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Thinking about it again…

by kthxbai2u 7/30/2012

written by kthxbai2u

I seem to have screwed up by wanting time to myself….

Anyways… I feel like shits all going down hill…. I just got a bill in the mail. A quick recap, I have had a credit company call me, my brother piss me off just by waking up and watching tv (not his fault, just odd reaction), I thought I lost a friend, and then when I needed alone time and came back, looks like the friend is now ignoring me…

And now I am being told im not being ignored…

I am just too fucking confused…

I hate this, today is the shittiest.

I just want to go grow […]

7/30/2012 14 comments

im not alone

by deona82 7/17/2012

written by deona82

just found this site today after crying and wishing i had the balls enough to just slit my wrists…Â Have attempted a few times but honestly too scared to fully do it.Â Wondering if maybe I get drunk enough I could.Â I tried to OD on a bunch of pills when i was a teenager but I just ended up puking and in the hospital. I’ve been depressed and seeing a shrink since I was 8. I am just tired and dont want to do this anymore. I lost my boys about a year ago.. they are 6 and 8 and honestly I dont know […]

7/17/2012 0 comment

ï½žpatheticï½ž

by schizojinxx123 7/4/2012

written by schizojinxx123

i tried drowning myself so many times today…i have a party at huricane harbor tomorrow so i wont be on till late…ITS HOT AS BALLS IN HERE OHMYGOD. it feels like satin pissed lava on my shoulders uuuuuhg….bye, goodnight nathen <3

7/4/2012 1 comment

An intro – seems like so many days run togethor

by donotgiveashit 6/21/2012

written by donotgiveashit

This is first time I have ever posted on web about suicide, this is actually pretty cool. I will not go into all my problems, just to the point where as so many other times in my life, I question why am I living? I have lost really great jobs, decent marraige, etc. and now I feel alone. I also like many others here have seen countless therapists, doctors, been diagnosed with two different things by several doctors, bottom line – I am miserable, I hate where my life is, unfortunately I do not have the balls to commit suicide. I prayed even today several […]

6/21/2012 3 comments

Chris, the king.

by ALLbeletsHAPPY 6/14/2012

written by ALLbeletsHAPPY

Dear Chris,
Your a creepy mother fucker. I hope you fucking know I hate your guts. Just because i’m not like all other fucking girls does NOT mean i’m a lesbian. Go fuck yourself man. Grow a pair of balls and live the real fucking world. Your the waste of space, your the piece of shit. Not your amazing, funny, smart, fucking beautiful girlfriend, who could by the way do 150% better then your sorry ass. Go away.Â Im glad I stood up to you today. Im sick and tired of myself and everyone having to deal with you. You are sick in the head […]

6/14/2012 11 comments

please

by SHEbadbadbad 6/10/2012

written by SHEbadbadbad

all my life i have contemplated suicide, and imagined how much better off i’d be.. i really feel as if it cant be normal to wish you weren’t alive every single day of your life. with only a few half-ass attempts, i really need to ‘grow the balls’ now. believe me, i have tried all the outs. this earth just isn’t the place for me. it never has been.Â i am now facing serious prison time. and with a few county stays under my belt, i know that it is not the place for me. being mental and suicidal i just can’t handle it. i […]

6/10/2012 1 comment

no. im not flawless.

by ividivi 6/9/2012

written by ividivi

im just writing down my lifestory shortly and i wont go into details.

i grew up on a farm. well i lived on a farm for 14 years. my dad used to force me to watch him kill sheep’s for dinner. he wanted me to learn how to shoot them in a painless way. the first time i watched wasn’t that bad. it went quick. it died in a split second. the second time. a year or a half later my dad got drunk. really drunk and dragged me into the barn and shot a sheep and yelled that i had to learn this by now. […]

6/9/2012 0 comment

I’m fine, really…

by Fading_Out 6/7/2012

written by Fading_Out

Is what I tell my mom. ‘no, it’s okay, I’m just tired’ for my dad. ‘Could you leave, please? I’m thinking’ is snapped at my little sister. And then I’m alone.

School’s out. I’m a kid. I should be ecstatic, right? But I’m not. Lately, I’ve just been feeling so alone, so hopeless. I have small projects I’ve been working in in my spare time, but I’m starting to think ‘why bother, this is stupid’ and abandon them. Occasionally I’ll get my hopes up for something, but somehow when it comes I always seem to screw it up. Then it’s over, and I’m back in […]

6/7/2012 10 comments

Expression simplified

by APathNoOneCanFollow 5/22/2012

written by APathNoOneCanFollow

I hate myself
When I talk to her
I want to hurt myself
When I think about her I want to hurt myself
When I remember you words
I want to end my life
I want to cry
I don’t have the balls to die.
I’m stronger then I appear at my weakest
But I’m always T my weakest.

A few minutes ago for about half an you I just wanted to cut myself… I feel better after posting this. Thank you. I love you all

5/22/2012 2 comments

Cant take this anymore

by Volvimort 5/18/2012

written by Volvimort

i just cant stand this anymore. every day when i wake up 1st thing on my mind is wish i could blow my brains out. its been like this for about 4 years. future to me seems like lonely, very boring, long and mentally painful and im just 19 years old. nothing i can achieve can make me happy. i know i will live my entire life alone and in this same state of mind as im now. now i have a meeting whit a psygologyst i wish he will give me some drugs i could take whit large amount of other drugs and alcohol […]

5/18/2012 2 comments

Pissed off (crazy)

by RogueShadow1281 5/6/2012

written by RogueShadow1281

Baby sister has been crying for the past hour, every time something happens, she cries. She’s the shrieking kind of crying, makes me wanna kill that piece of shit. Too bad I have “no balls”, nor to kill myself. So i hope I’m destined to do something. I have been angry for the past 3 days, ever since my little “date” with my cousin jasmine was canceled because her mom has no money.Â

I’m incredibly angry, stepdad brings the baby into the living room so it could cry in my fucking ear as I play video games (not intentionally) and I sit here holding my emotions […]

5/6/2012 32 comments

Earth is too small

by NotReallyHereAtAll 5/6/2012

written by NotReallyHereAtAll

Not at all sure if this makes sense to anyone but me:

I feel completely trapped in this world at times, and I don’t mean that purely metaphorically.

