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Another shitty story.

by RamzanKadyrov
written by RamzanKadyrov

Figured I’d vent on a perfectly nice Saturday afternoon since it’s not like I’m gonna be doing anything else for the rest of the weekend. To start off, I don’t have any tragic or sad past. I’ve never had a near death (or near life, for that matter) experience, never been molested by a strange uncle in a Garfield mask, never had some heartbreaking-ly awful romantic incident. Just a boring white male who’s lived a trite and meaningless life.

I wouldn’t say I’m depressed in a traditional sense, I don’t spend hours in bed trying to get up or experience general lethargy, but I sincerely want […]

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Ive had enough

by The Mad Hatter
written by The Mad Hatter

Nothing works. medication after medication each one with worse side effects, more medication to deal with those side effects, I’m getting more and more sick and the doctors do fuck all. I’m so pissed off with everything I can’t even put it into words. I’ve got worse and worse, I’m less independent and worse off than I was at 16. Ten years of shite. I stopped taking all meds last night, I give up, I won’t do this anymore. I want to feel alive one last time before I end it all. But before I go, there will be retribution. Those who wronged me are […]

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why are YOU still alive?

by 45caliberdeath
written by 45caliberdeath

Still have hope for a better life?

Don’t want to cause pain to loved ones?

Don’t really want to be dead yet and just exploring the possibility of one’s “exit options”?

Use the thought of suicide just to self-sooth the pain?

Ambivalent about dying?

Lack of courage to commit suicide?

Procrastination on suicide?

Afraid of failing your attempt and ending up in a worse state?

Fear of death/hell/afterlife/God’s judgement?

Or something else?

 

I’m only here because I’m afraid of failing and ending up in a worse state… There are things far worse than death.  For instance, my current life.  But it would be much, much worse if I end up with brain injury and in […]

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I’m sick of this empty life

by Jumper97
written by Jumper97

I’m sick of being alive and today, I tried to intoxicate myself with water. Fuck, I thought today was my final day. I drank 2 gallons of water in less than an hour, although, I puked once. I felt this strong headache, started feeling dizzy and I had trouble breathing and I laid down on my bed for a bit and passed out. I woke up with pure disappointment on my face, I woke up to find my heart still beating. I don’t have many options for suicide, just this and falling off the Golden Gate , but I hesitate on the bridge. I just […]

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my suicide attempt

by death bunny
written by death bunny

Less than a year ago I decided to end my life the other day. I haven’t had a plan and haven’t thought about it much, or at least, seriously. But that day I woke up and felt ready. Finally.

I was supposed to go to my psychologist that day, but I was so frustrated to the fact that nothing changes. I’m still depressed. How exactly is it gonna help me talk about it?

I was on the bus on my way to the clinic and planned my little escape. I always carry with me enough pills to overdose. I call it ‘my suicide kit’. You know, for […]

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Feed Me Space Ghost

by Bisban
written by Bisban

 

‘tamaka’

where’s a mod at
I failed since day zero
the zero, the zero-child
I smile, I am not alive
chained to the earth
from the sky, fell celestial
flower, vanquish already yours
in this age, I am no longer
such irony, hoping for a phoenix for the elite
I need to get a wagon but I need someone by the fire
and our glocks by a wire, a grand a month before it explodes
I need you now; Tamaka, from East-South America
by the wire, under the stars, singing in golden sands
now for ever before, derailed to the never land
in hope to persist till the end […]

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Little pill

by ida
written by ida

i don’t know what to do anymore, i really don’t wanna die, but i want the pain to go away. i just don’t know how to do it without commiting suicide. please someone, help me i really need help. but i don’t get any. people around me always just run away from me. i don’t know what i have ever done to them.

i normaly cut everyday but i’m trying to stop, bc i almost died once of it. i didnt meant to do that, but i was so angry at myself that i did it to deep. i really don’t wanna put myself in that […]

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How do you see it?

