I wish I could expres myself better. It’s not only a language thing I think. I wouldnt know what to write if I was writing in Dutch either.
I dont even know what I want anymore, other than kill myself of course. That really is the only desire I still have left.
I know its lame but all I really want right now is for someone to hold me. Its been a very long time since someone gave me a hug.
Edit: someone just asking how I’m doing would be fine too, it doesnt have to be a hug.