Excuse the paragraphs if its too long I am terribly sorry. I just need to get this out before it eats me alive. I dont know how people would feel about me afterwards but whatever happens will happen.
Hello. Im 16 years old and I started hurting myself when I was 13.
I had friends as a kid. My family was okay and everything seemed well. Though in the 5th grade thats when I really started to think about things about people. Thats when I started to see people as liars and fakes. Everyone was a liar and I couldnt trust anyone.
When I entered […]
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Anxiety
Since I can never manage to kill myself during a manic episode I figured setting a date would make things much easier.
Still didnt really decide between hanging or jumping in front of the train yet. I am forever in doubt about everything.
It didnt really make things easier though.
Since I woke up this morning I felt weird. I felt this feeling of determination and at the same time doubt.
My mood has jumped from wanting-to-slice-my-own-throat-bad to happy. It seemed to happen more often than usual. I was pretty set on hanging. Then somewhere during the day my anxiety kicked in and I felt too low to go […]
Zoloft a drug prescribed in so many western societies to deal with a range of health issues particularly depression and anxiety. Zoloft for me is not what I expected. I thought I’d feel happier, I do in a way but I don’t feel any less sad or miserable. I know I should kill myself but I can’t Zoloft has taken that from me. So now I’m stuck in a mood where nothing truly matters, I should give up. So tired…..
I haven’t grown weary of life yet, I’m just deeply frustrated. There have been thoughts of death lingering in my mind. They’re not constant, but they’re frequent enough to be distressing. I’m too scared to take the so-called coward’s way out. The act of dying frightens me too deeply to try suicide. I’ve been slogging through the days, somehow keeping my academics mostly intact, but I don’t know how long I can keep going, as I find myself procrastinating a lot. I’m not a strong person, and although I’m not quite convinced I should die, I don’t know how long I’ll be able to keep […]
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okay so prozac really isnt doing anything for my severe debilitating anxiety, what else can i try,i need  it asap, icant live in this automatic every day feer an stress its exhausting
I need alcohol now my parents locked it up cause of me. Little do they know it keeps me sane they don’t understand my anxiety
I have to go back to work today after two weeks off’ and I’m so terrified to go. Everybody is going to look at me with those questioning eyes, smile their fake smiles, talk their small talk, ask how I’m feeling…
What do you say to them?
Thanks for asking!
“I’ve been off for two weeks because I can’t handle life. And when I get to this point I like to hurt myself, so I needed this time to recuperate from the demon emotions that overtake who I may or may not be, oh and I binged this weekend like a fat kid in a candy store only […]
It’s hailing.
My parents left, they took my little brother again.
Last night I relapsed and my left thigh looks like plaid.
I’m scared.
I can’t not talk to anyone. But, no one really knows me here…
two weeks ago, 10/04.. My dad and I got in a fight about me getting glasses…
He got mad because I should have gotten them when everybody else in the family did. When I pointed out the fact that he bragged about his 20/20 vision for years, and yet he JUST got glasses in June. He hit me.. twice. When I tried to runaway he chased me then shoved me…. I filed a DCFS […]
Why should you feel bad about your weight? I really have anxiety over my body and I really want to do the same procedure as last year, just stop eating and exercising. Why should people around you comment and judge you because out of your weight. Just because you look a little different, so people will often bully and push you down mentally sometimes physically. I have tried, or rather trying to lose weight but it does not help. Today’s young people they only see chicks with slender bodies and large breasts, they never see the inside of a person … I feel crappy about […]
Note: If I seem like I’m holding back it’s because I’m a little paranoid because my mom found the notes I hid on my laptop 2 days ago
One year to 11 months ago I started feeling empty inside  it was kind out of nowhere, when I started school (i had just started high school) I was in a performing arts program and took dance during the weeks and after a while into the school year( not so far in late September) I decided to quit and drop everything because it was getting overwhelming and I was losing interest in it even though I enjoyed these things […]
Im out of my meds, and havent taken them for a couple of days, and im freaking the hell out. I need my fucking zolft . I feel like im trying to swollow a fucking knife right now, I want to cry , can you belive that? Im a guy im not supposed to cry, im supposed to just lock that shit away but with out drugs im fucked. I feel like ripping of my face or throwing everything on the floor and re-organize for hours(last time I arranged the house for 2 fucking days) Fuck OCD and Fuck depression and Fuck anxiety. I am […]
It’s a weird feeling. The first few days just felt hectic. Bit sick, but nothing too bad. Woozy more than anything. It seems to have stopped now though.
