Do you knowthat picture in wich a person is surrounded by people but seems like is totally alone?

That’s the way im feeling now, in this very moment I’mlocked up on my bedroom thinking about this afternoon when I sat on the hallway with me, myself and I, and I wanted to cry but I have an image to keep so the only thing I could do was check up my phone pretending I was ok with the world.

I have people to talk but never about these themes, and I feel totally alone :'(

So, I’ve gone through a lot lately, I was enrolled to college out of high school, as are most people these days.

I was promised a job, a house, a roof over my head, and all the things that go a long with moving from one parent to another.

As soon as I made the journey from my Grandparents to my fathers, I knew something wasn’t right though.

The job my father had promised me, it never existed.

Even after not dropping a dime to child support for the last 18 years of my life, he still complained when there was another person under his roof.

The second I couldn’t […]

Remember, for Suicide Prevention Week, you can help out by filming a video of yourself explaining how suicide has impacted your life, and also explaining or even showing what you do that makes you happy and gives you a reason to live. Send me the link to the video and I will put it in a compilation for my new project. Thanks!
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Hi. I’m 25, female and I’m suicidial.

I’ve had thoughts of suicide almost all of my teenaged years till now, but now I’m going through something that’s completely broken me and made me lose hope in everything. I have no one physically that I can talk to. But I feel like the only way out of this is to kill myself.

I’m a cutter, and the only thing I’ve been thinking about lately is slitting my wrists. I think about it all the time. About how I could enjoy my last bottle of wine, take the surgical blade from my medicine kit and slice downward my arms […]

Lately I have had so many things rushing through my mind and I really don’t know how to handle them. I feel useless, worthless, and lost. Everything is happening so fast and I have no control over the pace and I’m getting lost in my own mind. I could really use some help before I search for my own solution.

What is the point of this life?  Really, I’d like to know.  I get up every fucking day to do useless bullshit that will never actually matter.  It won’t matter–I’m going to die anyway.  What is the point of all this pain and stress? Why does it matter that I wake up every day?  Why do I even care?  Why does anyone care?  What is the goddamn point?  It’s all bullshit.

How many of you have been told that you help a lot in someone’s life?

What about being told that your useless through a post but that person doesn’t hae the balls to tell you strait up?

I am so fed up with feelin useless and like I don’t matter and I’m tired of people lying and being all like oh you matter so much and they just don’t show it…..

I am fed up with feeling like they could all give a shit less….

I wanna play R&R but I wanna lose this time…….

The recession destroyed life as I new it. Having been laid off 3 times in 2 years, I left my home and started over in a new town. The first 10 months were a struggle to survive, and then it finally paid off. I landed my dream job. Still alone in this new place 800 miles from friends and family, I made the mistake of befriending a female co-worker. She approached me a couple of weeks after we both started working at the same company. She had moved to the same town with a boyfriend of 7 years and they had broken up. She was […]

I wait for the night. Tears flood my eyes when the sun sings silently as it bows down to the distant horizon.  Darkness erases the crimson sky and casts forth a glitter of brilliant light. The night sky’s iridescent perfection. My body is weightless in their presence. But nothing lasts. Even the stars cannot defy death.

Surrender to the dark.

Nature is simple in its complexity. Pure. Flawless. Even in its destruction, it’s perfect. Most people see fires and tornadoes and floods as something to fear and hate, but I see something to admire. Nature does not mourn loss, nor does it fear renewal. No regrets.

We should […]

Im 17 years old, im 2 and a half months pregnant.

My boyfriend (the father) is beyond ecstatic and can’t wait to see our baby brought into this world, he’s given up drugs and alcohol and has got a great job to be able to be a better dad.

His twin sister, who used to be my best friend hates me. She constantly tells him that either I’m not really oregnant or tha’t it isnt his baby. She refuses to awknowledge me and accuses me of stealing from her and their dad.

Her boyfriend, who was one of my best friends, and his bestfriend are both sociopaths and […]

I’ve pretty much stopped eating and am down to 98b lbs (and I’m 5’4), so technically I’m in the danger zone as I’m told. So why isn’t my body shutting down already?!?!! It’s really the only method I have access to, without causing too much suspicion. just taking too damn long…wISH i could just fall asleep and never wake up, but nooooo, my body is like freaking energizer bunny, it just won’t hurry up and shut down. I want to go be with my grandparents. Hopefully, it’ll only take just a few more months, it’s sucks that it’s such a slow process….

I found this website a few days ago when I googled “I want to die”.

I wasn’t looking for something in particular-just some kind of…answer… or help. I’m not sure if I actually want to die or not.

I’ve been reading some posts, but I’ve been afraid to comment on any… I’m extremely afraid of talking to people, especially strangers, even if it is online, but I need to talk about it to someone, or some people, who understand.

I’m horribly, horribly depressed and I’ve felt like this for years. I’ve recently spoken to my doctor about it and he’s put me on medication and referred me to […]

I’m Going through a divorce with my wife of 7 years. I recently started getting these feelings of regret and how I treated her. I am trying to get her back but it seems like she has moved on with her life already. I am so hurt and sad inside. I just want my family back. Idon’t want to live without my family together. I don’t feel the live from her anymore. We havetwo small children and it breaks my heart to see them going through this. I just want to give up. I can’t cook or clean or have no energy for theme I […]

i know im gonna be happy w/ my person, but i can’t be with my person, because of cultures & this is uncommon things.
Some people are just different..instead of accepting,they’re easily judging,accusing&looking at them like a disease.

I felt like shit. I mean I usually feel like shit but today was different. I honestly wanted to jump of the 5nd floor. I just need someone to talk to. Someone who will always be here for me. Someone who would be able to just listen and I can cry all I want and hrkwjdkejxkshdkwkdkanjskskskakskskkskqldnapjlkbkjhkijnbctyhjyd I just don’t feel okay. And I’m really tired of pretending im fine. I’m tired of people stepping all over me. You know what I wanna do? I want to ignore everyone… Just not talk to anyone (except for like 2 people who I love talking to). I’ve been […]

it means nothing to me anymore. no one means it. its just a game now. idk who to trust. i dont even believe daddy when he says it. and when i do beleive one guy….he leaves me for some other girl. she is ten times better than me too. no cuts on her arms, no hair in her face, a smile across her face and to top it off she is miss popular. why does this always happen to me? am i not ment to be loved? love is not a reason i want to die…its a reason i am so depressed. but i will […]

the gental breeze

wind in her hair

i recognize her scent

as she passes by

she does not know that i am here

her laugh and smile

and her bright eyes

but i only watch her

never tell her my name

i sit next to her in every class

her sneeze is just beautiful

and so is she

she is my happyness

she is my reason to stay

i love her, but she will never know

i wanna leave this “world” aka my hell
i dont like walking round school and hearing people talk about me and laughing or writing shit about me on facebook or girls toilets,i dont want for everyone to look at me like im no good for anyone.
i couldnt help what happen to me,people say to me why didnt u scream help or rape,unless u wanted it to happen but i cant say what i want to say,i want to tell them why i didnt scream,cos when your so scared you try to scream but the words wont come out,inside your screaming so […]

I’m so glad that I found this site. It’s perfect. Things have been really fucked up as of lately. My depression and disordered eating that began in 6th grade have crept back into my life somehow. Causing me to get in fights with friends, family, myself. I’ve had suicidal thoughts every single day, just like old times. But something new is that I see scary images. But this has been happening since summer/the end of last year. Like for an example, whenever I close my eyes I see blood or a man with an ax in his head laying on the ground bleeding, or when I’m in […]