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Advise?

July 24th, 2009by Jess66

I have a very hard decision that could either make or break my life. So in the beginning of the year our guidance counselr came and told us to come and make an appointment with her if we ever needed to. So one day I wanted to meet her, and I also knew that I get upset alot so, this could be good for me! And as she got to know my problems more we meet more and more and I told her every thing… almost everything that is. One day I come in bawling and she says I don’t look so good. And we …

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Terrified

July 24th, 2009by hauntingyou

I’m going to be camping for the next month or so. I’m excited, and terrified. I’m excited because I get to see my only friend for the first time in months. And I get to meet other kids from other countries. But I’m terrified because of my anxiety, sleeping issues, fears, and problems. I’m afraid of showing to much of my body. And that is a huge problem because we shower in the same room (not the same shower). And the bathroom stalls are so small it’s impossible to change in them. I HATE changing in front of people, even if their girls. I’m also …

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My Story

July 24th, 2009by kayceekitten

I am a twelve year old girl who has been put through shit in the past few years. I’m not sure where the problem began, but I’m trying my best to find out.

I think it started last August, when my “friend” Shelby and I tried cutting ourselves with sticks. She did it for attention, while I did it because I thought that maybe it might help. Little did I know that I was committing myself to this life (because I’m such an idiot). She made scratches on her arm while I was trying to make it bleed.

In middle school, things started to get worse. I …

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I want to die!

July 24th, 2009by jacjacob101

Im about 13, ive been cutting my self ever sence i was 10.

im deeply depressed,

everyone hates me,

no one loves me for who i am,

people dont look at me for what i am, but what i have done,

i have been beaten when i was little,

ive lost over 50 pounds in a month, just becuz i stoped eating,

peoplel dont belive i will kill my self, i have tryed to multiple times.

i sit in class all day ignored

i dont talk to people

im always getting in trouble

i have thoughts of killing my self and others

i never have done anything for the world yet and i wont,  people say i …

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My Story.

July 23rd, 2009by th3rdegreeburn

I don’t know what to do anymore. I used to have all the world laying at my feet, and I could pick whatever direction I chose. My life held so much promise, and now it is decaying around me.

In the past two years I’ve been beaten by my parents, taken by CPS, thrown into the real world a month later, and killed myself working ever since. I was supposed to go to the Air Force Academy. I got a full ride to a state college instead, where I found out what I loved to do most. But now I’m sitting in this house, and all …

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So tired and yet I cannot sleep.

July 23rd, 2009by hauntingyou

Well, it’s 2:08 at night and I’m still awake. I’ve been in bed for 3 hours. I hate it when I’m so tired but I cannot sleep. I can never turn my mind off. I’ve never been able too. It drives me nuts. With my mind racing from thought to thought to thought………….it’s frustrating. Although, I’ve always been a “night owl”. But, not so much anymore. It’s really not like it was when I was little. When I was little I could sleep for 6 hours and not be tired at all. And, I was a “night owl” because I never really was tired. But now, …

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July 22nd, 2009by CoryJK

Dear Suicide Project,

FML.  I want to kill myself, but my fear of eternal damnation in hell keeps me from doing so.  Would someone kindly shove a knife through my heart.

XOXO’s

Cory

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Fear

July 22nd, 2009by hauntingyou

As some of you may know, I was raped and abused by my cousin. I hate the fact that my family still has us see each other. And, I always have to choose between:

A: Not going to where ever we’re going as a family and miss out. Which also means not seeing my younger brother or my aunt.

B: Going, and be an anxious freak the whole time. End up crying afterward. And have a huge fear for days of him hurting me again.

I don’t think it’s fair that I have to choose. Like last Saturday, my aunt and I were supposed to go to my other aunts …

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July 22nd, 2009by hjm10

i dont really know why i’m doing this. i really want someone to help me i guess. i’m turning to everyone i know and theyre just leaving me. this is the only way i can talk to someone. and i realize that most of the stuff that has happened to me is not as severe as some other people. but it still hurts. and i want someone to listen. and all of this is so scattered. i’ll apologize now for the random parts. and skipping around. i just have so much to say. and i dont know how to fit it all together.

 

so my best friend …

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Love?

