me curious .. has any of you ever tried this ?
(I’m not depressed atm, it would be pointless to try it now)
another SP member posted this video a while ago and judging from the comments on youtube, there’s a lot of positive feedback
I started texting a guy yesterday, and well its been great. Hes made me so happy and feel so loved, I didnt even notice the little bits of depression through out the day as much as I usually do.. Hes just amazing (:
Even if it dosent work out to be something more..atleast I know ive made a great friend
I am 15 years old & i have always been known as the happy friend (in my group of 14 friends.)
This past year everything has stopped being good. Life has been pretty shit since, and the worst happened back in september… my mum and dad split up. Dads foond someone new and my mum is attempting to move on after the worse depression i have ever seen her in:/
Its hard for me because i was ‘daddies little girl’. But he has a new family now and i see him once or twice a week if im lucky… i hate not seeing him everyday.
Also to make things better, […]
I Feel Lost, Confussed, BreathLess, & Its It’s Getting Harder To Right Down How I Feel Because I Can Never Find The Exact Words To Explain Any Of My Feelings, I Have Such A Great Life And A Loving Family But Yet This Feeling Always Seems To Creep Up On Me,..Honesly I Dont Know Where Or How Ima Go On With This…..
I hope everyone who sees this reads it, I am no one special, I’m an 18 year old girl with so much baggage. When I was 15 I met this guy & at first I didn’t let him in didn’t trust him or love him, but at some point my guards came down & I let him in, September 27, 2009 was our day and it all ended after a year & a half. Imagine me vulnerable & alone. In love with someone who promised me the world. Said he fucking loved me forever and ever and always and eternity. Then one day he didn’t […]
honestly, i feel so worthless- like no one even cares. i have people that say they care, but do they sincerely mean it? no. i know it’s a huge lie. if i no longer decided to live, i bet no one would care. no one would cry. why? because i’m worthless and ugly. don’t call me beautiful, because that’s something i’ll never be & i’ve lived with that fact. i feel like such a waste of space…why do i even eat? drink? sleep? i don’t deserve to do any of those….
I’m 18, and some days I do not know why I am alive. I have considered death when I’ve been at my weakest. I’ve wanted to go to the beach drunk & walk out into the water as far as I could go and just let go of everything. Let the waves take me away. I’ve wanted to overdose on my Zoloft. And when I really can’t handle anything I take a lighter to my left arm and burn myself. my arm is scarred up now. I HAD a boyfriend from April to this Sunday. We’ve been on and off for the last three months. […]
The “mean girls” (such a cliche, I know) were spreading rumors about me today..all just because they don’t like me. The sad part is, I used to consider them some of my best friends. They told EVERYONE I suck dick. People kept asking if I did all day. It was horrible. People called me a whore & a slut in the hallyways. They said things like “Classy, not trashy..right Shannon?” I’ve never done anything to them. I hate them. I hate them all. People like them are the reason I drink & smoke & cut myself! They might as well just tell me to kill […]
HAPPY FATHERS DAY.
Happy Fathers Day everyone! Well, today’s the day. The first Fathers Day without my dad. It’s kinda sad .. I’ve been trying not to think about it, because it’ll just hurt more. I still never found out how he died, I think someone’s hiding something from me. I don’t think autopsy’s take that long, does anyone agree? He’s been gone for about 8 months. Time flies! He was a drug addict. Always has been. He’s always gotten away with everything, & I believe in Karma honestly! Right around the time he died, he was trying to do the right thing. […]
I Hate Being Around People. All I Ever Whant To Do Is Be By Myself Because It Seems Easyer That Wayy,I Have THE BIGGEST Insecurity Issue. I Cant Sleep At Night And when I Do I Feel Like I Didnt Even Sleep,I Am So Confused. I Always Feel Sad, I Get Irritated Really Really Quick Sometimes With Out Reason,I Feel Extremly Fat, I Dont Understand Myself,I Get No Point To Anything, And I Dont Know How To Find Myself Because I Dont Even Kno Who I am..
