It happened after my 7th attempt, I was desperate and intrigued to Attempt again. My parents suggested we head to the mall, on my way to the car I found something that got me excited. There was a big Anti-freeze container sitting outside In our neighbors doorsteps. Now Ive been researching my crap for 3 years so I knew damn well how dangerous that thing is. The next day after that I told my parents I’m taking walk outside, little did you know I went to grab that antifreeze and dashed as fast I could without getting seen by anyone. I went behind the church […]
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After a couple of suïcide attemps, i’m looking for the ultimate plan.
I almost died a year ago, but they found me. So now I wanna do it the good way.
The strongest thing i’m thinking about is drinking the antifreeze.
I’m not sure about what will happen, but about what i’m reading on the internet, death is one of the consequences.
I’m in hospital now, but the day i leave here (probably the end of September) i’m going to die.
Please help me to find the perfect way, because this life isn’t made for me.
(Sorry if my English is not that good, it’s not my […]
I’m saving myself the time of writing my entire story. It’s a long one. The change in my life the loss only just happening 1 year ago this month. I’ve posted my story here once before, it was about half way through. While things have continually gotten much worse since I haven’t been this concerned with how things are going to play out. I’m at the end of having any real choice on how I leave. I’m about ready to just drink as much antifreeze as possible. I’m scared honestly to live and scared to feel any more pain. The antifreeze while painful I wouldn’t […]
The other day, I think this woman I used to know blocked me from calling her (not sure) and all I tried to do was get ahold of her, but she didn’t answer the phone or return the few messages that I left.
It all started when I told ehr I thought she’d be cute wearing diapers similar to Pampers (please don’t judge me) and it’s only gone down hill since. She got mad t me and accused me of making her look bad, and even beinga sexual deviant. I wihs I could set things right with her, but it may be too late for that.
At […]
For 3 years now I have really liked this guy. (gonna call him Bob) I got his number at a party and started texting him. We wrote notes to eachother, went to movies, and the last few months he would come over so we could hang out. He considers us to be best friends, and tells me how crazy he is over this girl he works with. I want him to be happy, even if that means im not in the picture. But listening to him talk about other girls kills me and im too scared to tell him… Â I broke up with my first […]
I have known for a long time that my death would be at my own hands. This has never been a passing whim. I can’t remember the last time I didn’t want to die. I suppose that makes me a coward because I can’t face life. My fear of suicide is only that I will be unsucessful. I am house bound and have very little access to means to end my life and no one will see it my way and help me. My biggest regret is that I had children. I should have been more carefull with birth control because no child deserves a […]
I was cleaning out mygarage today and I found my gneuss, I found my bottles of vodka, older antifreeze that is possible to digest, and I can still smell exhaust in there… I parked my gmc van in the garage closed the door of course and fired it up… This was the windiest night I could ever remember… I was drunk of course, and I fired up an extendo blunt of kush (2 blunts put together)… This van had a blown manifold intake gasket, so it had alot of thick white exhaust… I started to get lightheaded, and felt a CRAZY headache coming on, I […]
I have been looking at methods, and keep coming back to antifreeze. I have studied and read facts from doctors and lots of other places. Seems the best option for me, since it is hard to diagnose at first and can be seen as an accident or something. If you aren’t given treatment for a certain amount of time, then anything after that point is useless to stop it. Anyone have any views on this? Some say you can’t die from drinking it, but all indications point to the fact that if you drink it and wait a period of […]