Who?
Who am I? Who are my parents? Who will help me?
What?
What is going on? What will all this accomplish? What do I get from this all? What am I still doing here? What did I do to deserve this?
Where?
Where well I go now? Where will I matter to someone? Where will I die?
When?
When will this be over? When can I just be happy? When will you accept that I don’t belong here?
Why?
Why does this happen to me? Why can’t anyone help me? Why don’t they understand? Why can’t I be happy? Why did you leave? Why […]
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Im just so frustrated and done with everything. Its my first full semester in college. I have learned that I do not belong at this school, people have said so to my face. The only reason im with my current roommate is because she was drugged during the summer term and i helped her. She constantly brings me down saying i have no tits or my face is awful. She treats me like a 2 year old and is extremely rude. She doesn’t take what I want and need intl consideration, she only thinks about herself. I do everything I can for her to be […]
It was many and many a year ago,
In a Kingdom by the sea,
That a maiden there lived whom you may know
By the name of Annabel Lee;
And this maiden she lived with no other thought
Than to love and be loved by me.
I was a child and she was a child,
In this Kingdom by the sea,
But we loved with a love that was more than love-
I and my Annabel Lee;
With a love that the winged seraphs of Heaven,
Coveted her and me.
And this was the reason that, long ago,
In this Kingdom by the sea,
A wind blew out of a cloud, chilling
My beautiful Annabel Lee;
So that her highborn kinsmen […]
I’ve gotten all business attended and done I’ve got everything in order now I just have to do it finally I’ll be free from my abuse all my pain I don’t belong in this world was there any doubt I would die early not in my mind I knew at a youngest age that it would end with a bullet through the mouth and soon it will be done
Maybe I’m confused because I’m on this site using a phone, but in my profile it requires me to provide an email address. Is that shown publically? If so, is there a way to hide it? Don’t exactly want to belong to this type of website if it’s not anonymous, lol. Talk about crazy. (No offense to anyone that doesn’t hide it. )
so should I make a new email address for this site or is it not shown publicly?
I’ve started counceling the other week, and the second session she asked me why i cannot keep eye contact with anyone.. I didn’t explain to her why .. once somebody told me it kills them to look into my eyes because all they see is pain.. She also began to tell me i have created a well put together mask and she cannot figure it out. I don’t believe i need to go to counceling, I have nothing to talk to her about. Am i suppose to sit there and tell her how constantly i plan out my suicide, how perfectly it is put […]
Do you every feel like a baby bird?
A baby bird is helpless when it first hatches.
They do not know how to fly, and they do not know how to survive without their mothers.
There’s always that one baby bird that gets everything right.
It doesn’t plummet to its death when it tries to fly; it soars, and it is able to go on with its life independently.
And then there’s you.
You’re the one that can’t get up.
You’re the one that gets left behind when the rest of your siblings go out for something useful.
You’re the one left to freeze to death as the rest fly to hibernation.
You can’t […]
I feel like Cerberus,
The three headed guardian of the gates of Hades.
Yet, each head has a different goal.
But will all end up in the same hole.
One says hold on,
Fight the feeling.
Another says we don’t belong,
We’ve reached our ceiling.
The last one makes the most sense.
And decides not to speak in the past tense.
Each has it’s own tune,
One is that if a siren,
Attractive but deadly,
One is soft and sweet,
Like a summer time medley.
One is loud,
With no discernable cause,
All the while waiting for an applause.
But it will not come,
Because their time may be […]
I only know what day of the week it is because it says it on my iPad. I’ve sat in the same chair all day long for the last couple weeks, only moving to use the bathroom, shower, or sleep. My only forays out into the world consist of the five minutes to the corner store for smokes. No one calls. No one wonders what I’m up to. No one cares if I’m still alive. I come on SP to find people who identify with me, but in truth, I find I don’t identify. I feel like I just post random comments that no one […]
Anyone else sick of people telling them they drink too much? I mean, alcohol has been around since before written history. Do you honestly think the cavemen ever said “Ugh oog agga ooga boo boo.”? (Translation: Jack, I think you’ve had too much to drink.). I mean damn. When those motherfuckers wanted a woman they’d hit ’em over the head with a wooden club and drag them to their cave by their hair. And that shit was the norm. So what if I drink a bit too much a grab a butt that doesn’t belong to me? Motherfuckin’ human nature bitches.
