no one honestly cares. i go to school everyday upset, wanting to cry and just sit all alone. i get pushed aways every fricken day , i get so pissed off, i get so angry i breakdown , i cry , i cant deal with it any more,im so sick of being treated like crap. my social worker makes me feel horrible about myself. and no one wants to help , all i want to do it talk , or cry, or scream or write, not be pushed away ..someone talk to me.
So… I am a 13 year old girl. I have already tried to kill myself and failed. People say that suicide is the cowards way out. But its not. I still want to so why don’t I? There is something holding me back. I can’t describe it. Its not hope its not a dream. It is just something telling me not to. My view on suicide is that you most likely shouldn’t have you considered every other option? Probably not. Think on it. That’s all I want you to do. I tried and am still scarred by it. So unless you want to carry that […]
Comedian Doug Stanhope’s skit on suicide with the best analogy I’ve ever heard before in my entire life (Theatre):
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=v3ZA-_kWGGc
Doug Stanhope seriously describing why he wants to kill himself:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6X2dCkOI6LY
Lord, I’m 44 and everything he said in this clip applies to me. That’s pretty sad.
Star Trek Voyager — Best Episode ever:Â Death Wish
http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0708875/
A very deep, very meaningful look at suffering. So many ignorant people in the world believe that if you aren’t feeling physical pain, then you aren’t suffering. A co-worker lost his 14 year old daughter in a car accident on the highway when some stupid idiot decided to text a friend after […]
I hate how people can know a kid has a learning disability, troubles at home, depression, no friends, is shy, autistic, etc. and still make fun of them. It’s called grow the fuck up and learn to be nice, it won’t kill you to sit with the kid that’s alone at lunch, tutor the kid that needs help. Be a friend, maybe save someone from committing suicide. If you knew how those people feel without you putting more stress on them too, you wouldn’t think of ever making fun of them again. Even if the kids completely normal doesn’t give you a reason to make […]
i first started having suicidal thoughts when i was 16 years old but i desided i was going to hang in there and try to be the best i could but it was never good enough for anybody not even my mother who is the one person that is suppose to love me unconditionally. now four years later, nothings changed im still the same scared girl staring at the bottle of oxy saying that todays the day….. i wish i had it in me to just cut myself or take those pills. if only i had someone i could count […]
I’ve been really depressed lately, and it seems like it came out of nowhere. I’m only a teen and I’ve told my mom and she suggested going to therapy and getting on medication. But for some reason I just don’t have it in me to talk to somebody about my problems. I feel like talking will only make things worse. I feel stupid for feeling like this but these feelings of loneliness and worthlessness just won’t go away. Me and my best friend keep getting into stupid fights that last for the longest time. I always feel like people are judging me about every little […]
They think I’m perfect, good grades, popular, pretty, thats what I hear about t
me. But is it true? I don’t think so…. I’m not good enough I never am. My grades aren’t good enough, yes in have straight A’s but I need more. I’m not pretty, I’m to fat, yes I am a size one but It’s not good enough. I lie each day, act like I’m okay. Because I need to be okay and if I say it enough times, I start to believe my own words, but secretly I know its all a lie. I hear the voices, I see people who […]
some people just make it more and more clear i dont belong here…even on SP..maybe i should walk away..and die. soon i will give the people their wish im sick of bitches and douches. just shut up if u cant be nice.
Yeah but nothing has chanted since I was last on.. I haven’t cut in about 10 days now.. I developed an eating disorder since I was last on, tried to commit twice.. stopped drinking.. am yeah.. like you even give a shit right?
I found out two days ago that my ex committed suicide last week, It feels weird but I haven’t been able to stop thinking about it,
We haven’t been together or spoken for nearly 8 years but I keep thinking What if he had reached out to me and what if I could have helped him or even tried to understand what he’d being going though.
I wish I could have done something to help him.
im 15 and im completely lost in this crazy world i don’t know what to do anymore.
the title says it all… Im done , with everything …  Oh they will suffer alright – when they are freaking looking at my gravestone, They will be responsible for everything i have done to myself. You  might as well trial them for murder , because they will be the reason why im dead.
I smile,
just so people don’t ask whats wrong.
Because if they did….I’d have to explain how my dad screwed up my life,how my best friend hurt me more than anybody could and i still miss her, Â how im deeply depressed, and how just about every other day I want it all to end.
Now i’d probably never kill myself because if I did it would hurt the ones I love and the ones who love me, but I think about it….
a lot.
Somedays it seems like nothing i do is good enough.
and everything I say means nothing to anybody.
i breathe and it hurts.
i swallow and theres a lump […]
There’s this question I tend to ask, ‘Are you missing something?’ A simple task. It’s really me asking myself, no one else has to know, but either way… I have to go. I told a friend today, she didn’t notice at all, that sort of hurt a bit, so I cut the wall. Nobody notices them do they, until they’re finally gone, and even after we leave… they think what we did was wrong. I know it is, but how else can I let them know, I don’t want to leave… and I don’t want to go…
its worse than it has ever been. My depression has surrounded me more than ever.
‘Every day I do less and less, to the point where all I do is lay in my bed . I can’t cry any more , I feel that my sadness has become too strong for me to let it go this way,
I am a student and I don’t even go to my classes any more. Human interaction has turned into almost an impossible thing. Looking back on it I was never ready for college, or for real life for that matter. Every time […]
I think my mother is depressed. She rarely talks and when she does it to complain or to yell about something that went wrong, even the littlest things cause arguments or crying fit. I don’t know what to do to help her feel better.
The other day she told me if she had the money and means of doing so she would leave her boyfriend. She doesn’t love him anymore, and I can see that. he’s always yelling at her or making her feel stupid and she still defends him, she says that it’s because he’s in pain and he has lower testosterone levels, and […]
Open my wings ready to fly,
Out into the vast blue sky,
Ready to leave the ground,
I realize my feet have been bound,
I struggle to get free,
But I have lost the key,
To the heavens I look,
They stand before me like an open book,
Tears fall down my face,
At an unwavering pace,
I know I’ll never make it back,
There’s something these wings of mine lack,
As if I’m burdened with sin,
So I might as well give in.
Holding on to all that’s left
Fighting till my last breath
Trying to find what I’ve lost
Without facing this enormous cost
Maybe it’s all too late
Or is this just simply fate
Am I meant for nothing more
My wings can’t find the strength to soar
I might as well be chained down
I know I’ll never made it now
Even though I tried so hard
Everything became so scared
Letting go seem’s best
Finally time for my soul to rest
I realise i just reached out but im done. I cant do it anymore.
Petals turned from red to brown
Falling slowly to the ground
No one sheds a single tear
Hollow grave dug with fear
Skin so cold made of ice
Breath so empty what a price
A wilted rose will go with you
To show there love is always true