Something wakes me up ,  if  I am asleep I’m sleeping wih ghosts  if   I Am  awake I have monsters under my bed
Please don’t leave me alone
Stay with me
Please
Why are you leaving
I don’t know what I’ll do without you
Fine
I’ll just wait for you here
I guess
At the mean time
I’ll distract myself
I’ll just watch this movie
Watch this television show
Would you come back if
I drew you a picture
How about if i wrote you a story
A poem
Take
Upload these pictures
Are you still coming back
I’ll just wait here for you
Watch these other people
Until IÂ find you
Years passed
You know where I am
I hope you’re coming back
Fine
I’ll just smoke this cigeratte
I’ll just drink this alcohol
Until you come back
I might just scratch
I might just cut
Myself again
What about these pills
Should I take them
What would they do to me
Starting to […]
Hello , I used to have my life all together but piece by piece my life has started to fall apart I have previously tried to end it, it mostly has been my friends keeping me motivated to stay here but most of them have moved away, I don’t live near my parent at all they moved away as well, Every-time something good happens I lose another important piece of my life, sadly when I was young I tried but I failed, lately I have tried again and again , and failed every-time, Now I cant even find a reason to get out of bed in the morning, … why […]
You all need to shut up,
 Its my body im ruining with each cut,
Not that I really give a fuck.
They say a tattoo will ruin my skin,
They keep sayin’
That “The scars will eventaully blend.”
So I’ll keep cuttin’
and suddenly this is more as a passing trend.
I hope you know what you are gettin’ in,
because this may be a passing fling,
but the scars will never go away,
Not in a million days.
You’ll be stuck with depression,
addiction,
self-destruction,
insecurity,
everyone makes suicide jokes around me
they make fun of cutters
they make fun of the disease that plagues my very existence.
does no one feel sympathy for mental illness in this world? just because its not directly killing me, no one gives a fuck.
People see my scars and smirk and whisper to one another. i wear black one day and instantly, im emo. i give up. i think im going to “trip” infront of a speeding SUV tomorrow.
I have had enuff of this world and all the shit it brings. I’ve had enuff of trying so hard only to be shoved down again! I’ve had enuff of not living just surviving. I’ve had enuff of crying myself to sleep. I’ve had enuff of cutting my arms and legs. I’ve had 15 years of this shit. This is my goodbye to this cruel ass fucked up universe. Deuces. This rope is my exit strategy
I just wanted to say thank you for taking the time to read this post.
My whole life, I have felt two things: loneliness and the hatred towards myself.
Why do I hate myself?
I am not smart. I am not good looking. I am not talented in anything at all.
I really am useless.
I have classmates telling me, I can’t do anything right; leaving me out of the social life. No matter how hard I tried to fit in, I end up seeing pitch black of nothing, my existence shouldn’t exist in the first place.
I have read a numerous amount of quotes motivating me to never give up, […]
If so, I’d like to know what it is. Life doesn’t seem worth it anymore. I came here out of desperation. I have nobody to share my feelings with. I am alone. I’m afraid to be close to people because they always hurt me in the end. Or maybe I’m alone because people generally do not want to be around me. “Freak,” they’ll call me, telling me how I am not worth their time. “Tell me, why haven’t you had a boyfriend? Are you lesbian?” They’ll ask me. Outraged, I deny, but they don’t believe me. It isn’t my fault nobody wants me. It isn’t […]
I fully understand why people want to be dead. Living hurts sometimes. I’ve come so close so many times, but always delay because “of my kids”. They are an excuse for being afraid to make the ultimate choice. I’ve done this for so many years. I’ve cut down and pulled out so many people who have followed through with their choice to die. Being a cop can suck at times. But. Good for them. It hurts to live, so die. Good for us.. It hurts to live, but, we continue on, for whatever […]
to describe what i can say bout how i feel at the moment is: FUCK
i feel ugly inside, like i have nothing positive to offer the people of earth. all the wrong things bring me joy and the right things make me feel uncomfortable. i laughed at a disabled woman on saturday and it was the hardest and most enjoyable laugh that ive had in months. i look forward to other peoples misery and usually slink away from smiling faces and the stories behind them.
what am i? i dont believe in anything(angels, demons etc) so im just a disturbed human. ive been hurt to the point that other peoples hurt is all that i crave; hurt people hurt […]
My name is Trenton and i’m posting this out of confusion, hopelessness and honestly the rest of the reasons i don’t know. Obliviously being on this site shows that i don’t want to live anymore. I hate this world for what it is i hate our species and what they do. I’ve felt this way for quite a while now and i always thought “can’t i change it?”. But then reality comes to play and shows me that i can’t. I simply don’t have the motivation or discipline to even think i could change it. As i’m speaking right i should be reading a book […]
2your useless just like your father” is something I usually hear when i fail to please my mother. Ever since the divorce, our relationship has been so strained and she has been verbally and emotionally abusing me for the last year or so.my father left us and is rarely ever on the scene and is a dead-beat dad.my mom is under so much stress from everything but she takes it out on me particularly. my two younger sisters are treated like gods gift and im told to shut up and get over myself. she constantly talks about how nobody would ever want me and […]
Okay so i have been through therapy and it made everything worse. I don’t know how to deal with all the voices inside my head telling me what i need to do i am a dyslexic fifteen year old I’m going to be a junior and i don’t want to even see tomorrow. This will be long but i have a lot of reasons i want to disappear.
One is my sister she always puts me down and makes me feel like i don’t belong in the world i wish i could tell here shes a stupid ***** and doesn’t deserve to even see me let alone talk to me.
I […]
why why why why why why why WHY FUCKING WHY!? are you so mean. i asked u for my mascara back..so u chuck out your door and it hits me right in the eye. it hurt seriously like fuck. u look at me and say “aww is poor baby ganna cry? what a loser” then u grab a belt and beat me with it. “hahahaha now u can cry over that” which i was. “yay yay! your in pain. this is my favorite day ever!” my mom: yeah she’s just watching all this and laughing. oh oh oh..and u pushed me into the wall and […]
Please, if I may reach out to anyone that can help me. I have been cutting on my thighs, and scars remain there. My family has decided that we should go to the beach for the last bit of summer. I have a pool, but all I do to hide my scars is wear shorts. They think I’m weird for doing this, but do not question it.
I’m not sure if I can get away with shorts on the beach. I am not old enough to refuse the beach, nor go to a store to buy scar creme. If you are experienced with these matters, please […]
Hey all,
I know this forum isn’t the best place for this post, but I just wanted to talk to someone and tell someone how I feel.
It was a pretty busy day for me. I talked a lot to other people ( 2 persons). But when I came home today I felt so down and depressed. I don’t know why, but somehow I lost interest in life. Every second day I feel so depressed for no particular reason. I don’t think I am depressed or suffer from an other brain illness, its just that I put my life in a state where I disconnected absolutely from […]
Something that I once built
As a set of goals and fixed opportunities
Protected my whole life
Been destroyed
By the conflicted torments
All that I did
I still couldn’t do anything to fix it
Because every time I tried to touch those pieces
They would just tremble into dust
Every aspect of broken pieces crumbled
At the tip of a tiny touch
As I walked through the kingdom once again
Felt like a hatred soul had woken up
Followed the same route
Protected the key with just nothing but darkness
Dug up a hole in the very pit of the soul
Tried so hard to not get close again
Tried so hard not to act the same again
Forcefully doing so
Challenged everything
Changed […]