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can’t seem to do anything right

by blindaudio 4/23/2014

written by blindaudio

Yep, subject says it all.
I can’tseem to do anything right. From making friends, to caring about my family, yep, I fail.

I got in a fight with my younger brother, and well, I’m not too violent, but I hit the punk. If I can hit a sibling of mine, how will I treat my future wife or kids? I’d rather not think about that. When I make friends, they always seemed to be troubled, and in the end, bring me down. I feel so awfull, because I can’t even save them. If it is not possible for me to save anyone in life, why […]

4/23/2014 1 comment

Unwanted memories

by tacomonkey287 4/23/2014

written by tacomonkey287

Do you ever wake up feeling like today is going to be another bad day? Thinking that nothing will change, that it will just be this daily routine of negative thoughts and feelings in Your head? Well maybe you do, maybe you don’t. But me…well this is only just the frosting to the cake.

all My life I’ve felt like i don’t belong anywhere i go. Whether it is family, school friends, outside of school friends, sporting teams, swimming squad, whatever. Ive always felt this sense of isolation and separation from the others. At first, when I was 5, it didn’t matter to me, I just […]

4/23/2014 3 comments

by Kallian 4/22/2014

written by Kallian

it wouldn’t surprise me if we all had some sort of implants in our head, or trackers or something…it seems like I’m always being watched.

I bet there’s someone whose job it is to monitor me, and they’re reading this. Hello friendly monitor, how’s it going?

4/22/2014 5 comments

I can’t be this anymore.

by Azu 4/22/2014

written by Azu

I’ve always been the caring person who was always there for others.
Yet that has been haunting me.
Somehow because of that people end on blaming me.
I’ve been used by people for just anything whenever they were done with my help they ditched me until they needed me again.
Can someone help me changing that?

4/22/2014 5 comments

Mess

by Hala212 4/22/2014

written by Hala212

Why do i always make such a mess of everything, best friend yeah she hates my guts right now because of something small i did, , my bf has made me feel im unworthy of love and my parents constantly express their disappointment in me. Everything i try to do i mess up or screws up for me, why should i even bother.

4/22/2014 4 comments

Red lines

by The_red_fairytale 4/22/2014

written by The_red_fairytale

Little girls, little boys, crying in the corner why can’t you see?
the words written on your skin.
These the words that make you bleed.
they make it so no one wins or succeeds.
All alone in the world, that’s how you see.
that’s how it might be.

So sacred, you want to be left alone.
but it’s so addicting, the things we can create.
The words written, the words hidden.
under jeans and sweaters too big.
this is the life we live.

The cuts, the red lines so addicting
the days so stressful, and cruel
Parents screams, telling you what’s wrong with you.
our only escape, […]

4/22/2014 0 comment

Thoughts

by themusical 4/22/2014

written by themusical

I should be careful and not come here too often…

I’ve been quite depressed, lacking hope and feeling generally worthless yadda yadda, uninspired to do anything but wallow in self pity.

Being so full of hate that I even learned how to tie a noose.

That made me feel better.

Because although we can all theoretically end it all when we want, it is often quite difficult. Not everyone has handy drugs in the closet. Some will just have to do it the tried and true old school way.

So it’s not always comforting enough to think: well hold on one more day because you can always end it, because […]

4/22/2014 2 comments

Well, this world ends with a fucking bang, baby.

by Stain 4/21/2014

written by Stain

The famous poem goes

This is the way the world ends
This is the way the world ends
This is the way the world ends
Not with a bang but a whimper.

But I can’t say I agree. I refuse to “whimper” out. Never have and never will. I haven’t always won my battles (Christ knows I haven’t), I haven’t always fought bravely against my enemies. But I’ve NEVER rolled over and taken it.

And Life is my greatest enemy. I will not roll over and take it, like so many […]

4/21/2014 1 comment

can’t get over it

by badeyes 4/20/2014

written by badeyes

All my dad says is to get over it. I can’t. I’m not like him, but it doesn’t matter. Nothing I say matters. I will always be a fucked up piece of shit somebody scraped off of their shoe. I want to die so badly, but I’m not strong enough to do it. I don’t know what to do.

4/20/2014 1 comment

Typical.

by VacatedHappiness 4/19/2014

written by VacatedHappiness

I know I said I’d leave this site. I know I said I’d attempt and end it all. It doesn’t matter now, half-hearted attempts won’t get me anywhere. I guess I’ll just have to wait until I finally go insane for me to be able to end my pathetic life. Life certainly doesn’t improve at adulthood, turning 18 just makes shit more complicated, for anyone wanting to tell me that I should wait and stay alive. Typically, it seems 90% of the people I remember seeing here have gone for good and I’m just left here. That’s always how it goes, no matter […]

4/19/2014 2 comments

I tried, but

by MoiBelle 4/19/2014

written by MoiBelle

Every time I set out to write, a book comes spilling out. I’ve deleted four fucking entries. The problems are too vast. I need to talk to someone who cares about me, someone I can be honest with, but there is no one. There is only my sister, and she has mental problems of her own and gets frustrated with other problems easily and then won’t talk to me for a long time in order to recover. I am so alone. My best friend abandoned me and I have no future. I’m 31 and my “boyfriend” treats me like crap. We both live with his […]