What I mean is that I feel stifled by earth itself, and the way it’s unescapable.

I want to jump of the earth and into the universe, if that makes any sense.

Our world just feels too small and restricted.

No matter how far in the world I travel, it will never be far enough.

Because I’ll still be on earth.

I want to be in the galaxy, amongst the stars.

By that I mean literally.

I don’t mean that I want to die in order […]

5/6/2012 5 comments

A friend, A silver lining?

by APathNoOneCanFollow 5/5/2012

written by APathNoOneCanFollow

My best friend. Gone. Then my courage allows it back. We were non influenced teens. He fell in with a different Crowd and started liking different things. This wasn’t so bad but we drifted more and more over time. I got the balls to come out and say what was up. Then I’m told that his newer friend introduced him to a girl, he lost his v card, she fucked around with his head and he slipped into depression. With which his friend got him to smoke weed… Though you wouldn’t think it from the outside, knowing him for so long I wouldn’t believe these […]

5/5/2012 2 comments

values

by truthbetold 4/29/2012

written by truthbetold

greed and materialismÂ will never be constructive values:

(a) never heard of any item that can fulfill that feeling of emptiness and (b) the things you own end up owning you (fight club quote)

on the other hand, to enjoy sharing and being good-intentioned seems to mainly attract opportunists

it’s like you have to spend your whole life defining boundaries, keeping your guard up, waiting for your next desillusion

you’ll be identified as the weird, paranoid one because you refuse to give people the opportunity to take advantage of you

(…..)

I feel like I should go live in nature: no more forced interactions, no more hierarchy to submit to, no […]

4/29/2012 1 comment

If LIFE has you by the Balls ~ then you should piss in his FACE

by ctb-driver 4/4/2012

written by ctb-driver

Years of harsh action will explode into one nasty reaction. Happens all the time. Lets all go out in style, make some noise, it’s our exit party. Start a new urban legand with your departure, be creative

4/4/2012 5 comments

1985 – 2008

by emotionaljill 3/24/2012

written by emotionaljill

Ever since June 9, 2008….Â I am embarrassed to admit that it may be June 8th of that year, but that day was probably the worst day of my life.Â A lot of shit went down, that day was like a fucking movie it was so unreal.Â Some days I tell myself it never happened, as for that is the only way I can cope with it.Â This world is simply a ball of shit.Â Hypocrites living out their every day contradictions.Â Those claiming to be “real” but whose lives are built up on lie after lie, after lie, after lie….Â People claiming they love […]

3/24/2012 0 comment

Things I absolutley dislike about people/ things

by idunno 3/15/2012

written by idunno

(no particular order, i will add to it, i don’t mean to offend anyone, please don’t take it so personally)

People who make too much eye contact when your talking to them.

People who STARE…

TALL pEoPlE

i hate how im so different

PEOPLE WHO CALL YOU SHORT

I HATE HOW LIFEÂ doesn’t make a shit load of sense

POPULAR PEOPLE-kill them all… no im kidding…. ..
People who use you.

PEOPLE WHO DON”T LISTEN TO YOU, you need to scream until they answer

MORNING PEOPLE

BAD ACTORS (NICK CAGE-WTF borring

I love sleep

Dislike:waking up

DIslike:bedtime(insomnia)

i hate sleep paralysis

Â I LOVE BEING ALONE

I hate how im so meaan to myself

I hate how i think im a pathological […]

3/15/2012 3 comments

by Noodle12 2/24/2012

written by Noodle12

I’m at school with my iPad and I feel obliged to post something.

Ive sort of been depressed all week now I realize, it’s just been one of those weeks. I’m not diagnosed with being bipolar, but it bloody feels like it. I hate how I only get to spend about an hour each day with my best friend, it’s not enough. I feel lonely as fuck.

The realization has sort of come over that the school I go to really sucks balls. Every second girl is a slit. The teachers are shit with like two exceptions I’ve only been taught by once each. The people here […]

2/24/2012 1 comment

The Darkness

by mitch 2/24/2012

written by mitch

I hate feeling the way that ”we” do. I hate feeling so sad and lonely all the time. I hate having to pretend all the time, transforming myself into someone else in order to “fit in” and be liked. I just want to let it all out, let the darkness take over and let the world see how depressed and messed up i really am.

I was raped many times by my older brother when i was younger. But i was so young that i didn’t know what rape was, and so i i thought it was okay what my brother made me do and […]

2/24/2012 1 comment

I really don’t know what’s wrong with me.

by CrystalCat 1/20/2012

written by CrystalCat

I can say what’s gone wrong in my life. But feeling depressed has been normal since I was very young. I can’t really remember what started everything but I remember being bullied from age five up until I was sixteen. Sounds pretty sad, not one year of school where I wasn’t bullied and alienated. My parents when I was young, was well great. It’s just my Dad’s temper got worse when my half-sister became a druggie. Heroin, Coke, you name it, the police found it. She would steal from my parents and wouldn’t know me. Got pregnant a few times by druggies and drug dealers. […]

1/20/2012 16 comments

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