I will never give up, i have so many thoughts of suicidal actions, so many times thinking the world would be better off without me, but you know what, people care, they may not show it, but they do, they care, they love you and they care, i have the same dream every night, being on top of a 20 storey building, people banging on the door, telling me to come down, i look down, it looks so free, i jump, spreading my arms and becoming free, from all my worries, i wake up crying, i ignored it, it comes back, it encourages me to […]
He is my sunshine, my only,Ethan…….He is my moon……..He has his days and his bads…..Why is he my sunshine?
I hurt him before he was my sunshine……Now I cut myself ad been though alot and i know alot of you have been though way more….but….I wonder if I am his sunshine……………I love him…………………..because he is the person who I care about…………..I am 12 years old………Am I head over heels and obessed?
Do non-suicidal  people feel like they did/do a “good deed” by “helping” others? I mean what’s the agenda here?
Or
Are you guys ginuine people that want to help and be a part of people’s lives? To actually try to understand and not push a bunch of shit up someone’s ass?
I guess I do not understand if you feel like you have to save us for you, or save us for some other reason.
 Anyone may comment but the question is for understanding of non-suicidal participants on this site.
No one cares I’ve tried no one will listen I’m tired of the voice in my head telling I’m worthless I already know I am I mean nothing . I don’t care any more I just don’t. I’m tired or pretending tired of everything being my fault I’m tie it’d of trying my heart out to be ignored . Do u wanna know who cares no one that’s who care that I’m alive. I’m tired of the yelling and screaming. I GIVE UP OK GOD YOU WIN. Thank you for showing me how much I really mean.
Suicide is never the answer. If you are thinking about committing suicide, there are people out here who care about you and are wanting to help you, people to care
last night I dreamed I jumped from my 19th story window while my roommates and exboyfriend were banging on my door.
I love standing on my windowsill imagining jumping, but I’d never do it because I’m afraid of changing my mind before I hit the ground.
I woke up crying because I want to live and I want to die and I want both so, so very badly.
I can’t be the only one feeling torn…
I’m lost I want to die . I want my existence to cease. I’m tired of it I’m tired of everything. Ahh
I met you some time ago.
Actually it all started with staring at each other…and smiling that gorgous smile of yours. That is when I lost my heart. I thought that you were perfect from the start. Then when we finally scraped together the courage to talk to each other I was ecstatic. We started speaking more and more and hanging out so often. I was so happy. The things you said to me were positive, you made me feel beautiful. We hadbecome so close, I felt as if could tell you absolutely anything and you would understand. The way you spoke to me told me that the feeling was […]
Blow out the candles, the time has come.  On to the next life, hopefully it’s a better one.
Well… I ain´t a good writer, and that letter isn´t mine. But i think that it´s beautiful and say what i fell…
for anyone interested:
Much of what I had already been sold or donated. The rest is my desire which is delivered to my friend John, who may take my belongings to the destination of your choice.
Nothing shall be delivered to any relative of mine.
As for my remains, pray earnestly, not with the torture cries, prayers or candles. It’s only my matter and beg to be let alone degrading itself. The decay isnt degrading. If humanity would allow nature to take its course, would […]
I’m really sick of dead separation with my loved ones. This is the reason I don’t want to live anymore. My grand mother left me six months ago. I can’t ever see her anymore. My grandmother ,who was always there for me, was not existed anymore. It’s really (really) painful, I cry almost ever night. She died from dementia. I didn’t take great care of her. I was impatient and yell at her sometimes. So I CANT FORGIVE MYSELF. Also I don’t want to see my loved one die anymore. So I want to stop being alive . Life is depressing, anything can […]
Im 38 , been on my own from 16 to now. No family and no one to talk to. no one who cares just people who show caring in my desperate time of wanting to die. Im sick of fake and im over needing others. I attempted death last night by slicking my wrist 35 times. That was just the first attempt by the way more are to come. It is just a matter of time for me. The pain and hurt is to much to bare and being alone is far from what i can handle anymore. My whole life others have look at […]
Sitting down to get help for the first time was the hardest thing i’ve ever had to do.
Before that day, no one had a clue that the only thing i wanted to do when i went to bed at night was not wake up in the morning.
And even with all of that, you know what really hurt me the most. Is when my new counselor diagnosed me with Dysthymia and Double Depression. She showed me a so much information on it but the only thing i walked out of there thinking about was this one sentence. “Dysthymia in adolescents can ultimately define their personality” I lost […]
The time has come for me to bow out. I am sorry Donnie, Scar504 and the rest of you…I’ll be back on later.
I have just joined this site and I have no clue how I found it. All I know is that I need help and I dont have a way to get it. I have been sad and depressed for four years now and I have no idea how to handdle it. My grandparents dont know and no one in my family does. I tryed to comit suicied 3 times over all. And all most succed once. Is there any way out of this hell?
Footprints in the Sand
        One night I dreamed I was walking along the beach with the Lord.
             Many scenes from my life flashed across the sky.
                  In each scene I noticed footprints in the sand.
                       Sometimes there were two sets of footprints,
                           other times there were one set of footprints.
                                  This bothered me because I noticed
                                that during the low periods of my life,
                             when I was suffering from
                         anguish, sorrow or defeat,
                     I could see only one set of footprints.
          So I said to the Lord,
      “You promised me Lord,
         that if I followed you,
             you would walk with me always.
                   But I have noticed that during
                          the most trying periods of my life
                                 there have only been one
                                       set of footprints […]
no one’s there for me. If I am relying on myself, I’m screwed.
I just go tin a really big argument with on of my class mates. He is saying gay people are “wrong” . HOW ARE GAY PEOPLE WRONG!. I HATE people like that. Why are you judging what people like! Its not you! Let them go! Gay people are not wrong. People who think so can fuck off!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=66iq40acSGM
So, i’m seeing a counsellor at the moment, she is great. I can only see her every two weeks which is good because then we have a lot to talk about.
But i don’t feel any better, i want to cut more than anything tonight. I have so much stress in my life and i feel like i will be consumed by it soon if i don’t hurt myself soon.
I found out one of my only chances to get out of this damaging household fell through recently, so i got my iPod and just kept walking, and walking and walking. I don’t remember much but then […]