im starting to get scared. Im so sick of the constant anxious feeling and thinking that everyone thinks im disgusting and worthless and ugly and fat and useless and weird. I just dont know how to get better…Ive tried everything. The meds made me even worse and peple just dont want to acknowledge anything. I cant remember a time when I didnt feel this way. I dont want to keep going if this is all thats ahead of me. Im only 21 and already despise the thought of living until Im old. I just want it over, sooner rather than later. Nobody wants me and Im ok with that, but Im scared of the thought of never getting married or having kids. Who would want to do that with me anyway? I would never expect anyone to spendt he rest of their life with me…they deserve better, everyone deserves better
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hi, smallgirl… If your medications didn’t help, I’d speak with your doctor about that. They can probably make some adjustments for you. At 21, it’s hard to say that everything you see now is what you will see. People often don’t enter the working world until later in their 20s… and that often begins a life with new work, in a new place, with new people. There is a good chance that what you’re experiencing now will be a distant memory in a few years. For now, prepare… Whether it’s in school or making decisions that will set you up for success, it’s up to you. I would really encourage you to speak with your doctor.
There is some one for every one – don’t take this the wrong way but try a non american – trust me
You gotta try to love yourself first. Nobody else will come along and love you and make you feel all better. Even if they did, it’s dangerous to put all your happiness in someone else’s hands, because if that relationship ever falls apart, you’ll be devastated. You have to stop those negative thoughts, saying that nobody should be with you because they deserve better. If that’s the attitude that you project out into the world, then that’s the result you’re going to get. If you don’t like certain things about yourself, work on changing them, become the best version of yourself you can be, become awesome and learn to love yourself. Then if someone comes along who wants to share their life with you, great, and even if it doesn’t happen, you will love yourself and be happy anyway.
People frequently settle for less.
Don’t worry about what people think, then don’t do it very often.
If the meds make it worse, change them and don’t just rely on them.