4/19/2014 10 comments

Why help others when they ingor you?

by bren788 4/18/2014

written by bren788

I’ve had enough with my life now, with the past three years being hellish for me as I have experienced bullying for no reason other then being me, lost many of my friends because I stood up for myself when no one else would and lost my best friends due to love. Having a stutter doesn’t make life easy but instead singles you out as a target for bullies and being shy and not telling anyone of the bullying it ends up going unnoticed but in feb 2013 one person was being ageessive towards me while playing football as he kept punching me in the […]

4/18/2014 3 comments

When I’m gone

by TheImmortalYoshi 4/18/2014

written by TheImmortalYoshi

When I’m gone from Pitch Perfect“When I’m gone, when I’m gone. Your gonna miss me when I’m gone”
Or at least I hope you will. I hope that once I’m gone you see the good thing we shared.
I thought you would be the one who actually cared
But I guess not

There is a feeling in my chest of emptiness
Did you cause it? No..no you did not.
It is all my fault..Everything is my fault
I am always to blame..I am sorry

I am sorry I cry, I’m sorry I cut
I’m sorry I even lie..yet I have to
I have to hide how […]

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4/18/2014 5 comments

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Tired

by Sammie Motionless 4/17/2014

written by Sammie Motionless

im tired of trying to please everyone but myself. im tired of pleasing my parents(grandparents). tired of trying to please my so called friends. tired of trying on everything. im just tired of getting up to go to the same shit everyday. getting yelled at cause im failing my classes well for your fucking information im taking pre ap which is better then regular classes and its changed since your fucking time. getting picked on made fun of being a expierment for my friends just so they can have fun cause i wont stand up for myself well guess what keep doing it but when […]

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4/17/2014 0 comment

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3 years later

by Marissa Kresge 4/17/2014

written by Marissa Kresge

It’s been 3 years since i last made a post on here about my depression. Let’s just say I’m the happiest I’ve really ever been. I coped with my depression by exercising and being healthy, doing so I lost 20 pounds in the process which I am happy about. When year 10 of school started I decided I would try something risky and I did. I tried out for the foreign exchange program to go overseas. With the risky decision I succeeded and am now going to Germany in July. And this is all because I found a way to cope with my depression and […]

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4/17/2014 2 comments

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ToRtUrE

by ty16 4/17/2014

written by ty16

Sometimes i go through my day wishing i hadnt woken that morning. Life is a constant struggle and always seems to find a new way to throw another unfortunate event at my face. Ive been through hell and back to the point where i dont feel physical pain. Its like tyson could beat my face in and i wouldnt shed a tear. Its not until you criticize me with your words that i break like a twig. The amount of physical torture ive endured because you are so careless about others emotions. It seems u take advantage of every possible chance you get put me […]

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4/17/2014 2 comments

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Trust

by Day 4/16/2014

written by Day

I trust a girl with my heart and it’s broken as if nothing, I showed her my true colors and she turned them black and white once again what have I done to deserve this? Guess it’s what I get…I never was meant to live truly, there’s always something dragging me down and she has to make it worse all I want is to be worth something but I’m easily replaced, I can’t do this anymore I always plaster a fake smile hoping people will leave me alone, but she always has to come to me about mistakes I made, she said she can’t say […]

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4/16/2014 2 comments

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Billy Talent – Nothing To Lose

by Kelly_Kaulitz 4/16/2014

written by Kelly_Kaulitz

Need more friends with wings.
All the angels I know
put concrete in my veins.

I’d always walk home alone.
So I became lifeless
just like my telephone.

There’s nothing to lose.
When no one knows your name.
There’s nothing to gain.
But the days don’t seem to change.

ever played truth or dare
I’d have to check my mirror
To see if I’m still here
My parents had no clue
That I ate all my lunches
Alone in the bathroom

There’s nothing to lose
When no one knows your name
There’s nothing to gain
But the days don’t seem to change
There’s nothing to lose
My notebook will […]

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4/16/2014 5 comments

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It hurts..

by marmarthejet 4/15/2014

written by marmarthejet

Hi. Â This is probably going to be weird. I’m actually in 6th grade right now and I found this website. It matches me. Because this is the only website that I could write my thoughts about.

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It’s 3:07 am and I can’t sleep. I just can’t. I’m so tired and I want to rest. So I have a friend that always judge everything. I mean sometimes I ask myself why am I friends with this person? I mean she punched me on my stomach which really hurts for me because she doesn’t know anything about me except for the things […]

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4/15/2014 3 comments

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Any advice or support is welcomed

by wolvesntn 4/14/2014

written by wolvesntn

I am in a pretty rough spot here. I’m only 16, but every aspect of my life I’m starting to hate. My family doesn’t hate me but it is apparent my parents don’t have a great opinion of me as I complain a lot. It’s understandable, they have problems too but I don’t know who to turn to. My mom has diabetes and I take care of her most of the time during the day. She lets her sugar level go very low and becomes incoherent sometimes. But she isn’t grateful for it and I pretty much hate her, for many more reasons than one. […]

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4/14/2014 3 comments

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