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by munckin 3/4/2015

written by munckin

It has been 11 months since I got cheated on the day before my birthday. I made a date with the weekend of the 4th of april; I just need to book the hotel.. so far all my plans were about being silent, calm, alone so that my body would be discovered only by the amount of concern people have for me.

Now, I plan to jump down from the highest hotel this city has to offer me with enough pills to make sure that I will be K.O. during the free fall…

The reason? Partly the fact that this girl cheated on me over and over […]

3/4/2015 17 comments

i did it guys

by anthropophobia 2/24/2015

written by anthropophobia

might not wake up

reallly drunk

i can’t do this again

so i am sorry to everyone.

seriously i love all of you,

honestly, i really love you all. you know who you are.

2/24/2015 3 comments

let me go

by disposablegrl 2/16/2015

written by disposablegrl

7 years ago, prior to my last attempt, I, along with 9 others bared witness to an angel ascend- my angel to be precise had been battling Aids for 15 years, and although in constant pain and discomfort he took me under his wing and like a mama bird- he nurtured me, showed me the care my own mother never could.

His poor, old, tired body could take no more and so we all gathered around him at a time he chose and bid him goodbye- he had such a high tolenrance from the hundreds of medications that had kept him alive that now they hindered […]

2/16/2015 3 comments

just a girl

by disposablegrl 2/16/2015

written by disposablegrl

i am just a girl

I have no super powers

My veins filled with blood

But as I lay here

Breathing, in tears

By the agony I feel

I become aware

My heart ripped out

Stomped on, destroyed

Did not alter the life

Continuing on in my soul

I am just a girl

Without a heart, no joy

No possible future

Nowhere left to go

I have no super powers

But here I am

Against allodds

I still stand

I am just a girl

Without any hope

Void of will

I AM NO SUPER HERO!

So please tell me why

Against all the odds

why do I stand here still?

2/16/2015 0 comment

It is sickening

by quaero 2/12/2015

written by quaero

I have interview tomorrow. and it is making me sick. why can’t they just select me on my merit? i performed better than many in written exam. but no, interview is a must. afterall they need to judge my personality. I just can’t endure an unworthy, stupid person judging me. if he were some sort of a philosopher, i would be more than happy to answer his questions. but this tom, dick and harry asking me to introduce myself, tell him my strengths and weaknesses! to please him, impress him?!! who he thinks he is!! and there will be not 1 but 5 of them, including one female. […]

2/12/2015 10 comments

i just found this site while surfing ways to kill myself…

by raj143 2/11/2015

written by raj143

i just found this site while surfing ways to kill myself… i am so fed up with my life so i am quiting it by killing myself my GF thinks that i dont have faith on her and i am bad guy and my thinking also cheap… i never use any bad things to her, always loyal to her, give my all time to her but after listening these words from her my heart is full broken and wanna end myself so that one day she realise how much i love her.. thanks everyone for supporting me..and sorry for those who loved me …GOODBYE

2/11/2015 2 comments

tired

by silvermoon 2/4/2015

written by silvermoon

tired of my pain

tired of this place

tired of clenching my teeth at night, tired of his voice, tired of the cold hard floor and the lousy couch bed, tired of being a woman beaten to a pulp turning her strength against herself, tired of rosaries and patriarchal religions, tired of men who dont care, tired of the demons, tired. tired of them having kind parents. tired of the thoughts. tired of the anxieties so deep they prevent you from doing anything at all, tired of being afraid, tired of this draining, loud, triggering, horrific life i lead, tired. tired of pretending, tired of the four […]

2/4/2015 6 comments

Depressed

by goingnumb 2/1/2015

written by goingnumb

I’m depressed and it’s been awhile since its been like this. I gave up cutting 3 weeks ago I just want to do it I need it I really do need it. I keep having dreams of me commiting suicide so the thoughts of that has come back. It’s not that I feel like I have to kill myself not the feeling I used to but the possibility that its the only way to stop this cycle of depression anxiety depression then okay for a while the again and again. I have some one and a moderately good future to look forward too. I just […]

2/1/2015 4 comments

i can’t go on

by cloudydays 1/21/2015

written by cloudydays

I cut class for the first time today. I can’t take it anymore I can’t go on living like this college jut started and the only thing I’ve done this two days is cry. I’ve always been scared of cutting class because I don’t want to be a burden on my parents which I already am but I’m so depressed and suicidal that Im staring not to scare if I fail college. What’s gonna happen? I want to die anyway. Some days I feel OK like this pass days but now that I have to go out and be out all day and deal with […]

1/21/2015 1 comment

Is suicide part of natural selection?

by Anunnaki 1/7/2015

written by Anunnaki

I know it’s not entirely natural but is suicide somewhere near natural selection? It’s all about weeding out the weak and those that either have no more use to the environment or aren’t able to survive anyway. Not all people committing suicide fit this category but I do.