by tpc
written by tpc

Depression to me is like a little demon/devil that lives inside of you. I watched this video of this guy on youtube who basically said how he viewed depression. He said…
“Humans possess this instinct of survival, humans want to survive, that’s why they eat and they work, all to keep them alive. When you have depression, that instinct vanishes, it isn’t there anymore. You want to die. You don’t see the reason of why you are here or why god put you here. You become confused and eventually kill yourself”
I can’t remember if he said that last part, that might just be my […]

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Pain freak

by ogbri
written by ogbri

So I am not currently trying to kill myself, well as of now that is not the plan. I’ve been starving myself for about a week and a half so that I can feel how bad it hurts, if things work out perfectly I’ll be near death and in excruciating pain before I eat anything. Things are actually going good , I was 105lbs when I started and today I am at 97lbs when I stand I get dizzy and my stomach is constantly growling but I actually have completely lost my appetite the smell of food makes me nauseas and I’m so fatigued that […]

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Born to suffer but I’m alive to die

by Day
written by Day

I’ve gotten all business attended and done I’ve got everything in order now I just have to do it finally I’ll be free from my abuse  all my pain I don’t belong in this world was there any doubt I would die early not in my mind I knew at a youngest age that it would end with a bullet through the mouth and soon it will be done

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Too sad to live, to scared to die

by themoodymuse
written by themoodymuse

It’s a double-edged sword and I’m balanced on its tip. I don’t want to be alive anymore, but I’m afraid to attempt suicide because I fear what would happen if I failed. So I hate myself anyway, and the fact that I am afraid to just end my life makes me hate myself even more because it shows me that I’m a coward.

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Alpha White Order

by Bisban
written by Bisban

 

– in beautiful sutra –

 

I am the dying flower
My binary, a baby-child that became
Your cosmic, Gaia sings to me as a ghost
In the melody; I wish I was alive, it says

But I know, such fate does not exist in my path
I am for eternal, I have fallen and failed
I am a ghost, I no longer exist as you do
An echo of an abyss, my forsaken shell

In nature, take me to my burial
Through spike-chains of heaven and hell
My thrust is of another space, too ethereal
To the death, golden sands, let me burn as the sun

Maximized Iron-Age course in my […]

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Trouble Surviving

by EvilKitten
written by EvilKitten

I’m having a really rough time staying alive right now. Every moment is filled with anxiety and a wish for death.

I’m trying to hold out until my brother is out of jail at the end of the month. But this is getting more difficult by the day.

 

Does anyone have any tips on how to hang on for just a while longer?

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my agenda

by 14days2live
written by 14days2live

If I went back a year in time i would have certainly made many more drastic decisions that would have prevented me from getting to this point in life, and yet here I am. I have everything to live for, except for the will or enthusiasm. one year ago today i fell into a fugue state that has kept me from feeling anything. I am operating only on my left brain. The analytical side. The smart side. The correct side. And I am finally i am considering its intentions. I am considering that in one year if i am still alive i will only wish […]

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Failed at Death

by EvilKitten
written by EvilKitten

Last week I slit my wrists, all the way up my arms, multiple times. Anywhere I saw a vein, I sliced hard and fast. Amazingly it didn’t hurt. Earlier that day I went to the store and bought a brand new kitchen knife, for exactly this purpose.

I’m still alive. I cut myself so badly that I turned my bathtub full of water dark red. I saw the blood spurting out of my veins. I wished for death. Irritatingly, my veins stopped bleeding after only a short time. So I found veins on my legs and ankles to slice up. I’m fair skinned, so finding them […]

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my birth day is today

by suicidal girl
written by suicidal girl

today is my birthday i’m 19 years old ; i don’t have friends just on fb

i’m always thinking of killing my self , i tried a lot i hung my self , i cut my arm there was lot of blood in my clouthes ,my face was coverd by tears i was waiting the moment to die but i didn’t 🙁 i still alive

this is so bad

i wanna die i hate my self ,,,, i’m not sleeping , i don’t eat any thing and i don’t talk a lot ,,,,

i’m upset because i feel weak i can’t even kill my self :'(

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