I’d rather be raped again, than to be associated with this ungrateful world, at least while I’m being raped, I know that someone actually wanted ‘me’…
I don’t think I can go on anymore I’m tired of losing people around me. People think I’m crazy “WHAT’S WRONG WITH ME?”. Please some one help me
Today was a great day, celebrated my nephew’s birthday with family and friends. Now I’m home alone and all I can think about is how much I hate being alive. I am drinking knowing that it only makes things worse…but I can’t help it. It gives me the sense that my thoughts are just caused by the alcohol…that it’s not me…but I know the truth. I’m alone…there’s a loaded gun in my drawer. I think about how easy it is to just…
I love my family, I know they love me…I have everything I could ever want, but I don’t…can’t appreciate it all. I just […]
I am new to this. I don’t want to talk to my friends or family because they will worry I might do something stupid. And I will be honest, the thought has crossed my mind. But the real issues are how I continually get into a situation where I care SO MUCH about someone and they end up using me for my generosity and my kindness. Omg I could write a freaking book! I am just so tired of being the nice guy when all everyone else sees you as a welcome mat. Oh hi, you’re convenient, I’ll be nice til I wear you down […]
i love you so much, but where are you? Hurry up and meet me you fuck. Hurry up and save me cant you see life is slipping? And time is ticking? Let’s not waste a moment. I don’t known your there. So prove me wrong. Come out of hiding and love your little punk Rick princess your little junkie masterpiece. Because I kinda need you now. Everyone else keeps telling me I’m worthless, or I’m a ***** or a ****. Tell me I’m pretty and be my valentine. That’d be nice of you. I mean I’m pretty enough. I want you to tell me I’m […]
It’s weird how thing have gotten better, but it’s also weird how I now notice people. It feels like everyone is now down at the level I was but I really think that I just didn’t notice people back then because I was too focused at myself.
Sometimes it seems to me my blood gushes
like a fountain, in rhythmic sobs,
I hear it flowing with long murmurs,
but I grope in vain to find the wound.
All across the city, as in a field of honour,
it spills out, transforming paving stones to islands,
quenching Every creature’s thirst and painting all nature red.
Often I have asked strong wine to numb for a day the terror consuming me: […]
All of those ominous thoughts again; all over again. I won’t even try to verify if this is a relapse. I’ll know when I know.
I lost my dear sweet son this morning. His body gave out on him sometime during the night. He was depressed, but lately seemed to be doing a bit better. He’d laugh, send me a silly text. Just little things…little things that mean even more to me on this awful day than they did just yesterday. We won’t know for a while what caused his death, but I wanted to express to all out on this website the pain that my baby’s dealth has caused so many. He was only 23, and such a bright, funny guy. He had a heart of gold; which was probably one thing that made life harder […]
I’m a FUCKING psychopath and I know it! I’m the sickest person you’re ever going to meet. I can’t remember the last time I felt the SLIGHTEST BIT of empathy. You don’t believe me? I don’t need you to. I’m a sick ***** who gets enjoyment out of other peoples pain. And my own pain as well. I’m a sadist who enjoys looking up serial killers and their ‘modus operandi’, the more horrible, the better. I manipulate people for my own enjoyment, still not convinced? I watched a real video of a real suicide (that was back when I wanted to kill myself, it was […]
way i want to end my life i have lived all my life with learning and
spelling disability all have for the rast of my life been suffering
from depression im on a diabily pencehn all its had for be to do
things like making my meals keeping my self clean any many more things
been like this all my life and i am so tired of going on like this so
my only way out of it is to end my life I have been wanting to end my
life for over 10 years and fell its time to and it all all be […]
“Destroy your primitivity, and you will most probably get along well in the world, maybe achieve great success — but Eternity will reject you.
Follow up your primitivity, and you will be shipwrecked in temporality, but accepted by Eternity.”
Ah, it’s not going better.. 7 days. 7 days without my best-friend and lover… 7 days..
I’m just 7 days without him and i can’t imagine more 80 years like that… Why we couldn’t just be happy?
You guys are speaking here about wish to die and so on, but i am sorry… i am hurted as hell and when i type here i feel like i talked with someone…
Now, when i don’t feel any anger, black minds and so on – all i do is remembering our perfect moments..
And it’s not good, because im going back to suffer again. But the good thing i’m not blaming […]
I have spent the last two weeks in bed. I have no desire to get out of it. I feel like i am dead but still alive. I am worthless and dont deserve anything. I was the last born in a family of five. My parents had me late in life. My brother who was twelve when i was born was murdered. My brother had a friend that was dealing drugs and setting fires. He was going to testify against is fromer friend. His family had my brother killed. He was struck a car late one night and died of massive head and chest. It […]
I am 11 years old and i know i am going to die, you can try to talk me out of it, hell if you make me find a reason to live then i won’t jump of the 17 floor roof terrace. You know what, i’m scared, terribly terribly scared. Do you know why, because after death there is nothing, nothing at all! Just a bleak empty nothingness, I hope there is something after death. I wish with all my heart that there is something after death, but sadly there is nothing. This is me, signing off, maybe someone will read this and care, hell, i […]
I tried to invest my 401k myself (some say gambled) and lost allot and now I cannot retire. I lost my job and my wife diagnosed with cancer could not get healthcare except Cobra which ends soon. I did get a job recently and my wife should get healthcare if all goes well. My son has two DUI”s with drugs will go to jail at a young age. I am having terrible depression anxiety coping over the 401k money loss as I could end up penniless if the new job does not go well whereas I could have retired today or just had […]
some times I think I’m crazy. My mental status has been smashed into a million pieces. Some times I wonder if it’s normal for ur family to mentally abuses u. Some times I even think I deserve it or that it is ok for my moms husband to sexually abuse me. I’m afraid of the dark, I jump and shake when they are near, waiting to be scolded and told how worthless I am and how fat I am. How much I eat or don’t eat. when to sleep and how long. when I forget to do the dishes I’m told On how retarded I […]
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Hello Everyone, My name is Joe. I’m 15 turning 16 this year, I’v already made up my mind so please just listen to what I have to say. tomorrow (sunday) I’m going to jump off the roof of a 8 storie building. I’v had enough and I’m tired, very tired. I just wanted to say that I hope it all works out for the best for each and every one of you. I dont want to sound like a hypocrite but whatever problems you are facing at this moment will end, maybey not some time this week but you have to tough it out. I […]
