Myne is truly tragic :(

I’ve always been depressed, well since I was twelve. But ill tell that story later. My obsession now is my heartbreak. I’ve never thought I would find love, I always wished and wished deeply for someone who truly loves me. For example the movie Ella Enchanted, when I saw it I wished everyday as I walked to school to have someone love me like Char loved Ella. Then a couple months ago, I found him the love of my life, my soul mate, my beautiful Nate. And we were perfect, until he had a stroke, he’s only 25, I was in shock. We barely get to see each other because he lives kinda far away, but he would try and visit me every 2-3 weeks. But now not at all..he has a mass in his brain, if it stays it could give him an aneurysm, they are not even sure they can reach it in surgery, he’s still doing tests, but the surgery will probably kill him or he will wake up a vegetable. I can’t live without him, I just can’t, if he dies I will have lost my soulmate, the only person who doesn’t judge, who looks at me with only love and passion. Im so distressed and scared and deppressed. I wont kill myself until he dies :'(