it’s all different now
it’s neo-age expressive innovation
the black jizz of emobation
spurting the truth right in their face
a happy ending
for a discarded human race
i think what makes things really difficult is the fact that people thing am all smiles and don’t have any problems. they see all smiles and my bubbly personality and don’t see how bad i want to choke the living hell out of them. now i know why my parents are sending me away.. am not scared or anything but, i don’t know if sending me to another country will make me change or get any better. i might prob get hit by a truck the minute i arrive so they wont have nothing to worry about any way. am so lost i don’t […]
I don’t want to live
I don’t want to die
I just want to sleep
Im exhausted.. But I can’t sleep.. All I can do is think. I cant even talk about it because everyone I used to talk to thinks I’m finally better.. And I dont want to dissapoint them anymore. I feel alone. Â I dont know what to do.. I dont know what to think.. I dont know whaT to say. I just want to hold my guy.. But that isnt going to happen anytime soon.. I just want to cuddle him.. And love him.. But I cant. God.. Why was I even born?No readon at all.. The world would be exactly the same if I were never […]
she is mad because she can’t control me, she gets with guys to control them and when they break up with her she tries to go to Church to control that!
If you’ve followed my posts you would know exactly the type of person she is.
She lies about everythin . She brainwashed me into running away from my grandma and running away from CPS only to call on me to get me intoruble. But I kept coming back thinking what she said was the truth , that she wanted to be a mother for once. Ever since I ran away to be with my mom, she […]
I don’t know why, I don’t know how. All I know is that I can make myself feel better for a while by giving myself 1 or 2 almighty punches in the side of the head. I don’t know if giving myself a headache gives me something to concentrate on, or whether it just shakes my noggin enough to make it work properly for a while.  If it’s the latter, maybe it’s similar to The Fonz hitting the side of the jukebox at Arnold’s. Happy days.
I now understand why cutters do what they do. Whilst my preferred method of self-treatment isn’t cutting, I can see how it might work for […]
I want to scream. I want to cry. Feel something, do something.. but I’m too tired. For those who tke meds.. is it worth it? My family doestnt know.. school will be starting soon.. what do I do?
it ain’t cutting it with your dame “I’m a Christian” Ius hypocritical and I’m not buying it , You go out and Fuck anything and EVERYTHING that walks and then u get on my case about Esteban Whom I’ve been with over a Year and a Half, I Have a Better relationship Then u Will EVER have!!!…. You Go and use God on EVERYTHING ! U dated the drug addict then the Drunk then the Crack head I told u “he’s bad he’s only using u for money to buy his Drugs, aren’t u Fornicating ? Ain’t that bad if ur so called Godly?” […]
My name’s Sabrina, im 16 now a sophomore . I was 12 when i first started thinking about suicide. I was going into 6th grade one of the hardest times in a kids life. I had never really had a child hood, my dad had been a crack addict my whole life. My mom was sent to a mental institution after i walked in on her cutting herself a couple times. I’ve been diagnosed with OCD, anxiety, depression and bipolar disorder. During the summer is the worst i stay awake all night crying, burning, cutting. nothing ever helps me. im so scared. i always think […]
Okay, Here i go i am 15 year old girl i have been cutting my self since i was 10 and ive had enough i cant take it no more i wanna die just dont wanna hurt the people who i love but i have to many resons to do it i live with the pain on me every day that i wasnt even suppost to be here in the first place i was a mistake the only reson im here is my mom was to far along for an abortiuos i dont live with her i got stuck on my grand parents since i […]
Okay so here the turth im not a virgin even though everyone in my family thinks i am so i was 13 when i was put on birth control because my grandma thought i should be incase and she thought i was a virgin but i was then about a month later i was at school and started cramping really bad so i go to the nurses off then she call my grandma and tells her she thinks im having a miscarrge my grandma cursed her out the turth is it was true i didnt know i was preg and i was young and stuipd […]
to cut, i did yesterday, not severley as i was some-what busy and didnt have time to slip away for an hour. but now i have the dark night, and the urge is back. i hate knowing i cut at the same time, glad i have my own free counselors: my needles and pocket knives. they r always there for me.
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I have epilepsy (seizure disorder) I have them all the time at school and It’s embarrassing. I go home and cry myself to sleep most nights. I hate being alone because of the fact that I have to think of all the shit that’s going on in my life. I had a friend almost take her life back in December. She broke her family , I dont want this happening to me , but I  feel the urge  to do it. I need help but I’m terrified.  I truly Hate my life.
So this is my story to tell you all….i am an 18 year old girl and when i was younger around age 15 i had the worst things happen to me every day…i got bullied, put down on everything i wanted or did..so one day i finally gave up on everything i took the chain that was hanging from my ceiling fan i decided i would use that to hang myself to get rid of all the pain and feelings of the things that happened..i put the chain around my neck and stepped off the chair, the chain snapped in two and i fell to […]
This was taken the last day of being at a GroupHome the First time I was in it, as u can see I am very happy And all Smiles. I wanted to Escape and get away from it, as u can see I am the only white girl, I’m very self conscious that’s why I’m slanted cause I don’t like being Tall, Everyone Where I live is normally 5’1 and 5’0 but im 5’4 1/2 so I get self conscious , I Also Ran-away from this GroupHome, the staff were horrible I couldn’t Visit my family and I was Basically ridiculed for breaking out and […]
This is who I am, Idk if it’s Alright to post pictures, but as u can See I’m regular and their a story behind Everyones smile and eyes. My posts are about life, This was actually taken at the groupHome iWas living at ..
Hey everyone, long story short ive gone through way too much in my life for too long and it continues i debate taking my life constantly but i stay alive i cant take no more yet i keep going, anyway, i just hope that people are using this site to be able to relate to each other and talk to each other and help each other, so that us that feel alone, dont have to anymore…if i could be there for everyone i would but ill keep trying cause nobody deserves to feel the way we do…if anyone ever wants to just talk or just […]
So it accured to me, as I was reminiscing about my life. I made a yahoo chat account and didn’t want to use my actual name in the name field, so I put Cindy Cambell as a disguise….Sometimes I wonder how much people value thier lives.
I found out I was Pregnant about 4 months ago. I took two pregnancy tests and both came out positive , that night I started to Spot blood. Everyone Said it was normal, but My body was saying something else. I started having tummy pains and I couldn’t eat or drink anything with out me thinking it’s nasty. The next morning I was Bleeding a Little more so my opinion was that since this is my First pregnancy that my body wasn’t used to me not having my period so I didn’t think bad thoughts. Well now my Stomach is in complete pain and now […]
You messed up again , u Had Nothing to Prove .Â
U Don’t Love me , whats their to Loose …
You look me In the Eye But All u can say is Lies, made up Stories and Fake Alibis ..
How Can I Be able To trust when   I stress to Much, I’m confused to Kno if this love or is it just Lust …
I Cry so Many Nights SleeplessÂ
Trying to Win the Fight,Â
Hanging on to this relationship really tight .Â
Now im Loosing my gripÂ
My heart is Sinking like a flooded ship ..
Still hanging on at the […]