I am, I am, I am……going to commit suicide.

albert camus says…(this is one of my ultimate Favorite quotes on this subject;)
killing yourself amounts to confessing. It is confessing that life is too much for you or that you do not understand it…
It is merely confessing that it ‘is not worth the trouble.’
Living, naturally, is never easy.
You continue making the gestures commanded by existence for many reasons,
the first of which is habit.
Dying voluntarily implies that you have recognized, even instinctively, the ridiculous character of that habit, the
absence of any profound reason for living, the insane character of that daily agitation and the uselessness of suffering.
Albert Camus
….not that i condone what u r considering doing in any way, shape or form, i’ve been there, sometimes at my worst, i’m there daily, so i totally empathize….just thot maybe, just maybe….it might help if u looked at it as not being so “weak willed” I think ‘ol Al makes a valid point, so i wanted to share it with u