Wrote this for a friend; Thought it may also belong here, for anyone in the same position as her…
written by OursIsTheFury
… And the fact that you’re still alive after 9 years of depression and 8 years of suicidal thoughts proves to me that you’re strong. Strong enough to keep going, and strong enough to kick depression’s ass.
Depression makes people wage wars against themselves between the happy and the sad, and sometimes the sad wins, but not always. Often times, people can overcome the sadness and the depression. Sometimes it’s a short war, but most of the time it’s not.
Not your’s. Your’s has lasted nearly a decade, and it may last a whole ‘nother, but in the end, I know you’ll win, and I know it’ll […]
I give up. I can’t live anymore. I am doing it within the next hour. I hope a of you find happiness in your life’s and figure out what you want to do in life and where you belong. I know where I belong and it’s dead. Stay strong everyone and goodbye. I am killing my self very soon. And I have been pushed to my breaking point
So I attempted suicide in 2001? I would have succeeded if a certain someone didn’t stick his nose where it didn’t belong. Here I am 13 years later and find myself feeling exhausted and tired again. Life truly is cruel and full of evil and corruption.
Somewhere online today I read to wait 3 days before acting on my feelings; why wait? Then I found myself here and don’t understand why I’m even typing this. All my letters are written, all important papers are out and on the kitchen table…… unless someone hands me the winning lottery ticket or changes whom I’ve become; my life will […]
Everyone sees me as the “happy person” ready to cheer anyone up, but what they dont see is what im truly feeling broken, damaged, hurt, depressed, useless etc. I dont fit like everyone else , im just like that puzzle peice that never fits in any spot because it wasnt meant to be there in the first place.
“im trying to find the world that a belong to, its just not this one..im just passing through..”
1. silly- kids used it to bunk school,gf/bf ditched, no money, not beautiful body, lost/no  job, not enough money, not enough talent,…etc.
2. realism-allowing thoughts that most people will not dare to because they are intense, conflicts with survival. Â existential nihilism, Lost passion to do something. All human thing look like a foolish.
Which category are you belong to?
So, only 2 tablets for depression and the rest for other things, but they aren’t even making a difference…the doctor says ‘no amount of dosage is going to make this go away so you need to figure out what it is that’s really bothering you’ um, I know full well what bothers me but most of the things that do are beyond my control and I cannot change them. I just don’t belong here you know?
I have online therapy because that was the quickest form of help they could give me…I have been feeling so anxious this week:( I’m not even really sure why, I […]
It seems as I get older, life just gets worse. Reality becomes more…well, real. I don’t know if I sound crazy or if anyone else out there wants/thinks the same as me but tbh I really just want to live in a beautiful fairy land where no bad happens, no lies, cheating, murders, etc.
I want to go somewhere far far away from reality and this evil world full of evil people who don’t give a damn about anything! I do not belong here, my soul has never belonged in such an evil place. I am so different to everyone I know and meet:/ I […]
does anyone constantly feel like they want to run away, although there is nowhere to run to? feel so lost, like u dont belong in this society, in the world? everyday is just a constant battle not to hop on a bus and run far away from my family. i love them but i cant stand being with them. i cant stand anyone for too long. cant hold a job, have no desires in this world. i want to run away but anywhere i go will just be the same as here. i want to die, but i dont want to kill myself. i just […]
Is death.
So why can’t I be done with it now instead of being me? Â The hollow thing I am is that of a failure. Â Loneliness has been my sole companion for as long as I can remember.
There’s no future for me, not even entering the rat race for the green god known as money because I am incapable of working, let alone having the enjoyment and success precious few people ever experience.
And I sit here alone piddling away the days because I can do nothing better.
Why was I not put down in the womb? Â Why did the car stop before it hit me?
Why can no […]
Hello.
I hate people. I feel stressed everytime someone talks to me or looks at me. I only feel comfortable if I know someone. But still, I don’t really want to be friends with them, they usually annoy me or make me bored. I probably have some kind of phobia or whatever. What I really like to do is to watch the pranks on youtube, play computer games, eat good food and workout. I’d like to live alone and drink whisky. I hate parties except if I’m drunk. I’m 16, I forgot to mention. I am only opened if I drink too much. Â Do I have […]