I really dont know what i expect …. all i have ever wanted wa someone to care for me and truly love me and have been tryine very hard to make that happen all my life…..if i was only good enough or next year things will be better……i have failed at everything important in life nmainly raising my kids….oh my i love them more than anything ever in life and have done a miserable job……my mother was a good mom and took as good a care of me as she could when i was young but she never really loved me and i dont wish […]

If you thought there were no taboos on the internet, you’re woefully full of shit.  There’s pornography, pedophilia, deviance of every kind, shape, and sort, people using and selling drugs–right on craigslist–bestiality, people shoving gerbils, grapes, and beads up each other’s asses–what could possibly be taboo on the internet, the ultimate cesspool?  Suicide.  That’s fucking hilarious.

Think there’s no censorship? Bullshit.  Google “suicide discussion forums,” then go to those sites and discuss suicide, and you’ll see how fast your ass gets banned.  Gee, if we don’t let anyone talk about suicide, then people will stop killing themselves.  Okay, yeah, that sounds about right.   I’ve been […]

I’m really starting to regret it right now

Dear God,

have you heard my prayers to leave? or have you forsaken me? i need you. i have failed so much in life and now i am failing in death… i cannot leave on my own…. i cannot leave without your help…  you have helped me before… won’t you help me again? one last time…

When i first came here, everyone was just…I don’t know how to describe it

but now it’s just…sad…everyone’s too cheery..

Many people think that suicide is a joke or it’s a way for people to get attention but that’s not true at all..I feel the great pain that it puts on you. I hate my life. I have horrible grades, and im soo stupid, i dont have any friends or anyone that cares abt me. i have no one to talk to abt how i feel. i cant even kill myself cuz i just cant do it. but the pain i feel is soo great that i dont know what to do. im such a disappointment to my parents and i keep hearing that […]

people keep saying “don’t worry it gets better” no it doesnt and it won’t. It just keeps getting worse and worse. I want to die. I’m tired of living and being unhappy all the time. all my loved ones keep saying “don’t kill yourself, I miss you, I love you” if you love me so much then why are you making me stay alive when I’m obviously not happy, and im tired, and hate myself.

Although I haven’t read many posts, I wonder how many older people are posting. Well, this is me.

I knew things were different at a very early age. Death blossomed all around me, from tragic accidents to old-age illnesses. Family, friends, it didn’t matter. It soon developed into a phobia of dark places which, back in the 1960’s was something never talked about. With my brother’s tragic death and this phobia of it, dreaming of bodies raising up from their caskets,  my parents never understanding how paralyzing the fear was, it’s no wonder I was 22 before I could maintain a normal life without every door in any […]

My life is great.  I want to die.

I’m male, 30s, in great health, financially successful.  Friends, girlfriends, everything great.

On the outside, I’m happy, well-adjusted, positive, caring and cared for.

But nothing has meaning for me.  Existential questions fly in my head every second.  What’s the point of this, what’s the point of that?  Every job, every conversation, every action I take… it all seems so utterly pointless.

I feel empty inside.  No motivation to do anything, since nothing has any meaning.  Colors don’t shine, it’s as if a cloud of smoke is everywhere, and the world is grey.  Small-talk drives me insane, sports and hobbies don’t interest […]

Uck people. Fuck life, love. Love isn’t real. Love… just… God I hate everyone!!! Why the fuck did you make me human? I’d rather be anything else!! Screw everything. Thanks god for fucking up everything! I’m fucking sick of these rage moments. I hate you god for doing this. Can’t you at least give me the courage to take my life? Or take it yourself? I hate you too!

I’m fourteen years old and i hate my life so much. I just want to die, i don’t belong here. I don’t deserve to be alive. Basically everyone at my school hates me. I feel like my family don’t even care about me and i just can’t handle this anymore.

I’m completely head over heels in love with this guy at my school, and absolutely hates me. My life just sucks, i fail at everything, i screw everything up. I”M JUST SO STUPID!

I’ve tried committing suicide many many times. I tried not too long ago, like a few minutes ago. I seriously can’t handle this much […]

I swear I want to be so completely done.Why? why do I always have to ruin something? Can I just leave for like a year? Im done.

Okay so i hate when people write selfish things about themselves on Facebook like “I’m so fat” just so people will reply to them.
But i’m not trying to fish for compliments. And i don’t know how to turn off the comments so just don’t think i’m doing that!

Anyway was looking at photos today (which i regret doing now) and i just feel SOOO unattractive, I have never weighed this much in my life. It’s not like i’m obese but i feel like i could be better looking.

I need to try harder.  I understand that i am always going to be unhappy with how i […]

I want to say I am looking for a way out I make everyone miserable ,I am waiting for spinal fusion op ,I am an emotional cripple as well as physical ,I try to do my best to help round the house with limited mobility ,I am not interested in women I think I am( a )sexual,I don’t like intimacy or touching ,I have told my wife ,she wants me to leave or kill myself so I am considering this option ,we are in debt up to our eyes,so I said let me get better and get back to work and then I can […]

Everyday I wonder what is love
Is it something magical from above.
I really think not
Or why some many people it forgot.
The warmth of a hug
The words whisperd it Will be alright
Not this reality that’s such a fight.
Some get chosen
I did not
Now my heart is in a knot
Not good enough it seems
To make my parents heart gleam.
So my own self worth
I must find
Cause these bad memories I must put behind.

fuck. fuck. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. I fucking need to stop breaking down over every small fucking thing that happens. GODDAMMIT.

What else can I do to make you stay?

Cause both of us know this is not okay.

Is there anything that can save my day?

Cause everything about you, and everything you do

Is only gonna make me believe that you wanted me

To be your one and only

You’re just a liar!

You have no soul!

You made this city girl fall in love and then the next thing I know,

You’re walking out my door acting like nothing ever happened at all!

I hope karma kills you one day!

After all my pondering of the past

I’ve come to realize all the mistakes I made and

How it all repeats over and over again

Will someone […]

My name’s Mikaela Guerry. Don’t care who all knows, but I just need some support. I’ve been in love three times now and I’m slowly breaking down into a complete mess. My family is broken, and my friends backstab me. My ex girlfriend is the only thing depressing me. Her name, Emilyn. I met her sometime in July last year and I had a crush on her from the moment I met her. We talked all the time, and went on crazy adventures. Still do. Me and her became best friends after about 5 months. My feelings grew stronger and stronger for her. Then i […]

I really hate it when for no reason my mind reaches into my memories and grabs hold of everything that I work really hard to move past and then wraps them around each and every current thought…

Day comes, And I’m okay. I smile, I go to work, I laugh with friends and surround myself with good things. I feel like I’m okay.

But then Night comes. And I’m alone. And I can’t cope. I open my window and Half lean my body out of it from my 11th floor apartment.

Why the hell do i feel okay during the day, but night comes and these emotion flood back into me? What the hell?

I’m 20 Years old for Christ Sakes. Grow the Hell Up me.