I need a gun. Fuck. I just need a gun.
If you want to, I will to pray for you.
It might not seem much, but I do beileve in this.
This is what Jesus says:
“Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.â€
Matthew 11:28-30
If you want to, email me and I will pray for you.
kacharay@yahoo.co.uk
i’m not gonna lie, i’m such a hypocrite for thinking this.
so in my school production of Annie, there’s this girl playing Mrs. Hannigan who has recently (at auditions) displayed her singing talent. i mean this girl’s GOOD. i’m not gonna lie, (i hate bragging, but this is true,) i have been the best singer in my drama club for two years. this whole time i’ve been practicing, working as hard as i can, to be the best i can be. i’ve been working my ass off and suddenly this amateur just strolls in and steals everyone’s hearts by wailing a couple of high notes. […]
I just want people to be honest with me. I want somebody to come up to me and say “Hey listen…there’s nothing you can do. You are going to have to deal with your depression for the rest of your life. You can’t get rid of it. It will come and go as it pleases.”
I’m just tired of false hope and all the BS people keep telling me. Like you should have hope and you have a purpose and things will get better when you are going to college. Why would college do such a thing? I’m socially awkward and I hate having a lot […]
I have tried to commit suicide 3 times. The first two attempts were by rope and the 3rd attempt was with medications and alcohol. The 2nd attempt resulted in me being send to a mental hospital, where I am currently and have been for 3 months now. But that doesn’t cure me of the thoughts. I feel much worse and I’m experiencing so much inner unrest now, that i have difficulties sleeping or thinking on anything else than death. I can’t see how this could be worth anything. Already I’m planning a new attempt that hopefully will be much more successful. TTT – Things take […]
I’m 32 years old. I have a good job and an even better spouse. I have thought about suicide everyday since I was about 6 years old. I have been sexually abused and raped. These things are far in the past. However, I HATE it when people blow smoke up each other’s butts all day and ignore any real feelings. I hate facebook because 1)I can’t stop 2) it has ruined my relationship with family members. I don’t feel like trying anymore and I certainly can NOT take another goddamn therapist or psychiatrist. I always feel WORSE after meeting with them because they say the […]
why is it that simple stuff like my best friend texting me I miss you or my guy friend giving me a hug or my sister telling me she loves me bring tears to my eyes. I want to be able to tell them I’m leaving. I want to be able to tell them I am think about killing myself. But I can’t. I can’t eat. I can’t sleep. I cry and cut everyday. I’m dead on the inside. I’m not who I was. I’m gone it’s just my body now and I’m not sure how long that will be here.
today is my first day, i am actually going through with it,i didnt eat anything at all today,i wont till i die,your body has to stop working with out food some point,this aint a attempt you cant get not lucky with either, but its hard as hell,i dont feel good, i feel sick to my stomic,i have no idea how to imagen what the last day on this earth will be like suffering starvation,but i really want out so here it goes,
I’m an adolescent asian kid going through high school. Sighed up to see how my way of thinking may change over the years. I may look back thinking how foolish I was back in the teenage ages, or be laying dead somewhere.
tonight i am going to do it. i am 24 going through a midlife crisis. my name is Dane. i am a drug addict nd a disappointment to my family. its my time.. goodbye all.
It been 6 weeks now since she left
Today…going to the lawyer to sign paper of my net worth after work.
Today was very very bad. I had a breakdown and one of my medical assistant who was divorce help me through. I went to see my PCP to get some med. for depression. I feel like killing myself.
I want to call my wife up….to try to talk to her.
I have been sleeping in the other room instead of my bedroom….that doesn’t really help. I really can’t sleep at night.
My parent..are tired of me crying and being sad. They sent me back to my house. Dad telling […]
Last night I crashed.
Isn’t it funny.
The higher you are.
The harder you fall.
No one was home.
No one saw.
When the water burned.
Leaving trails of red.
I used to tell him.
Now he doesn’t care.
I think it scared him.
I can’t ask.
He’s gone.
is there such a thing as a safe place? because i want to go there! somewhere the weather is always hot and the water is always cool to the touch, a place where people respect me and strangers who don’t know me love me anyways. i want to be understood, i want the world to see and know how I’m feeling. but no one understands, not even you… we are all different and i believe that no one will ever help me regain peace and happiness and i want it back so bad! i remember wat it was like being happy and laughing. i remember […]
Today i don’t want to live. Praying Mother nature to send me infarct, but i am sure my heart will stop herself.
My Love says he doesn’t know what he feels. Like he loves me and cares about me, but it’s a shit. He just woke up one morning and felt that it’s different. Distance took him. After all his promises and praying to never give up on us. He gave up.
He thinks, that he needs a month. If we will talk a month like once upon a time, when were just friends, then it will come back.. IS IT POSSIBLE?
I never cry for guys, but […]
I think it is very hard to disagree that these people are the most insperational indaviduals on this site. They post helpful comments and are nice people considering some people i could name, *cough* one_day *cough*. So thank you Owen and Holly for all the help you have given. And one last question from me, WHO THE FUCK IS DEATHBUG?!?
Hey, I came across this page because I was feeling restless and depressed. Here’s a bit of a history of my life, so that you’ll be able to understand my personality and judge my behavior and situation better.
I feel that I’m being very intolerent, impatient, inconsiderate and selfish towards other people. I am 17 this year, and I haven’t been talking to my brother since I was 14 because I couldn’t stand him. I had a major exam back then, and I was tense. I was not very intellectual, and I studied hard for it. I didn’t have my own room, and, believe it or […]
I had the worst night of my life.. My heart hurts. I cried so hard. My mum just yelled at me for reasons not needed. She yelled at me because of the mistakes of my brother. She yelled at me and yelled at me and yelled at me. But I just stood my ground. Thats it! I cant take it anymore! I TOLD her I have a breaking point mum and I cant have anymore of the yelling and hitting and stuff. (she hit me) I just can’t take this any longer. No more. I’m done! I told her to bearly take me to […]
I wonder if terms such as “soulmates” and other stuff like that exist. To tell you the truth, I don’t believe in it, at least not anymore.
There are happy couples at school, outside of school. These couples live in a world of their own, a world filled with bliss, ignorant of reality, and the reality is the image these couples are portraying to the public. They’re making it look easy to find love, but it’s no easy feat.
My track record at love is horrible. I guess you could use “one-sided” as the best word for that. I gave all the love I could give, what […]
Happy Birthday to me 🙁 there is nothing like a birthday to really show you how pathetic and alone you really are.
…since I wrote on a forum like this. It’s a long-time since I’ve been so bad.
And I’m crying my eyes out writing this. I’ve been on medication for 10 years now. After every good patch, I think I’m managing. I know I’ll die taking these drugs, but I think I’m settled. May be I’ll be ok now. May be I can do the things I’ve always wanted to. May be I can actually plan my life. Have goals and ambitions, without worrying that I will have to disappear to my room for months. And not emerge.
Im so stuck, I don’t know how to get out […]