Everytime I become comfortable with the fact that I’m eventually going to do this, I realize I’m forgetting one thing: I am in fact, as insignificant as I may feel, leaving people behind who care about me. I’m not so deluded to the point that I don’t understand that what I’m about to do will destroy them. I hate feeling guilty. I hate that they aren’t going to just bounce back. I wish I could just disappear and they could go on as if I had just moved away or we just don’t talk anymore. People are going to miss me. I’ll be able to […]

I give up on people. I give up on the hope of ever feeling anything other than pain. I give up. I wish to just disappear. I wish to die and never to experience pain. I hate people. Everyone in my life is unjust, cold, mean, cruel. No one gives a shit. No one ever stops to think about me. I wish to never come out of my house. I wish to never encounter another cold person who does not give a shit.
I do not wish to have anything fancy only some little joy. I once felt hopeful that one day the pain would […]

I’m not sure but I just don’t want to play by the rules of life and nature… I find it unfulfilling & tiring. I see no other choice but to deliberately end it. I am shocked at the rate people bring new babies into the world when it is such a struggle to find any sort of value that is greater than the cost in getting it to make it worthwhile.

My friends and I haven’t been getting along. One said she was being a B**** to me because i crave attention. I just want someone to care about me and be there for me. Then another friend I lost is a girl that said she didn’t like me because I cry to much & that she don’t care. I cry in front of her because I felt like she’s someone I can talk to. But she does the same thing & I don’t talk mess about her. Someone give me advice please.

Sometimes it seems like my most painful thoughts are provoked by some of my happiest memories.  I am sure to be found crying if at first I was seen smiling.  At first, I just wanted the hurt to go away; to forget the painful memories.  Now, I will gladly be encompassed by them if I could only forgot that which made me happy.

I feel lost, entangled in a web in which there is no discerning truth from lies; reality from fantasy.  Am I going crazy?  Have I always been crazy? Or are we all trapped inside our own webs and that is just life?  If […]

I’m scared. I feel like I’m losing everyone. Like NO ONE loves me. I told my friend I do stuff for attention. Now she hates me. I feel like no one understands me. Am I the only one that wants someone to love me??? Someone please give me advice.. ):

I caught genital herpes seven and a half months ago. Most people don’t have symptoms; most of those who do have mild symptoms. I have constant symptoms. I was already unhappy before I caught this. Now I have lesions on my penis most of the time and I will be contagious for the rest of my life. Sex was about the only thing that made me feel whole. Now I can’t have sex without feeling guilty and frightened. The outbreaks won’t stop and when they hit I lose all will to live.

Broken words stumble off my lips, littering your mind with hollow truth / Everything is fine, really, I’m just confused / Memories made of searing flame, pierce my soul with deadly aim / The slow burn of defeat, ashes fall as I weep / Inside this abyss, the embers of my core drift away, torturing my solid state / This pain is real, make no mistake /A prey to grief, I seek the shelter of expiration; the cataclysm of my desperation / My will to fight consumed by apathy, the familiar taste of failure returns to the back of my throat / My […]

I give up ,I don’t think anymore in such bullshit as happiness ,it’s just a stupid moment that ends quickly and returns pains stronger than ever .Do u know the feeling of loving someone that doesn’t love you back,seeing him everyday with that smile ,that face and not being able even to talk to him ,well he seems interested in you sometimes but u hate yourself that much that you think that he probably feels sorry about you. Do u know the feeling of being in a room full of people that hate you and show it in every possible way ? And the stupidest […]

Bummed out and angry – no reason for it. I feel like I’m going to cry, shatter, fall apart.

Oh well. Here goes my razor blade, slicing into my arm again.

(I hate how this is what I have to resort to)

Nothing is for certain. We all end up on this site for the same reason – a great deal of pain. Many reach out for help or a human connection. They bare their souls with words. Another attempts to respond in kind. Sometimes it incites a response, sometimes it doesn’t. It’s foolish to think words can suffice but still – nothing is impossible.

