I have often been the kind of person to sit and slag other people off for wanting to commit suicide until one day i realised what it means to no longer want to live. I want to go away and die and look over my family now that my world has done me over. I once had it all and now i have nothing anymore so i’m ready to say goodbye all i want is for it to be painless like most of the other posters on this site. Please help me find a pain free way of leaving this world. I have contacted Dignitas […]

I estimate this fight has been going on for a grueling decade now. As a juvenile I made an attempt. It’s been my only attempt. However, the thoughts never subsided. I learned in this last year that they can get worse. But I still try to carry on. Act as though they don’t exist. These thoughts are very much real I’m sad to say.

Ive tried seeking help. I started by informing my family. As they did when I was a juvenile, it was brushed off. I’ve learned to not tell them much about my life. Don’t get me wrong, I wasn’t abused as child. I […]

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The Rock pushes me to keep driving my body forward; Roosevelt settles my mind when it all starts feeling too fruitless/nihilistic.

In my mind, I’ve separated death and dying. Death is the one thing I look forward to, when I can just finally stop, cease to exist, back to 0; the weight of this flesh body finally lifted as my consciousness disperses into the cosmos. I don’t think that people are anything more than walking flashlights and I really can’t wait for my batteries to run out. No more guilt, no more expectations, no more desires; just nothing. […]

crap… just fuck and whatever…

Im freakin alive… Urgh…

I like am sure Im gonna die, I mean I drank 20 times the normal amount! It says in research that what I drank (200 mg) is lethal since one girl died of suicide by drinking 240 mg of what I drank…

damn damn damn it all!!!

i WAS FREAKIN FREAKED OUT… i WANNA TRY AGAIN BUT HELL…  What am I gonna do now… I didnt plan far ahead… FUCK

what I drank isnt over the counter, its even seriously strong… when I drink one for my allergies, I get knocked out seriously… but I did 20!!! oh man… and Im here, […]

I want to start by saying that I’m quite damaged. Just like many I’ve been through some things. Lots of things. Complicated and simple. I have hope. But don’t take that so fully. Don’t eat it, sip it. Lasts longer. It’s early in the morning so I’ll do these in parts as I’m sleepy again. I hope you are able to find a ray of hope in each part.

I’m obviously still alive. Why? I do not know, but a spark is still with me. Whether I admit to it or not. It’s there. In middle school I had this spark when my grades were failing, […]

So this will be a long one. I am 20 years old and a trainee hairdresser, I had Meningitis when I was 4, I live with my boyfriend and my housemates in a house share, I have depression and anxiety and I cannot cope with my emotions. I suppose things started to be difficult for me when I was 8 years old, I had a pyscological issue where everytime I got in the car I needed to go to the toilet desperately, this was also at a time when my Dad hit me quite frequently. I saw a therapist about the problem and it was all […]

while on this site iv noticed several times people saying “they just want sypmpathy” to another user as if thats a bad thing. wanting some sympathyisnt bad, sympathy is someone trying to understand what its like to be you or empathise where they have gone throught the same thing or something similar. the right ammount of sympathy is goos, sometimes you need someone to let everything out to and for them to just listen with the occassional symppathetic comment, not solutions, a solution isnt always needed right then. i dont think sympathys a bad thing, what about you?

i knew i couldn’t kill myself… why even hope to be free of everything?

The title really says it all. I’m having a lot of flashbacks from different difficults parts of my life and I just want them to stop or at least reduce. So does anyone have any hints or tricks on how to stop/reduce them?

CPC

So this is probably going to sound dumb but I’m extremely depressed over my recent break up I don’t want to go into details because I feel it won’t help. After my break up things began to get worse, I found out my grandma is very sick and is getting worse each month and there’s nothing I can do for her at all, can’t even see her. I haven’t been able to make enough money to stay in school and financial aid keeps denying me, my friends just don’t seem to understand my struggles in my life and kind of seemed annoyed that I keep bringing certain things up. I also feel like […]

Where to begin, so im not bring god into this, but he has fucked me good, ok so i wasnt even looking for love and this person comes into my life, we both fall for eacho ther and now

Damn you my sharp and shiney razor.
Why do you always make me feel so good??

Like with my ex boyfriend, I broke up with him a few years ago, from a 2 year long distance relationship and we decided to stay as friends. When I moved back to the same area I realized that he would always ignore me when I really wanted to at least see him… but I realized, after a few months, it was already too late. Nothing, no more hopes and no more dreams. And worse of all his parents told me to just move on. His friends, whom used to be mine, they just told me to move on as well.

Not him though. He just […]

Im done here

i am so tired of being depressed and not being happy. i can’t sit here everyday and pretend i’m okay because i know i’m not… i really can’t take anymore of this pain and i am considering permenantly being rid of it.

This is confusing me like really…

Last night I decided to end it all… I cant get hold of anything but those virlix cetirizine  is there so I drank all twenty of them… thats like 200 mg… twenty times the dosage amount (you simply have to drink it one in a day)… I remembered last night that I felt my heartbeat go fast… but just fast not like really fast… it just felt i ran a mile, the usual in the past…

but, wow… i woke up feeling rested? wait, Im dead arent I or something?

man this is scary… im suppose to be like dead or something…

or what I drank is just weak stuff? but I drank […]

I lost myself in his eyes, I even told him I would marry him and have his baby. It wasnt good enough for him. He found love somewhere else, yet im the *****, im the WHORE, crying alone in the corner. Ive been a shattered jar for years and its never enough to have me apparently, I agree with his malice. Ive taken 27 pills and im really hoping that it works this time, I want to make him happy by saying goodbye. Im no longer a barbie doll, im no longer the apple of his eye. I love you Dean, see you again someday […]

A few days ago I lost my head again. It really gets more frequent. It always starts with the truth. The truth about who I am inside and out. It’s why I cry. Because I’ve worked so hard to try and fix myself. Then I realize I’m unfixable. I’m hard-corded. For the first time in quite awhile I want to know why my bio mother did not abort me instead of abandoning me. They really are quite the same. She doesn’t get to see me. And never will. If she saw the person I am and m becoming each year. She may realize the truth […]

It`s kind of funny, really. I guess the universe really does want me to die. I didn’t really think it could get any worse, but I should have learned by now not to say that.

School was lonely enough with friends, but now even they have been taken. If there ever was something to live for, it would be for my friends.Oh well I suppose it`s for the best. I was ptobably going to off myself anyway, and now they won`t have to feel bad about it.

I guess I really am meant to die. Well, as soon as I have my room cleared out, good byes […]

hi um. my names really n0t important. im a suicidal teen who’s lost in a place call society and im trying to learn from what has happened to me. life has not been so easy for me and i dont think it ever will be. i have a blog but i cant really post personal things there because i know my girlfriend looks at it and i know want her to realize whats really going on in my head. so i guess im just trying to make sense of whats going on and this is where im choosing to do it.