I am a 38 year old loser. I have a degree in nursing I know the signs of depression. Seven months ago I quit my job I just couldn’t get up, I didn’t want to get up. I didn’t want to do anything but lay there. Ok so I was already depressed how was not showing up to work going to make me happy. So I lost my job now I am sad and I have no job. At this point I don’t even care I should care but I don’t all I want to do is to lay down. I cry over everything but […]
There was an extension wire hanging from the ceiling in my parents basement. For reasons best left unsaid, I decided to end my own life. I pulled up a stool, wrapped the wire around my neck and eased myself off the chair until I could not breath. It was not long before the panic of what I was doing took me and my feet instantly went for the stool. In my rush to regain my footing the stool began to tip and it was in this moment, very late at night, I almost died.
Had I not caught the stool with my feet in time and […]
I never liked drinking or smoking weed or any other drugs for that matter,hell i never even liked to party.I always liked being alone,me and the tv or reading a book or video games, whatever. I never even liked women that much, but i know for sure im not gay (no offense) but even the act of sex seems evil and strange to me???? I dont think im from this planet
Why am I here? That is the question i have been asking myself lately.  I just don’t get it.  I feel like God is just keeping me here as entertainment. My mom is pregnant and felt like she was going to have the baby early, so she was in the hospital and got to come home yesterday.  I had soccer practice, but i feel slow and tired so i haven’t been playing good.  It just feels like the world is moving without me. All my family does anymore is yell. My dad says it’s my fault we fight, but couldn’t give me any reasons why […]
I’m frickin’ tired. Ready to pass out. :/
I’ve been off pills for a while, so this feels bad. Like my butterflies died.
Sometimes I disappoint myself…
I’ve been in the hospital twice in less than a month and tried to commit suicide 3 times… and the last 2 days I’ve been back in bed with hardly any contact from anyone and I’m not going to contact people and be a burden to them but honestly I’m going crazy… and afraid it won’t be too much longer… I just want to die, but I guess its my fault b.c. I’m posting positive sayings on facebook like I’m excited to see what God has for my future. My mom has asked for my schedule but I don’t want to deal with her because […]
I am. I’m just so unbelievably tired. I’m tired physically, I’m tired mentally, I’m tired emotionally. I don’t know why I’m here, I’m not sure I’ve ever known why I’m here. There doesn’t seem to be one person who honestly could not live without me. I have no friends. I had one. She was like a sister to me. She got on my nerves, she drove me crazy, but she was always there for me. She kept me grounded. And now, she’s moving on, and it’s obvious she’s moving on without me. She got a new job, she has a new boyfriend.. I want to […]
I’m so tired. . . Tired of crying, fighting, trying to find some will to live inside this black hole of mine. I simply cannot take anymore. I’m trapped inside a world of hate and I am their object of disgust. The only future left is just day after day of pain to be added to my past.
I have attempted nine times unsuccessfully. 5 od’s. Hanging. 2slit wrist attempts. And downing mr.clean. I have scars covering my arms, shoulder to wrists and my thighs and calves. *sigh* but even cutting, the only friend Ive had, has left me now. But this helium thing and carbon […]
all right so im a 15 year old male im inlove with a 38 year old bi sexual. i met her from my moms work my mom inturduced me to her said id like her. i thought she was ugly n short.3 weeks later we went to the beach. she came down on a saturday and asked me to spend the night at her motel cause she was alone so i did n we talked for about 2 hours now im in love with her. How do i ask her out or do anything with her. i dont want sex just someone to care hug […]
I don’t feel anything any more. The last thing I felt was love for my best guy friend, but he seems to have stopped caring about me.
Just like everybody eventually does.
What’s the point?
today i saw a new therapist and she asked me quite a few questions i was uncomfortable answering but i tried hard to answer. she said a lot of stuff that caught my attention. one question she asked me was “what motivates you?” and i didn’t like that i couldn’t find an answer to it. i don’t know what motivates me to do anything or why i get up and do the things i do, and that scares me. i remember writing something down in a diary/journal that i was afraid of becoming like a zombie, being emotionless and not knowing what keeps me going, […]
Everyday I am sinking. Like a stone. I am nothing and no one but empty bones. I am hollow through and through and I just don’t know what to do. I am a coward. Food tastes funny and sleep lacks escape. My vivid nightmares, mocking reminders of my pointless reality. This is shit. But what’s a coward to do? I wish I could brave up and take that last ending step. I wish I could float away effortlessly.
I feel tired and done im in love and stupid I feel worthless and like there’s nothing more to life
Hello My Name is will im very lonley will never be smart the only girl i like is double my age i got no idea how to ask her out shes my only hope of being happy im not legal of the age (I dont want to hear date someone your own age girls my ages are sluts stuck up no personality) im very very sad in life currently how would i ask her out or flirt with her shes great may be bisexual no boyfriend or husband no man in her life loves animals may possibly like me PLEASE HELP VERY DEPRESSED
I’ve been clinically depressed since I was 12 years old (I am now 18). For the life of me, I cannot remember a time when I was happy, a time that I was in the slightest bit content with my body. My parents put me into an eating disorder treatment center for about 3 months, and I ended the program thinking that maybe I could finally be okay. Things were…alright for about 2 months until just now. The guy I love came back after 15 months from a rehab center halfway across the country. We have never been in a relationship, but we were best […]
i am only 20 pounds overweight at 6’8. i have really high cholesterol though. I’m in college now and i workout for 3.5 hours on average everyday and a lot more on the weekends. so Why in the fucking hell can’t i stop sweating when i walk to class on a 5min walk. Girls come up and flirt with me all the time and I’m always sweating. like its so fucking annoying. help
idk. so i can look at anyone oranything and instanttly feel peace around them..like they dont fear waking up in the moring terrified what will happen to them..i go shopping and when i see like bed covers i see them and say to myself “i can spend forever under those covers oh wait i cant-_- i face a demanding sister that never lets me sleep once shes awake or be in my room…i walk around and look in front of me but whats actually there isnt what i see. i see a vision of peace i can sit happily on the couch or walk around […]
Hello, my name is Shawna and I’m new here, I just found this website today while looking for some sort of support group. I’ve had been dealing with the effects of depression for around 4 years now, almost 5. Somehow I’ve fought through it that long, but not without having extreme ups and downs, mostly downs. It’s been so long and I’m feeling so tired. I’m a recovering self-harmer, been clean for about 4 months. But I’m having a really really hard time with the urges. I’ve been feeling so sad the past few days, so so sad and angry and just sick and tired […]
i hate me so much right now