I Cut For The First Time, All My Life I Had Promissed My Self I Wasnt Going To Go Down That Path But Unfortunately I Failed MySelf, It Felt Like An Escape, Like Something I Can Run To When i Cant Take Things Anymore,To Me Thats The Only Thing That Listen To Me When I Need SomeOne.15 Years Ive Been Fighting My “Depression” And Tonight It WON
Many People See ThemSelves In The future, But I Dont, Honestly I have No Idea What im Doing Here In The first Place I Feel Like I’m An Outcast, I Look Around Me And EveryBodys Happy,Everybody Feels Like They Wake Up Each Morning For A Reason,Not Me Of Course. I Dont get Why I Am Here, And Each & Every Day That Goes By I Wonder Who I Am? And It Seems Like Every Second That Passes By I Lose Myself A Little More. I Feel Like Shitt All The Time And All I Can Do Is Feel It….
Ladies & Gentlemen, You are about to witness
what it is like to be an eagle that jumps into the
sky and plays king.
This eagle sees it all. and he knows there is
no such thing as evil. it is pure love affair.
At the end of the game, there are going to be
strange results.
That is when i will disappear, and let you all
sort it out yourselves.
* burrrp *
remember i said that.
To Get Started, please listen to this song by
Britney Spears.
Your comments must be written in mysterious ways.
we are not looking for literal terminologies.
use songs, use music, use metaphors as you […]
i was a very happy guy i used to live ma life without any depression though i was not having any girl friend nor i do have now bt then to i was satisfied with ma life i also completed my MBA this year i am quite a good looking guy & was expecting a good looking & sexy girlfriend in future but besides that i was having a little gap in my front teeth so i decided to remove those gap by doing composite bonding but that fucking female dentist did not tell me its disadvantages of composites nor she even told me that […]
Here goes another post.
I’m Amber. I’m fourteen years old. I just finished my freshman year. I visit this website often & I take into consideration everything everyone posts on here. I feel like shit all of the time. I have severe depression & I sometimes don’t know how to control my emotions. I like to post on here to let all of my feelings out. I have been suicidal quite a few times. It’s probably the worst feeling in the world to sit there & cry & have nobody understand how hurt you are. I’ve been hurt ALOT. I always thought God […]
am I supposed to keep going:
– when it feels like my drive to desire is broken (desire being the root of action) ?
– when my ego’s been getting weaker for the past 5+ years ?
– when my mind cannot generate meaningful goals etc like it used to ?
I wanted to become a psychologist when I started going to college (sept. 06) .. it was my only and meaningful goal, my door into the future
I got to experience mental abuse & other bad things in an environment I started to hate .. unfortunately, I had no other realistic option than […]
I am not the only one. There are others, multiple hordes, some of whom are people I know, people I even see regularly. Though I am slowly emerging into admitting my illness, they must do so too. Until this happens we are all alone here and we are dead.
There are no similes and there are no metaphors; everything can only be explained and delineated in exact terms. There are continual pressures applied from other people, wherever I turn. I try to escape, yet someone inevitably & invariably lurks around the next mental vista. There is truly nowhere to go when the thoughts inside your head […]
~The Raven~
Dedictated To Storm
(Espen Andersen – Strid)
RIP
The Angelic Process – Million Year Summer
There is a Raven caged within my breast,
But what his name, there is no breast shall know
Save mine, nor what it is that drives him so,
upward & downward, in relentless quest —
That silent rage, baffled but unsuppressed, […]
I had stopped cutting & was actually doing much better with my..ex-boyfriend. Until he broke my heart:/ 6 months & 23 days of my life..gone. He’s gotten so bad..he got kicked out of school for drugs & he’s ruining everything for himself. I don’t think he knows how to stop..and it scares me. I have no concerns about myself at the moment. I love him even though he pretty much hates me:/ I want what’s best for him.. any ideas on how to get through to him?:/
The start of my first “rant”,
Hm I’m not to good at typing things up about my problems but I’m even worse at trying to talk about them, so here this goes!
First off I just wanted to say please do not judge me or think of me as a horrible person for these disgusting facts I will probably type out,
Appreciated.
Well, for most of my life it’s been pretty hard on my family (mum & dad) especially after my sister was born it just got harder, it’s seemed like they have always struggled with money really bad.
My dad used to work away up […]