She’s an Angel.
But she is not random.
No…
She’s the Queen.
Queen of the Broken Wings.
Dreaming of the sky.
A place she cannot reach.
As so she Believes.
Because little does she know…
Her story is Inevitable.
She will fly.
But for that to happen…
She must Grow.
Grow to Love Herself.
Because for Broken Wings to heal…
The Heart must heal First.
“SUICIDAL PEOPLE ARE JUST ANGELS WANTING TO GO HOME”
Can you relate to this?
Are you one of God’s Angels, that has done good all your life
and now you are done and just want to go home.
Life on earth is not our real home. It’s just a temporary place we get sent to
for whatever meaningless & pointless reason.
Our home is in spirit. With God if you believe that, or just in the universal energy that we originated from.
Whatever your belief is about where we come from,
Do you have this strong pull and desire to go back there?
I’m not talking about being suicidal in a way to escape […]
I will miss being held by those who love me.
I will miss watching cow parsley swaying in the breeze.
I will miss songs that remind me of those who left me.
I will miss the smell of warm rain, small rabbits, dandelions and daisies.
I will miss helping those who need me.
I will rest in peace, knowing I brought more joy than pain to the world.
Although I regret the harsh words I sometimes spoke, especially to those who hurt me.
I hope my death does not take long, I don’t want to suffer or have people watch me suffer.
I wanted death a couple of months ago. Then I found a […]
I have been cutting for about three months now. I cut my wrists, legs and stomach. I have been very good at hiding them, at least I thinks so, but now I have a problem. I’m sick therefore not going to school and left alone at home for the day. My mom’s friend is a doctor and my mom asked her to come over and check upon me, find out why I’m sick and how to recover. I’m so scared that the doctor is going to make me undress, because I’ve been to doctors loads of times before I started self harming and many times […]
Taken his souls into the night upon a hill lays a tree a young man hangs from dangling the angel of death has had his first kill freeing the young man from his hellish world now to do as he pleases free from the ones who say they don’t need him now free from a world of hurt free to heal the angel of death smiles taking his soul the angel of death has once again had his first kill where upon a hill lays a tree the young man hangs and bleeds wrists slit this is it finally free to escape misery and now […]
You know that girl with the beautiful face,
Cute little body, not a hair out of place?
She’s always the first one to tell you a joke,
Share her advice, or give your ego a stroke.
Her smile can brighten anyone’s day.
She seems so perfect in every way.
Don’t forget she’s so smart and so strong.
You’d never know that you were so wrong.
You don’t notice the scars on her wrists
Or the pain that’s hiding behind hazel eyes.
Makeup covers the brushes from his fists,
While the truth is covered up with her lies.
She really believes that she deserves this.
After all, it’s been like this her whole life.
As a little girl she survived
Strange […]
Dear precious Angel, I love you more than anything! You were never bad I promise, but mommy has to leave this place. I can not be her anymore, but will wait at heavens gates for you. I will not go in till I find you there. I am sorry I know your sad. I just can’t stay in far too sad. My heart is heavy and my eyes always cry. I’m sorry I couldn’t do better. You will have daddy and grandma and grandpa your imma and Randy paw too. But mommy isn’t able to stay , but in heaven is where I’ll wait for […]
Everyday that I am alive, is just another day that i want to die. I see people living life and taking happiness for granted.
This is not the life i wanted to live, I wanted to be happy. I sound like i am a 12 year old girl with one problem, but in reality i am 16 yrs old and i have more than one problem. It feels like i have a million problems , no one is here to help I get taken for granted , one day when i am gone they are gonna mourn and grieve and lie about the things they […]
John Denver – Singing Skies and Dancing Waters –
I sang this song at the memorials of two friends who died due to drug addiction…..Jeff was the one I thought could beat the addiction, but heroin was stronger than our relationship – me, the one who has never done an illegal drug – he died alone, in a NYC hotel room, which is why the song Angel is also significant for me .
As you can tell, I relate things through song very strongly.