July 22nd, 2009by Jess66

Ok, so life hasn’t been so great lately. So there’s this girl who said she loved me a few days ago, and I LOVED her for months and months and watched her get boy-friend after boy-friend while I’m almost certian she knew I was in love with her, so I was basically nothing to her when she had a boy-friend and when they cheated on her or broke up, Of course I was “the best” and “super amazing” because I’m so soft harted I CAN’T not forgive some one. And I just kept loving her. And now recently I knew I would never have her …

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Anxiety and fear

July 21st, 2009by hauntingyou

I have horrible anxiety. I’m not completely sure why. But it’s controlling my life. Or rather it affects my life. Greatly. Anyways, the reason why I’m so anxious all the time is because I was abused, raped, and neglected as a child. Even though, technically speaking, I still am a child (I’m 13). The neglect had ended 3 years ago. But the abuse and rape went on until this past fall. Now it’s done. It’s gone. But I feel like it was just yesterday………… So, ya. I have been diagnosed with GAD. But I counselor said I don’t need a medication for it. I also have alot of crazy and creepy fears. These …

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Ready to die

July 21st, 2009by fisherminisher

I’m glad there is a forum like this that I can relate to. I have a wife and 3 kids and I am 30 years old. I’ve been thinking of suicide for years now and over the past few months have gotten past this weird barrier that I had before. I was so cautious and scared to kill myself before and now I feel like nothing is stopping me. Sort of like a green light. Now I don’t obsess about it as I used to and have moved onto phase 2 in finding the right way to do it. One thing I learned is that …

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my precious men and women, we fragile little things

July 20th, 2009by everwaiting

Dear Friends,

I want to tell you that I love you. I love you all so much. If you think I’m talking to you, I am. If you think I’m not talking to you, I am. I am not fazed by the mistakes you’ve made, the errors you’ve dealt, the selfish or humiliating or hopeless things you’ve done. I am indifferent to your age, your gender, your hair color, your battle scars. I love you with the purest, most earnest compassion I can summon. I know that we’re all so lost and afraid… I am so lost and so very afraid. But no matter how lost …

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Hey

July 20th, 2009by krannock

Heya, if your feeling low and just want someone to talk to, feel free to add me on msn, my email is Ryan@carterhome.co.uk :’)

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I deserve to be extinguished

July 20th, 2009by caligirl01

it’s evident because I am 30 years old and still live with my parents..  even though I am a female, that doesn’t make it any better…  I have been diagnosed as bipolar 2 and I am on social security..  That makes me a complete and utter leech on life’s resources..  I hear the eugenecists want to kill me because I cost them money and am a useless eater and unfortunately, I can see where they are coming from…  I once loved and lost because the guy realized what a loser I really am and he kicked me to the curb after using me for sex…  …

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A Poem I wrote to: Life

July 20th, 2009by Boondockrod

 

To: Life  

 

i wept gently at the sound of her call
i always favored that wide eyed grin
the time they said is now at hand
time for her rest to finally begin
suffering no more, for her at least
letting go all the pain and heartache
i’ll stay with her til the very last moment
for her heart was the claim i did stake
let go i say…please just let her go
theres nothing i can do to change
over and over til i see every color
the memories drowning the pain
can i go on?…do i even dare try
when half of one is one less tear
every part of living our dream
is half enough to even care?

i …

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I fear the end is near

July 20th, 2009by Boondockrod

my name is Rod, i am suicidal..i am diagnosed depression..i am crying as i write this..i am in so much pain..not just emotionaly but physical as well…i want to tell my story but i feel no one will care anyway..i guess i came here to find hope and all i really find is people either worse off then me or people with so much pain i can feel it in my own heart …i hate when people try to tell me its ok and will get better…it has only gotten worse as years go by…i am at my end..there is nothing that can seem to

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if you wanna end your life read this

July 20th, 2009by im gonna do it

i have thought long and hard about the option and finally figured out a way to do it whilst not letting anyone know i killed myself, im going to get a job get my bike license buy a fast machine and go into the back of a truck as fucking fast as i can full fucking stop no one will know i killed myself it will just look like i was reckless and riding to fast well i hope this idea help those of you who are serious see you all on the flip side

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….

July 20th, 2009by emily25

I’m 17 to start off with. My parents are divorced and my mom remarried. I am depressed. I don’t really “cut” or anything. Though, I don’t stop from letting an accident happen if it would hurt and make it bleed out. I could most of the time, but I just don’t. I kind of just get really relaxed when something like that happens. It’s proly not good, but oh well. I have ODed once not too long ago and was sick for like four days. I didn’t think of anything though I did feel like shit. It was my fault I did though. I thought …

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July 19th, 2009by gini

hi there I’m 28yrs old and don’t know what to do anymore i have 4 kids which at the moment i don’t like I’ve been told that due to depression which Ive suffered for years since being a kid all i want to do is end all this for me and them as i know that as long as I’m here there not going to be happy and i no that wen i go they will all have loving happy places to go to life is so shit i just don’t know how to cope i no how im gonna do it i already told …

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