The side effects seem minimal so far. I can’t stop yawning. For hours after i take it, i yawn constantly. And feel a bit high, like my stomach is floating and i’m kind of doing a space walk. Been zoning in and out alot, not thinking about anything in particular but just staring into space. Other than that and mild sickness, things seem good on that front.
The biggest change is my mood. I seem incapable of negative thought. […]
Hey, you.
I want to let you know that you’re not alone, and what you’re feeling now is something each and every single one of us can relate to. We’ve all felt at one point or the another, that what we’re going through is something that we can’t come out of, or too painful to see through. Though, even if you don’t believe in yourself, I believe in you.
I can’t and wont promise you that everything will be better, but I can promise you that can make it through tomorrow. You’re reading this now, aren’t you? You made it through today, and I promise that tomorrow will […]
Why is it, that life is so worthless even when everything is going right, i`ll tell you why:
I want some love ( not getting any)
I want an F***** break ( i`m frustrated with life)
I want to think clearly ( too much pain)
I need to stop whining ( f*** how?)
I want to stop excessive worrying ( 24/7 nuff said)
I want to be strong and have no anxiety ( Exercise doesn`t work)
I can`t afford therapy ( too much debt and my insurance company doesn`t cover a shrink)
pistol in one arm………………………………BANG
signal lost………………………..
I am a 40 year old married father of 2 piece of shit. I have been trying to kill myself since the age of 8 and never finished the job because I am afraid. I am diagnosed w/ bi-polar disorder/PTSD/ADHD. I am unemployed and draining the life out of my family. I have no purpose on this earth, no talent and no drive. I am on 6 medications and my wife has been stealing my anti-anxiety, ADHD and sleeping meds. When I confront her she just denies everything and says I’m crazy. I may be emotionally disabled, but I am not retarded, so […]
Stay awake you’ll be supprised.
At the beauty of the butterflies
They fly so high oh they have soared,
they know the pain you’ve endured,
they will never leave your plight,
scarlet wings look so bright,
leave back the nights of flooded tears,
and wake up without that frown.
The moonlight shines away your fears,
as the butterflies wipe away your tears,
so tonight when you start to cry,
remember the cutters lullaby:
hushabye baby you won’t be dead,
you have a pulse though your pillow is red.
your family hates you though your friends wont let you bleed,
just throw away that knife,
that’s all you need to do.
rockabye baby broken and scared,
 you know life won’t always be this hard,
time […]
I’ve been going through the motions for a few years, now. Living on autopilot, mostly. I occasionally do something nice for myself; traveling to China and Europe and getting a new car and cool new toys. Sometimes that makes me forget. Sometimes it makes me question my decision. It always fades, though, and the reality always returns to embrace me and remind me why. I always smile and accept, too; death is a light at the end of my tunnel. I look forward to it, but it is something I cannot allow myself to have just yet; I am still needed. There is someone very […]
Hey there. Was going to use a fake name but it’s too much effort so you can just call me Kurea. She’s a character from a japanese anime i like.
I found this site on google. I can’t even remember what i was searching for. “What’s the point in living” or something similar i suppose. But i found it and it intrigued me. Not alot interests me these days, maybe it’s the idea other people feel the same as i do. I wouldn’t wish it on anyone though, not even my worst enemy.
I guess we’re all depressed here. Well so am i. It’ll be 6 years […]
It’s been quite a long time since I’ve been on here,
Life still continues to pass me by. I met a girl who I have been involved with for around 9 months now.
I have learnt a lot about her.. Heck I even love her. I didn’t think I would meet anyone again at least not after the relationship I was in prior..
She’s changed from the girl I originally met back in December. She isn’t the girl I fell in love with..
She dismisses my feelings like they are just disposable. She’s sent my heart into a deep abyss, of darkness, anger and hate.
I have so much uncertainty […]