I am perfectly happy… Then my eyes open and im back here where i dont belong… Back here where i am helpless and hopeless… Its such a cruel world… No i have to go on auto-pilot… And pretend to belong.
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I don’t know how I can stay afloat in a world that is so harsh and cruel. I can’t seem to pretend, like everyone else, that it’s okay, that I’m okay. I can’t “suck it up.” If I try that, I eventually explode, which is basically what happened last night at work. I’m too weak, too sensitive. No place in the world for someone like that. Even in nursing there is so much bullshit to go around. I just don’t belong anywhere. My efforts are for nothing.
I can’t take anymore of this life. I can’t take the back and forth feeling of being happy to being depressed/suicidal. I don’t want to keep getting like I don’t belong anywhere and that I am a worthless waste of space. Please someone just kill me already because I am unable to do it myself.
…lying in my bed, thinking about life. Thinking about people i care when it suddenly hits me. I care for no one. how can that be? how come there is not one person that i can talk to, that i can love and trust? i feel alone in this world like i do not belong here. That is why i made this account on this page where there are people like me. People that understand, unlike my friends. I guess Im just hoping to meet a person that understands, a person i can talk to. A person that has the same problems. I know my […]
Everyone has exes, everyone has little pieces of their heart that belong to other people, and it just becomes a part of who you are.
If I love enough people, will there be no more pieces of my heart that can belong to others?
Is it worth to live without a heart?
I am so lonely.
Being honest with my self, I feel suicidal, I constantly have toughs about killing myself and ending this misery once and for all.But I really don’t want to die, I just want to live without the constant overwhelming feeling of not having energy, being tired all the time, not seeing a good future, feeling alone even with lots of people around me and having this thing called asperger syndrome that makes me feel horrible when I try to socialize or establish relationships. Or perhaps its true I just don´t belong here and must end all of this as quick and painless as possible.
I bottled it last time. Something stopped me. I hope I have more courage this time. The thing that stopped me last time is gone now. No more. Destroyed. Just like I destroy everything. I don’t feel now which is a blessing. I really can’t take anymore. If I’m lucky by this time tomorrow I will have found peace. I don’t belong here. I don’t belong anywhere. All I do is destroy. I’m selfish and difficult and I hurt people. I don’t mean to but my very existence, by being what I am hurts those around me. It’s better that I go. I want to […]
is it okey to feel like you dont belong to this earth?
Is it ok to not love your kids?
Is it ok to want to leave your family?
Is it ok to feel like it is your wife that is the source of the problem?
Is it ok to want to just leave and start fresh somewhere else? Is that possible?
Am i the only one that feel like this?
I can’t function in this life…I don’t belong here…too fucked up somehow…I want out, I want out…wish I could remove myself from existence and memory…I hate this feeling of bringing grief to my family and others…I don’t see myself ever overcoming whatever my malfunction is…it has been two decades now…why did I ever end up here in this life…I want out, I want out…
I am a coward. I am weak. I am a dick. I am an asshole. I am a nobody. I am a wanna be. I am a disappointment. I am hopeless. I am useless. I am alone. I am not worthy of this life. I am nothing. I am just a person who tries to do good and become better and no one even notices it. Nobody cares and nobody has cared. I don’t belong. And lastly, I am going to commit suicide soon. I know I keep saying this but each post I make signifies how close I am to commiting suicide.
I’m a weirdo
what the hell am I doing here
I don’t belong here
I really want to go back in Japan, I want to feel my mom’s love right now, I feel so alone even though they’re right here besides me, I know they care but I guess the care that I’m looking for is not here, and sometimes I feel like I don’t belong here…….
here in this house……
I feel like a stranger who went missing in some place I don’t know and stayed here because I don’t know how to go back home.
i wish someone could relate
Every day of my life I think about suicide, even just in passing. I hear people talk about it as if the know a damn thing about how it feels to prefer the inky blackness of the nothing that comes after death over life. I have one person in this world that keeps me going and some days she’s what gets me up in the morning. I can’t be certain I deserve this fate or that I don’t deserve it, but I am aware that I have no choice in the matter. I’ll explain why I’m here in the first place though, I am an […]
I thought things were getting better, but it was just my mind’s way of getting a run-up to kick me in the balls again. I want to smash the bottle in front of me and cut myself to shit, grab my huge (and evergrowing) bag of failed meds and take the lot, kick down my door, smash out the bathroom window and climb up onto the rooftop and scream and shout and cry in one final act of defiance to the world. But I wont. Ill just sit here and smoke my problems away, like I always do. That’s why I’m such a useless piece of shit, […]
I don’t feel like I’m human. I don’t subscribe to whatever it is you feel anymore. It all feels like it’s so far away from myself.
So what am I? I don’t even know. For 10 years I feel like I’ve just been imitating the personalities of other people, and that’s what I was; a shell around a void, just to try fit in, to feel like I belong.
Now all that has failed and crumbled away, just like the people. I feel only indifference or anger towards those I see or think about. Their words circle in my mind like torture constantly.
I think about what I would […]
This is my first post on this site though I have read many stories that I relate to deeply. I have had depression since pre-pubescent years and suicidal ideation since fourth grade. A feeling of worthlessness has always presided over my life; I have never been able to fit in and because of that it only reinforces the fact that I don’t belong here. After many attempts to free myself from this world, I am composing a final plan to sever the silver chorde. Before you say that I need to seek help, let me assure you that I decided to seek help for years […]
Yeah. Silly silly me. Why give away your trust so easily every single time? You trust people so easily. Is this what you want? Every single time, to be hurt by people. Is this the life you want, the life you’re willing to live. Steel your heart and conceal. You are not worth their time. Lies. Lies. Lies.
Shut up you incompetent fool. You are a worthless piece of shit. No one will give a duck about you. Stop trying to mix with humans. You do not belong here. Leave. Be like a ghost. Yeah.
Yeah. Yep. That would be the last straw. Disappear from this reality. […]
I’m like so tired of being here. I am 16 still to young to leave this house. I just don’t belong here and I am such a bother to my family. Mostly everyone and I just want to leave…. Help me. Any tips?
Hello sweet strangers, I have been suffering from severe depression and bipolar disorder. I have not been diagnosed of it but it’s very obvious to me.
I used to be engaged about 2 months ago. My life revolved around him and he was my world like any other women who is about to get married no?
I go to college and I am not the smartest nor the best student. I have no source of income really because my scholarship helps me pay for college. My parents can’t even pay to go to the doctor and I do not want to give them more burdens than they […]
Dear Mom,
I am very sorry for the hurt I am about to cause you and everyone who has loved me. You have been the best mother a daughter could ever hope for and I know I would not have lasted this long if it was not for you. You know I have been battling my depression for as long as I can remember. The medication has evidently not been working and I just want the pain to end. I don’t belong in this world and I don’t see things changing anytime soon. I just want you to know that it was never my intention to […]