I thought I had brought a blade with me on my trip out of town, but I can’t find it where I thought I put it. I really, really have the urge to self-harm right now, but that blade is my only inconspicuous method…or at least it was supposed to be. In a house with other occupants, I can’t utilize any of my other methods without attracting attention. You might be thinking that it’s better that I don’t self-harm, and I recognize what a bad habit it is…but it helps stop suicidal ideation. It helps me feel a bit better when I’m at my lowest […]
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Finally decided to take action and source ******** only to find a whole group of us in search of the same thing and wanting to move on from this life. As I read I think, “you’ve got heaps to live for” so what if you have a colostomy bag, so what if you just broke up with your significant other. You’ll get through this. But I need the ******** a lot more than you..
Why should someone stay alive ? No one feels your pain , your sorrow . No one really knows everything you’ve been through . I was rapped , then hurt by the love of my life . He cheated on our anniversary . How could I believe he would change when he asked me to take him back ? I was hurt , sad , depressed . I was going through a transition in my life . Before he cheated I had ran away from home . I walked from my house all the way to my grandmothers house . My mom didnt love me […]
TL;DR
I did something stupid today
How is it, that we just can’t help doing things, we know, we will regret after, be it little or big things.
Even things from the past, that we should learn from, we always manage to do again, despite knowing we will end up regretting it badly.
Not a big thing, not like other mistakes that have been made, but still.
I went to the store today, don’t know why, didn’t really need it, knew it would be a problem, still did it.
First 50 yards wasn’t bad, then as I got near, and the people started to appear, I could […]
New to the site even though I’ve read plenty of articles on here. Jus looking for the “painless” way out. Up for any feedback. I know a little but about the helium/******** bag methods. Don’t know if there’s anything else out there though
I went shopping today & caught myself going through the winter clothing sale racks, thinking to buy for next winter. Whats the point? The universe has only 4 months left to brighten up my life before I’m done.
It is amazing how many times I could have stolen from shops. You see, I have to use a walking stick if I’m going anywhere. And I always wear a small backpack. Whenever you exit a store, the person at the front is supposed to stop you to check your bag if its larger than say a small clutch-purse. Not one og the stores I went in & […]
I’ve chosen October 12, 2014.
One hundred and nineteen days, or: a little under four months to live, reconcile myself with the prospect of oblivion, attempt to say goodbyes. I won’t pretend that I’m not afraid of what comes (or, rather, what doesn’t come) after this world, but my desire to die is far stronger than my fear of the unknown.
I’ve even found a peaceful, painless way. There’s no gory aftermath to contend with. I would like to minimize, as realistically as possible, the casualties of an acquaintance’s suicide.
I don’t know about the afterlife, differential calculus, or interstellar space, but I know that this much is true: Some people were […]
I have had suicidal ideation since I was 9 or 10. I believe it is largely due to being raised by two people who pretty much daily let me know that I was unwanted and a tremendous burden. I hesitate to suck on a helium tank because I’m told that it would irreparably harm my 13 year-old daughter. I am 50 years old and cannot grasp that I matter that much, never having meant anything to my parents except to be their emotional punching bag. Sometimes my empathy is crippling, but on this point I just don’t get it.
This post is mainly for anyone who needs a read or something to carry on….
I’ve been battling with killing myself everyday for over 2 years. What’s worse is that the reason I feel this way is because of the shit from other people – some people are just nasty and hateful, I’ve been dealing with privacy invasion – I’ve had a lot stolen from me intellectually as well as emotionally – maybe that sounds dumb, but it’s true…. I ended up in the hospital once because I wanted to kill myself…. this isn’t a pitty post it’s to let anyone who reads it know they […]
I’m going to eat 11 nurofen all i have :(.then I will hopefully fall in unconsues .before that I will that my eipen .this messes up the heart and makes blood vessals smaller .with the nurofen whitch says not to take if u have heart problems.i migth as well take some strong alcohol with that .finally when asleep I will hold a bag over my head with my thumb so when I fall asleep so choke to death . So who thinks this will work.i need to be certin cause my mom will notice the stuff gone. if anyone could give me any advice or […]
I’m a twenty two year old girl, no I am not a lesbian, nor am I bi-sexual. I am however trapped in the closet. My plastic bag over the head method failed me for the last time. I couldn’t control my body from ripping out of the handcuffs and ripping the bag off of my face. Sheer willpower wasn’t cutting it.