I thought about this today – when I get the courage to end myself, I’ll take my genes with me right? So no chance to reproduce (not that I ever would have the chance up any way) but in a way that’s just evolution doing its work. My weak and pathetic physical genes will be lost, my […]

1/7/2015 5 comments

I am tired

by Pretend Girl 12/31/2014

written by Pretend Girl

I am so very tired of living. It scares me how much I am. I am sitting at my computer, not looking at anything because I just don’t care. I am alone. I am lost and no one even knows.

12/31/2014 4 comments

im sorry

by tryingbutdying 12/30/2014

written by tryingbutdying

I truly am.

I’m sorry for being concerned.

I’m sorry for caring too much.

I’m sorry for being so attached to you.

I’m sorry for putting your happiness before my own.

I’m sorry.

12/30/2014 0 comment

The Stigma of Mental Illness

by QuixoticNomad 12/28/2014

written by QuixoticNomad

I feel that I have to hide a side of myself, that I have to pretend to be a person that I am not because it seems that society views people that suffer from a mental illness as being social outcasts, people that are dangerous or viewed as being weak.

It takes so much effort and energy just to exist. But, it seems that most people don’t see that effort as being enough. They don’t see that I’m giving 100% of myself to just be alive; they don’t see the daily struggle. To be a “normal” person I have to give so much more than 100%. It is entirely […]

12/28/2014 1 comment

Life is empty & meaningless, without any/no purpose, Life is boring, empty! There is no meaning of life! fuck life, fuck reality !

by niki 12/28/2014

written by niki

Life is empty & meaningless, without any/no purpose, Life is boring, empty! There is no meaning of life! fuck life, fuck reality !

The more I grow up & learn after all these 32 years of my life, sadly, the more I feel hopeless especially for humanity / our humans species!
MAJORITY of people / humans beings / humanity are so damn shallow, superficial, vain, ignorant, stupid, fake, dirty, liars, etc etc.
I used to have so much HOPE for humanity , but now the hope is dwindling until it’s almost none !!
MOST people are sadly only concerned with vain, shallow, mundane “daily-life” & little […]

12/28/2014 19 comments

Back.

by TheOneNoOneSees 12/26/2014

written by TheOneNoOneSees

Well….here i am again staring at this page not really knowing what to do anymore. I chickened out on telling my parents about my depression and the cutting has become more and more, when I first started it took me a few minutes before i could actually gain the “courage” to cut but now its become really easy an effortless for me. I know that I really need help because its come to the point that I’ve actually convinced myself that being bulimic is okay, not that any of my other friends have told me otherwise, all I ever get from them now if I […]

12/26/2014 2 comments

Alone

by QuixoticNomad 12/26/2014

written by QuixoticNomad

I feel so absolutely alone even though I’m surrounded by very dear friends. I can’t talk to them about the things that bother me because then they’ll see who I really am; a weirdo, a creep, a monster. I’m all alone and my story of loss and heart break doesn’t matter.

I wish I had died when I attempted suicide twice within two days a few years ago. It seems that my life will only be comprised of me pretending to be happy when on the inside I’m suffering egregiously.

I wish there was something I could do to take away the pain, but there is nothing. Therapy […]

12/26/2014 2 comments

HOHOHO

by tc13 12/25/2014

written by tc13

dear sp, MERRY WHATEVERYOUCELEBRATE to you. may this day provide the magic and peace that we deserve. how grateful i am to all of you for the help you provided. even the angry, in-your-face ones. sorry for laughing but that was ME not too long ago. i plan to stay with sp, however things turn out for me. you have become a really close friend, and i look forward to the time i spend here. truly an interesting cast of characters from around the world. i, too am alone on this day of celebration. and perfectly content with that. pull up an extra chair. i […]

12/25/2014 5 comments

update

by tc13 12/21/2014

written by tc13

hey folks, wow, what a crazy, emotional day.sun has gone down,the ex has left, and the anxiety has eased somewhat. we were able to get the big stuff out, and now can cocentrate on the little stuff. the important stuff is safe. how sweet the quiet. how sad the heart.it was good. my son and his girlfriend came and helped. the ex did not bother to tell me that they were coming. totally lost it when i saw him. he was great and really enjoyed having them here. embarrased of course.no self confidence or esteem. basically feeling pretty low. but also relieved. some of the […]

12/21/2014 11 comments

My best christmas present is my Death

by alone 12/20/2014

written by alone

i am 22 year old boy, i just screw all thing. i screw my graduation and now i am not able to get any job. my gf is a DBA and she is forcing me all time that she do not want to live with me if i have no job in future. i am depress , i love her but she don’t because i don’t have money and job. i think i have no right to make GF. i am very innocent i just hurt when she look other guy with awesome car and she respect those guy and disrespect me because of money. […]

12/20/2014 7 comments

useless and foolish

by Harrison 12/18/2014

written by Harrison

tthats just how i’m feeling today. my only friend i texted on monday and he said he was busy andd he would text me, but i havent heard from him. my dad thinks i am an idiot and can never take any opinion of mine seriously. the person i replaced wh3n i got my job is coming back and i am told i will stay but we are slow and i feel like an extra just doing nothing, plus it is a girl and she is really annoying and she argues with the boss all the time, and i just dont want to be there, […]

12/18/2014 3 comments

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