Some are included based on quality and not quantity, some have both. They are in no special order except for having been active within a week. Forgive me if I missed you, I am limited in energy.

To those who continue to do/attempt the […]

I’m exhausted from the complete emptiness I feel. I have failed at so much in life (I appear realitivly accomplished) But I know the truth, I know the unforgivable mistakes I have made. I know the complete inability I have to help my children (young adults) not repeat, not suffer. I know the depth of how far off the mark I am to reaching any inner peace. I want to just pull the lever, hop off the bus, and lay down in front of it. The only thing that has stopped my exit is not knowing how severely it may affect my son, daughter, granddaughter […]

My story is kind of long but I will just give the short version: I think I have Body Dysmorphic Disorder. Regardless, I am convinced I am a freak because of something that you all will probably think is absolutely ridiculous (but it distressed me nonetheless): the size of my hands.

No, I am not trolling. I am serious.

I am a 5’1 adult female and my hands are 6 inches long. I feel that they are too small for my body. I don’t know if this is true or not. I have had some comments on their smallness. I was on a date once and the […]

today i was told to kill my self and i have been told im worthless and alll that shit so ive tooken alot of pills so i guess im just really waiting to see what happens but ive realized now that i want to stay for this one girl and i should have realized earlyer but im afraid to tell any one now becuse i dont want to be sent to some place were ill be looked at like im some fucked up kid (sorry for the bad spelling im a retarded )

My whole life I wanted to trust people. But all I ever get in return is hate and pain.

I have no friends, I’ve only ever had 2 or 3 at maximum at any given time, but now I am alone. So alone.

Since the third grade I have dreamed of finding a girlfriend, a partner, someone who in their own willingness would find me remotely valuable…something worth more than the dirt I feel every day. I still wander alone…I have never been able to know what it is liked to be loved.

Then she showed up. And all of her problems. I don’t know why, of all […]

I’ve always been depressed, well since I was twelve. But ill tell that story later. My obsession now is my heartbreak. I’ve never thought I would find love, I always wished and wished deeply for someone who truly loves me. For example the movie Ella Enchanted, when I saw it I wished everyday as I walked to school to have someone love me like Char loved Ella. Then a couple months ago, I found him the love of my life, my soul mate, my beautiful Nate. And we were perfect, until he had a stroke, he’s only 25, I was in shock. We barely get […]

Im just done. I tried being the nice guy. I did all the right things, said all the right bs, all to make everyone else happy. But you know what? I’m not happy. It ate away at me, piece by piece, until the only thing left was a walking corpse with my face. Every lie I told to keep everyone else safe. Taking all the blame, all the abuse and ridicule, all the punishment. I can’t do it anymore. Recovery is a lie that posterboys preach, a lie I’m done believing in. I’m depressed. I’m done trying to escape it, trying to treat it, trying […]

I woke up this morning to a text on my phone, it was from my little sister. She’s 13 and I am almost 17. The text read “Helllo & good morning! 😀 have a great day at school nevada! Don’t forget to leave Tina out! Love you!” (Tina is our dog and nevada is my nickname) Usually I take her to school, but on Wednesdays the high school starts later so we don’t get to see each other in the morning. Upon reading this text I realized I am doing something right. That little girl loves me with all her heart. She is not my […]

Today I told my mother I was depressed and, at times, suicidal. About 5 years ago my father committed suicide, throwing himself off of the roof of his office building. My family was and still is devistated. A few years ago one of my best friends hung himself. I have had many issues with close friends and girlfriends rejecting me after getting to know me. My family is not very open about their feelings and myself being the only male makes it very hard for me to talk about this stuff.

I was 17 when my father left. I am now 23 and have been feeling […]

I feel like this everyday. I am young, and I admit, attractive. People love me and try to help. I am a piece of shit as a person. I have issues keeping relationships. I constantly think about killing myself. There is one reason that I haven’t. I don’t want to hurt anymore people than i have. My mom asked me what I wanted today. I was about to say that I want to die. Intead, I told her that I just want to get better. It’s true but I’ve lost hope.