surely everybody on this site has asked themselves this question, I did a survey forever ago on if it was or not. A lot of mixed replies. Some of the most surprising people said it was (then denied it later), people I barely converse with had a full blown talk to me about how it’s there life and they can decide if they want to end it. I’ve figured most of the people who said it wasn’t have actually contemplated it before, or still are. That was a bit scary. Then there were those people, who have never considered or been asked the question before. […]