I went a week without burning…then i just did it again…i love it way too much

Yea I’m sure there will be few to shred some tears over me but I am such a disapointment I actually would be doing them a favor..see I on other people because I’m such a fuck up I always ruin everything and I can see the look on peoples faces..they wish they could get rid of me..I see I’m nothing but a burden. Wat hurts the most is I have a child. A beautiful 3 years old princess. But I can’t afford tip take care of her I know in the future she will be so hurt and you probably say how can you […]

I just want to be with him again.

he was the only one that really got it.

why do i have to be here,

and not there?

why couldnt i have stuck up

to our suicide pact?

i hate myself, i really do.

i hope i die.

i want to shoot myself so badly.

why did he have to leave me

here and make me suffer

so much? i wish

i could just find one other

person that cares and

wont let me go…

Today at school, I found out a boy commited suicide last night. He was a year older than me but i saw him frequently in the hallway. I am very shocked to know that this boy was hurting so bad that he felt he needed to do this. He seemed to be always smiling! I know that people are going to talk for months on end about him. I can already hear “was it that kid that had no friends?” Why must people be so cruel? I did not know this boy but i feel like i could of prevented his death. “Only if..” Are the […]

I’m numb, and dying inside,

i take my anger out on my wrists.

i hate myself for it.

i wish i would just die already,

the blood is dripping to slowly,

i feel like i can only make people

happy if im gone…. i guess this is it.

There is absolutly no reason to live anymore. i just want to die.

no one would even care if i died.

i wish i wasnt so numb.

im taking pill after pill to make myself feel normal everday,

but i just cant do it anymore.

there  is just an emptiness that nothing can fill.

all of the drugs in the world couldnt fill it….

im done.

Hi.. my history is not really about suicide, but i went very close to that, and sometimes i still think about it, but i know i wont succeed.

Sorry for my english, my main lenguague is portuguese, and i’ll try my best here to express my feelings, or whatever this is.

I mean i dont feel nothing about the world, i dont feel nothing, really, i just try to picture myself  in every kind of life and i just dont get excited about anything, i look around and i picture big zeros, like nothing matters.

Everything can happen to me, that i wont care.

I get angry all the […]

Life seems to be getting harder and harder to live. Emotionally I feel destroyed. Sometimes I don’t think that I can go on. I feel like my life is a mess because of the decisions that I have made. It hurts so bad. I have a young son that depends on me. He needs me but I feel worthless. I don’t think I can take anymore heartbreak, nor do I want to. I havn’t felt joy in so long. My depression stays with me day and night. I feel like the walking dead and that I’m being punished or something. I want to live […]

for about 5 years now i have had a struggle with depression, and only in the past 2 years or so have people found out about it. i’ve attempted to kill myself several times but never found the strangth to do it.
when people first found out about my depression they where absolutely shocked. It didn’t make sense to them, i was always the one helping other people with their problems. Hell i wanted to be a social worker or child psychologist for the sole reason of helping people with those problems. But now…. now everything just looks bleak.
today after a fairly minor argument […]

No one really cares at the end. of it all. Everyday I wake up I wish to die. Of course I want to do it in a painless way. I heard if you jump like off a cliff your body passes out so thats a good one..right? Or overdose on perkasets because I heard it stop your breathing and you go in a peacful sleep
I want this more than anything to die. Please leave a comment. My only fear is that I will live this horrible life.

So back to the me showinq my social worker my scars.Well now I showed my scars to my caseworker and he’s basically tellinq me that If I’m not qoinq to the hospital that I should qo to depression meetinq’s/qroups If there Is any.Do any of yall attend qroups for depresion?I really wanna qo so I can qo back to school and learn Instead of start smokinq In the morninq.Next week I’m qoinq to see my theropist to see any other alternatives.So to my oriqinal question does anyone qo any depression qroups???

I’m so alone, I really want to go back to old habits. i don’t really know why?

All i know is that my razorblade would look so good in my wrist right now, i’ve been quite depressed lately? i don’t know why…. i thought things were getting better. maybe they are but i just can’t see it…i really need help. But if you ask me that i would probably deny it, i have such a big thing about germs at themoment, my brother is ill so im terrified to be around him….

I Can’t Cope With This Anymore….:/

<3.

I remember the cold knife under my throat. I remember the masked man on top of me, thrusting, panting and his red eyes, forcing me to look at him all the time. I remember the hysterical laughter after it happened, when I went to see my friends. This date no one knows about it except of the shrink. I am now a twisted 25 year old woman/girl.. still fighting the demons and oh so willing to give up.

It all happned 3 days prior to my 18th birthday. Somewhere not far from home, where the water is always cool during summer and shady places. Somewhere I […]

I just feel so alone now. No one listens to me and they just dismiss my problems. I’ve never felt this hurt before, i’m actually feeling physical pain now. I hate myself and the way i look and everything about me. I wish that i could just help everyone out and just dissappear. i cry every day now and it’s just steadily getting worse. I cryed today at school, i just broke down and couldn’t stop. I try to hold everything inside and the more i hold in the worse i feel. I can’t take this anymore. I feel like everything is closing in on […]

I’m not going to kill myself, but everyday I wake up and hope today will be the day I finally get to die.

What am I afraid of?

I guess the feeling that I am completely alone and that there was nobody to help me. In that moment, I felt all the other times in my life when I had been left alone and in pain. It felt like a knife was jabbing into an open wound on my chest. I could barely breathe, My sadness was so deep that it blinded me to any other realities. My biggest fear has surfaced. I believed that I would be stuck forever in the empty, painful feeling of my loneliness.

I am feeling so depressed that it seems the only way to relieve the depression will be to commit suicide.  I don’t want to die but there is nothing I find joy in despite having so many things to be happy about.  My body constantly heats up and I get cold sweats. I cannot take it anymore.

I’m sorry for those who left replies on my Wonderland post. I had accidentally deleted it. Thank you those who did, and those who took the time to read it, thank you to you too. Its the next day but I’m scared to leave my room, for fear he’ll be out there to yell my ear off and make me feel less again… I know he loves me because he still lets me stay at the house and drive my mom’s old car… but.. Sometimes, it just seems like all he does is shout at me for everything… he’s coping, and I can’t do anything […]

its been over a week since i burned myself…its the first time since i started. im so happy but i have nobody to tell without them judging me…so i thought id let you guys know:)

“Enough is enough i can’t go on……”

I’m nearly fort-two, and suddenly i realized that if i was to die right now nobody would know. I have always felt this loneliness inside me since being a young child but until now i have never understood what lonely really was.

I’m going to end my life. I have tried several times before but failed in my attempts. I think if i try one more time i would get it right. I’ve searched the net every day looking for different ways to end it all, now i know i’ve been doing it all wrong. That’s why i keep failing.

I […]