I’m done feeling this hurt and pain inside me… October 16, 2012 R.I.P. Tasha Jenay Thomas
Hi, I’m Tasha Jenay Thomas. And I’m a freshman in high school. School this year is a big change for me. I have friends… Just not in my class. There’s this girl who torture’s me with her mean looks and her mean doing’s. She talks crap behind my back like an immature person would do. She plays varsity on the volleyball team and she has a lot of friends. She thinks everyone likes her which everyone hates her. She always has to get the other girls to gang up on me and try to put me down. There’s this other girl who just moved here […]
How and where do I start this story?
Well I am 37 years of age and have nothing to show for life, I am homeless and broke and I am honestly at the point where I cant take any more.
Over the last 5 years I have been diagnosed with ME/CFS which I fight everyday, I have had a marriage breakd down, I have had a miscarriage to deal with, an abortion I knew nothing about. Redundancy, attempted suicide, break down of another relationship, my parents disowned me now I am homeless and broke. I also think I may have an alcohol problem as I cant get through a day […]
People walk on by than offer you there hand
They pretend to have never seen you to avoid your pit of despair
They see what they set out to see but never what they find
They turn their back before they take a knee
All I get is an ear and a judgement, rather than an understanding
They enjoy there triumphs rather than help burden my pain
I look away before you see the pain behind my eyes
I cry rather than talk, as I walk alone so not to be rejected
I’d rather be lonely than to be held so that I won’t be hurt again
I would rather die than to face […]
To everyone still complaining about how much attention Amanda Todd is getting: let’s talk about what this is really about.
Jealousy.
You’re jealous that in death, she is getting more attention than you in life.
Get over yourselves.
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I’ve figured it out! I feel like celebrating! I’m so happy and relieved!
In my heart of hearts, I believe people should be allowed the dignity and respect of deciding how long they live. To me, what drives a person to end their life is the devestating part; that profound suffering and internal unending pain. But not the actual suicide; that’s freedom.
For example, I recently had to have […]
Because Birthdays are supposed to be special, the make me feel more empty.
People always do nice things with their friends. I dont have anyone to do nice things with, even if I wanted.
The only people who have congratulated me were the ones here. That is just pathetic.
You would think there would be at least one person in my actual life that gives a shit.
In other news: my D-day is coming soon and I feel like I still need to do so much. But what? I mean really, there is not much I need to do before offing myself. I am a cowardly ****. If I […]
I am extremely unhappy. Whereas a few days ago I had a little bit of hope and miniscule amounts of positive energy, these last 48 hours I have been depleted. My heart has slowed and my body has sunken in.
I am terrified. Today in class I could hardly breathe. I tried to duck out before it started but I ran into the professor. I could barely speak and I was trying not to get sick the whole time. Electric stomach, glass eyes. I had to wait in the building before leaving to go back to my room because I couldn’t handle the idea of people […]
My dad committed suicide. He hung himself. These are awful words to say and I can never, ever get the image out of my head, my dad had cancer, awful cancer, he had a reason. There is no other reason to do this to your family or yourself. I miss him with every second that passes. Damn it, I want my dad back…now, I want to call him. No matter what you are or what you are going through, someone wants to talk to you. Don’t do this to someone. I loved my dad, I still do. No moment passes that I don’t love him. […]
That night…tall grass bathed in moonlight. The stars sparkle brightly as the North Pole’s breath travels down to where we are and dances across your cheek. Tall grass and white flowers..in that place  next to the brook and that wise old tree. We would stretch out between the roots under the spot where you carved our initials when we were young. The place where we fell in love, where you first tried to kiss me and I pulled away and ran as you chased me until i tripped over a secret root and you fell on top of me. Dear God we were only 13 and 14 […]
This one’s pretty long, sorry if I bore anyone. I should preface by saying that I’ve been depressed for four years. I was formally diagnosed with major depressive disorder January of this year, but I knew long before. I’ve never had a true friend, anything even close to a relationship (been led on a few dozen times), and I feel alone constantly. Recently my diagnosis was changed to suggest the cause of my pain is ADD. I’m not sure if the doctors are right, but amphetamines are helping a bit lately. This is the story of the last eight months or so, from the first […]
Hi, I’m HangedKiller, and this is my story.
Obviously, HangedKiller is not my real name. I don’t know why I’m talking about this on the internet, but there’s something screaming inside of me.
I attempted suicide by hanging the summer of 2009.
Asian families have no room for your opinions or your dreams. I became accustomed to the ‘sit down and shut up’ routine.
Becoming used to being nothing is so horrible.
Unfortunately, I couldn’t live up to their expectations. No matter how much I lived for their ideals, it started falling apart in sophomore year of high school. I was a 4.0 student until then, and then depression hit […]
Hi
I last posted about a year ago. I was confused, my life sucked, I hated my job, and who I was, but I still had an awesome girl who loved me, and kept me going. I managed to pick myself up, got a new job which I actually enjoyed and was good at. I had plans to be happier, she helped me through it. In keeping her happy, in living for her, I was happy. Now however, that has all changed.
A couple of months ago, she left me for someone else, weeks after I had blown my entire paycheck on her birthday. My life spiraled […]
I’m going crazy again.
The thoughts are coming back .. I feel like I’m so close to the edge right now, and the littlest thing is getting ready to appear and push me over.
I’m tired of going through this same process over and over, everyday. I’m tired of crying and asking why all of this is happening. Why, especially when I was starting to feel better, why did things just have to spiral back down again. I’m seriously about to blow up. I’m tired…
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I just can’t take it anymore. I got through high school, came to college expecting things to change, and they were getting better. Then all at once my mood starts shifting again. The bad thoughts come back. All I do is drink my pain away, but tonight I’m staying sober and all I can think about is just ending it. I hate waking up, I hate people, I hate myself most of all. I hate who I am, how I act, and my life outlook. My depression is fueled by the anger I have for what a piece of shit I am. I really really […]
There’s been a lot of suicides lately in my town. It brings back my own depression and having no one there to vent to, I am now turning to this site to let my frustation out. I’ve been lurking and I now feel strong enough to finally let everything out. I don’t think I’ve ever told my whole story, from birth to present times, in one sitting. So here I am, this is me, and this is my story.
My mother had trouble conceiving and after a miscarriage, I was born. I was her pride and joy. She wanted me to be perfect, like her; straight A’s, […]
You told me what you needed, but I didn’t hear.
You screamed what you needed, but I still didn’t hear.
You found what you needed in someone new, and I started to hear.
Too little now.
Too late now.
It’s time to say good-bye now.
One last thing before I go.
You were my world, but I never told you.
I thought you were beautiful, but I never told you.
I wanted to be your world, but I never told you.
I’m new to this so I don’t really know what to say or how to get it out…but my story is really long so ill spare people..I just don’t know what to do. Each day seems to be getting worse and worse, and there’s nothing I can do about it. I barely have any family left, besides my little sister whom I love more than anything. Yet, she is getting taken away from me because my mom is selfish. I’ve thought of, and attempted suicide more than once. I’ve told my mother she doesn’t care, so I found this hoping it would help me. Because […]
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