Anyway – here’s Johnny:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yBhvQRUb6Ps
I often wish that a sick bastard who likes to murder people would choose me as their victim. Not only would my husband then be able to collect on the life insurance money, and be able to mourn my death without thoughts of what-if, but he would be the only person who has ever known how my dark thoughts spiral. I am sick of being a burden to him– he is too good to be tied to someone so depressive and anxious. I wasn’t like this when we were married. Well, I was, but I never let the thoughts out, and I felt I could […]
To whomever will listen,
2 years ago my mom passed away of an accidental overdose ever since then my life has been awful. Before my mom passed away it was crap, but it got worse. She past away when  i was in 7th grade it seems like yesterday. In 9th grade during a school break i was alone watching my neighbors house for her since she trusts me and she was away for the week. During the time she was gone my friend offered to get me fucked up i turned her down because i wasn’t ready to fuck up, but just a day later everything […]
my stupidness has prevented me from connecting to an angel. i had so many opportunities to ask her out, but my substace abuse destroyed my personality. i cant talk like i used too. she doesnt like me anymore. very seldom do women come into my life. i cried for three months everyday. and now she avoids me. i cant kill myself, but i dont want to be a fucking zombie. brain cells do not regenerate, but feelings do.
  
i don’t believe in the cult but i like there suicide method and like them i hope god picks me up when i die on the back of an angel im turning 21 next year i know that i can buy vodka but what about the phenobarbital does anyone know how to get barbiturate phenobarbital or does anyone now how to make barbital was marketed as vernol
I’ve told you her story now I’ll tell you mine. I’m Angel and I’m 13, I’ve gone through so much though so don’t judge me on my age. I’ve been raped and beaten, I’ve been hated on and abused, both physically and mental, I’m suicidal and IÂ cut. I’ve gone through so much and I don’t understand why I’m here anymore. Why do I have to live on this earth full of haters? Anyway, when I was 10 I was put up for adoption and I was taken in by a family in Louisiana. They were okay, for the first week. They had 5 other kids […]
My great grandma died 2 years ago and i think its hitting me the most right now more than it did when she actually died i hate to say it but tbh i really didnt care when she died and now i look back and remember the good and bad days we had together i kno my mum really misses her we talk about her alot i write her email adress every day it always sends back and says it was an error so i dont really kno if its a waist of time or if she is an angel and gets to read it […]
I like to hold my neice
I like to kiss her as much as i can ^_^
I like to hold her hand
only she recieves this great amount of love from me!
why is she different?
Why can I love her so much!?
She LOVES me!
Love is all I need!
I love this baby so much!
the best 4 year old ever!
She is my world!
she is my everything!
I cant imaging a world without her!
she keeps me alive!
WHat about her, is making this all possible~?
MY neice!
she gets excited when I come home!
The first person she wants to see is ME!
She likes to ONLY sleep in MY room!
what has caused such a STRONG BOND!?
Im […]
The doctors speak a language all their own
Full of words and chemicals unknown
To vacant minds with drugged behinds
So they can fix their wretched soul
It will fix you they say
As though you were broken in some way and your mind could be replaced
With one more common place and less problematic
To them it’s just another day
In the asylum in which they stay
Day after day they prey upon the psyche of lost children and desperate parents.
Their duties to help the needy
To be carried out hastily
By giving them lobotomies
Through a poison masked as a remedy.
I was there, a zombie amongst the horde
The ER having me deferred
To a ward full […]
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Goodbye.
I’m sorry if my absence hurts anyone, but my pain was too severe. I hated myself, and everything I did. I looked at myself and saw a fat, ugly, dirty piece of shit who fucked everything up. I just saw no more purpose in my life, and I stopped seeing a future for myself, and other people stopped having faith in me. Everyone I knew truely did not like me. I was depressed, not stupid. I could tell that people didn’t like me, and I don’t blame them, I didn’t like myself either. They said I was a *****, say I was stupid, say I was pathetic.. It’s all true. Everyone always belittled […]
I used to be a very happy person. In fact, I was that loud and annoying kid who was always laughing and didn’t care what others thought. I do well in school; I dont really try very hard and I get all A’s. I have friends; they all think I’m the happiest guy alive. At school, I still act happy even now; I don’t want them to know. I have a girlfriend; a beautiful, sexy, funny, silly girlfriend, and I loved and still love her very very much. But on October 1st, 2011, she sent nudies to one of her guy friends. When I found […]
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