He promised me i could trust him, he promised me i could believe in him, he promised me he would care for me, he promised me he would never make me cry, he promised he would catch me if i fell, but most of all he promised me he truly loved me…… But guess what?! Every single one of those promises were a lie! He broke me. It felt like he had just suddenly leaned forward and ripped my heart out. And now i have a huge whole inside of me, which gives me the feelings of lonelyness, helpless, sadness…..suicidal…
I keep and keep and keep on cutting my wrists! I’m probaly addicted to it and i want to stop, but i can’t! Because after something happens again and i feel like jumping of the next best bridge,i cut myself to relax and it just feels so good, but i know i shouldn’t be doing it, but how do i stop? It makes me feel so happy and how does someone stop doing sonething that makes them feel happy? Help please!?
I never actually thought i would end up like this, i was always so happy. No that is a lie. Now when i think back i notice i ACTED like i was happy but on the inside i had already died a long time ago. I’m not even 16 and i allready want to end my life so badly! And i can’t tell anyone about these feelings these suicidal thoughs because no one kann really understand me. I used to get bullied alot because of my nationality, of how i spoke, how i looked and how i acted. Four years long not a day went […]
So I’m new here, I am sixteen and found this site a couple of days ago. I’m glad that I finally have somewhere I can go to be with others that feel the way I do. I don’t feel so crazy anymore that suicide is serious because not everyone treats it serious. I have tried committing suicide three times, but everytime I felt nothing afterwards other than frustration that it did not work. I felt no guilt or misery for those around me. I felt nothing. I just want my pain to be over and the emptiness I feel to go away. People say that […]
Everyone does things for a reason. Everyone who knows about this website has a reason. I have mine, and you have yours. So what is yours?
I’m not sure how to put this.My life suck as i know it. I’m 54 and have been out of work for over 3yrs (Like the rest of the world).I lost my home and everything i owned just a few years back,Job lost. Ever sense then,It’s been nothing but down. I just keep going deeper. I have a wife “no kids”. A got a use jeep with my taxes. A really used jeep, Every time i try to go forward something knocks me back.Now i just got a job 3 days passed and the jeep breaks down. I have no money,Now i have no trans,Maybe no […]
i am tired of being scared all the time..feeling what others feel. i am tired of being worthless….i am tired of being scared to hurt people that invested too much in me………………..i am nothing but an accident. why cant i just seize t to exists. i cant even kill myself without feeling guilt….either i am too coward or i scared of being selfish and hurt people that did there best to give me what they could……….i use to love nature and life ..i have a beautiful girl that i think is in love with me……but i am in constant fear of rejection….i am tired of […]
I have failed in my life. Almost 40, dead end job, antisocial, no hope of ever knowing true love, too late to make something useful of myself. Nothing left to hope for, dream about, or look forward to. Reading stories on this site makes me realize that things could be much worse, and I am thankful to have family who care about me, but I can’t help but wonder why I am here. When I read about parents who die and leave thier kids behind, or people with the power to make a positive impact in the world who pass on before their work is […]
It’s been a while since I ranted on here. No I haven’t really been doing better. I’ve just been avoiding it.
Life’s hard, no one around me understands it therefor I never have anyone to talk to about it. If I were to try to tell my “best friend” about it, she would turn it around about how bad her life is. She doesn’t get it. My daily routine is go to school – get told how much I suck at every subject – return home, and be super lonely – sleep for around 4 hours and repeat. It’s not healthy, and is definitely not […]
Okay, so basically im really depressed right now because of a few things, im not doing to well in school and my dad yells at me when he gets reportcards, and he yelled at me tonight because of homework and my reportcard comes tommorow…. I hate my image, i dont like myself, i really like a girl but im too much of a ***** to ask her out. i cant do anything right and im done right now, i think it will be the only way to not get yelled at tommorow. I cant take it anymore.
Yesterday was Monday. Meaning I had to go back to school after spring break. Ugh! Took Advil to school. I knew I’d need it. And sure enough. I took 3 but didn’t help. I cried in 3rd period but was able to make it to the bathroom without everyone seeing. And then I cried in fifth this time no one saw me.. I just wanted to go so badly yesterday. I wanted to be dead. I’m already dead anyways. Just my body’s still moving. But it doesn’t feel like I’m inside. So I did my research and how to go. But then someone made […]
I have been contemplating suicide the past couple of weeks. I have had this experience before and tried reaching out to my sister, but it didn’t help as much. It prevented me from killing myself but instead I resorted to cutting myself. Because of the cutting, my coach decided I am not able to play in any of my basketball games until I seek metal help of some sort. I know this may sound like a classic ‘sob story’ but I do need help. Its gotten to the point where I daydream in class of killing myself in gruesome ways.. please help..
So, uh, it’s been a while since I posted or commented or anything. I actually wasn’t going to make a post for a while yet, not until I felt sure about making some sort of progress. But I was just lurking, haha, which, honestly, I haven’t lurked for weeks, and I saw one_day was wondering about me. Well, I wouldn’t want anyone to think I might’ve offed myself since I haven’t been around. And I don’t know if anyone else was really wondering about me – just in case, I’m here to let you know.
My last post – I just went over it again […]
it’s been a while since i was last on this site. i thought everything was good, except not it’s not. i’m failing all my classes in school, i’m afraid i might not even pass this year, and i get anxiety attacks all the time. i really hate anxiety attacks. i feel that the only way to calm myself down is by choking myself or burning my hands with really hot water. i know neither of those things are healthy but the pain on the inside is so bad and i really don’t want to cut, i’ve been resisting for so long, i have the scars […]
Hi, my name is Logan. I am 15 years old, and I know what it’s like to be depressed and even suicidal. But I have found help and the strength I need to get through. My issues will never subside, no matter how much I want them to. They will never be resolved, but I will escape then one day. And that day is when I start my own life. That life with my future wife and kids. But I don’t ask for any help, and i don’t ask for any support. I am willing to help anyone out there that needs to be helped. […]
I am extremely tired. Happiness keeps teasin me. Everytime it feels like its finally in grasp and my lifes going to be ok, it slips right out of my hands. Somebody I thought was my friend screwed up my relationship a while back. We never got over each other. I still like him alot. My boyfriend now, doesnt make me alot happier. We only see each other literally maybe three times a year so we just text. In the middle of the convErsation he’ll leave without explanation…yay. Then he acts like it never happened. I flirted with my ex and sccidently went a little too […]
Intials and names will never be erased…
Or even replaced.
Or even fade away.
So it’ll always stay.
No magic marker-
To scribble it all out.
Nor plastic surgery-
Will cover the evidence.
No… it will always stay.
I feel that I am in an ominous abyss, someone please tell me I’m not. I know that it is my own doing, but do not know how to climb out even though I wish to or just plain suffocate already. This paper bag of hope or maybe just faith is not helping the hyperventilation that comes on every time I look at reality and know I am alone; in an ominous abyss.
I was happy once. I felt like I was on top of the world. I felt like nothing could stop me. I had endless confidence. I lived in Las Vegas, and I felt like I owned the place. I didn’t always feel that way. That was 2 years ago…
I grew up being a really shy kid. I think it has a lot to do with my parents sheltering the heck out of me. Whenever something “scary” would come on TV, they would cover my eyes and act like it was horrible. They just hid […]
its that feeling you get when you have no motivation. Kind of as you’ve given up on everything. Instead of picking up your books or going for a walk or doing the dishes (it can be anything) you just lay there. all your priorities overcome by the essence of just being there and doing nothing. Does anyone know what feeling im talking about?