So, I’m trapped in the closet. Its a tiny closet that I’ve locked myself inside and am hoping to pass away in. If I’m lucky I won’t be awakened to my sad life in the morning. If I’m lucky this small, tight limited oxygenated […]
OK. So after 20 odd years of becoming progressively more miserable & incapable of participating in everyday life suicide attempts are bcoming more common. A year or so back I filled a mug with a cocktail of every drug in my cupboard, including many of the different anti-depressants I’ve tried over the years & took the lot. I slept an entire day & awoke incapable of moving without collapsing in spasms. Spent the next 12 hours in hospital being constantly prodded & kept awake. Told I’d taken enough pills to kill most people & was lucky. Seems this method isn’t gonna work. A short time later tried a […]
Hey guys. well, where to start. I’ve always had suicidal thoughts. when I was 17 my first serious girlfriend left me for her ex. I went through a long stage of depression. for at least 6 months. I wrote a long suicide note to my family one night when I was certain I was going to kill myself. I was in bed, left the note laying on the floor. I had a plastic bag put it over my head waited a couple of minutes…I could slowly feel myself drifting away. but as I was about to fall into the ‘no going back zone’ I had second thoughts […]
If i have plastic bag over my nose and mouth and a scarf tied over that… how long will it take me to die?
I was 3 months clean from cutting, until today.it’s the worst I’ve done too. I’m ashamed I gave in I thought I was better. I haven’t had my suicide thoughts in awhile except today I found myself looking for the bag of pills I hid in my room. I have no friends to talk to, I haven’t got a text in months. And talking to my parents just stresses them out and they just make me go to the hospital. I don’t know what to do I need a friend, I need support. Anyone? Please.
I have spent a long time reading through this site. But never posted.
For the last 3 years now is struggled with depression, caused by job stress, relationship etc. Over the last two month I hit a patch where my job and my boss brought me right down. I’d entertained the idea of suicide, but could never go any further than that because of my partner, whom I love very much.
So for two months I’ve fought back, getting back to a healthy state, then on saturday night, after a good day in the sun, drinking and enjoying my time with my partner and friends, I go […]
Who honestly gets into a fight over a bag of fucking chips? Me and my family do. I have been living back with my family because I have a medical condition and can no longer work. No work equals no money to pay for my old apartment. After finally earning some money for myself from working the odd nights at my friends hall, all I wanted to do was enjoy a bag of chips that i finally bought with my own money. I bought other foods for everyone else and all I wanted was to have this to myself. Stupid isn’t it?
I go to grab […]
So, I just cannot carry on a minute longer, and yet I’m forced to. I have an incurable disease and am so incredibly depressed with all this suffering. Having failed to jump off a high bridge, drown myself, suffocate with a bag and an overdose and bag, I am now going for the Helium bag method. I really need this to work. I’ve bought the cylinder, made the exit bag and now I just need the hose and the regulator. I’ve been trying to get a response from Exit but my emails and phone messages have gone unanswered. Has anyone […]
I’m 21, (ya I know I’m young) .. My whole life has been nothing but suffering. I’ve been bullied since I could remember. I’ve had my ups and down’s but have been depressed for many years. It’s at its worst right now. I don’t have a licence, I don’t have a job, I don’t have highschool, I will never see college. I don’t even know what I want to do for my future. I don’t even see me having a future. My boyfriend left me because he “doesn’t love me” anymore. He can’t understand what I’m going through. We still talk. He’s going to be dating someone […]
I suggest that you do this in the middle of the night, leaving a taped envelope on the outside door with a note inside telling the housekeeper not to enter and to call the police. Also, use the ‘alcove’ area to do it, tacking the shower curtain (or other blocking device) to hide your body with a note on the outside of it saying the same as I previously described.
We want to die, but do not want to traumatize others.
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