I give up. I can’t live anymore. I am doing it within the next hour. I hope a of you find happiness in your life’s and figure out what you want to do in life and where you belong. I know where I belong and it’s dead. Stay strong everyone and goodbye. I am killing my self very soon. And I have been pushed to my breaking point
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Just a random question: is there some place you’ve always wanted to see before you die? I dunno, the Grand Canyon or Mt. Rushmore or something? Why not get in the car and drive? You can always kill yourself after.
I have done it sorry
Well it was worth a shot. I know, it wouldn’t work for me either.
Another suggestion which I’m actually in the process of trying as we speak… What if you just knock yourself unconscious for 24-48 hrs? I know that “pushed to the breaking point feeling” and I think it’s ok to break down. A nice chemically-induced unconsciousness might reboot your system.
To late now. Already started
Still here but I have taken 12 36mg concerta and my heart is going crazy and so is my body total of 432 and what I have read you shouldn’t take over 200
And also I cut them in half so I would get everything at once
I’m sorry that you couldn’t find some sort of help or comfort from someone either here on sp or else through a counsellor/therapist, as you’re going ahead I can’t say much but just sadness and peace to you, I’ll be here for the next hour or so, do you have plans in case of it not working.
Yes I do
But I have taken 12 and have 14 more to go
My mother tried to overdose, she had cancer, she was found and taken to hospital, for her there was no pain during the overdose she can remember. I wish I had the courage to do something but I’m just a loser, and a hypocrite because I hope you keep going and survive even though I see death as a way out but I hate to think of others taking their own life.
Sorry to hear that I just can’t take anymore live anymore and I hope this just makes me pass out and gone
I’ve looked through your previous posts and for the last few weeks you seem to be on a downward trajectory, reaching the lowest point today, was there no one to help, you seem to push away a girl you cared about to reach this inevitable outcome. Was it life was just unbearable, I feel it gets to much for people to cope with.
Everything yes
Have you taken all the pills yet, it may take time, it’s time to think, sometimes life seems different when you have nothing left to lose, things so important seem less so and liitle things matter more, life sucks that’s true but I bet you’re a decent person being drowned out by it all, be prepared for any change of mind or find peace
I don’t know how many pills I have taken at this point and I don’t know how I feel
But I think 13 14 or 15 so that’s ranging from 468 mg to 540 mg
That1guy, it sounds like you’re set on the end so I won’t try to pull you back to life (even if I believed in life myself). Instead I hope you’re feeling some peace. At least relative to the last few weeks. If you do survive, I hope you bounce back from rock bottom. If you don’t survive then, well problem solved I guess. How are you feeling right now? Any peace?
I feel week, sick, like I am going to pass out, funny and not good. Like I am having trouble typing this
And took like 5 mins to write
You probably will pass out soon judging by your posts, then it’ll be the peace you want or waking up again later on, people do care about you especially now, at this time, for you to be ok or to find that peace.
Yea I know but the bad thing is I am driving
Oh boy, maybe you should pull off at some deserted street. Think of it this way, if you get into a wreck, an ambulance will be on the scene in minutes and they’ll haul you off to a hospital where things will suck. Maybe try to find a quiet spot where you can try to relax, as much as possible with your heart beating out of your chest that is.
Maybe if this is “the big one”, it would be nice to relax and think of any happy thoughts you can conjure up.
P.S. If at any time you have second thoughts about all this, please post your approximate location and we’ll get some help to you fast.
I really wish I could but it’s to late cuz what could happen if I do tell someone. But I really need to pee haha
That1guy94 Do you have to go? I know I shouldn’t be saying this but it’s not too late. If you go now, what about the things that will make you happy but just aren’t present right now? Why not give yourself another chance and get to know other people that will actually care? I’m sorry, it’s just that I feel so useless when people are out there dying or depressed and I can’t do anything. If you make it through this, even though I know you don’t, I’d be happy to chat and just talk about things that people wouldn’t usually talk about.
Thanks that was hard to read and I am sorry you feel that way and can’t do anything. I am still here right now and see I would stop now but it’s to late and I don’t want to be put in a mental hospital
You don’t know you’ll be put into a mental hospital, you may get some needed therapy, it’s not too late, you’ve survive sometime so prehaps your body can cope with the amount so perhaps you should consider your emergency plan and get the medical help.
May I ask how old you are please? There can be so many things to do. I wouldn’t want to be put in one either but sometimes I think it could be for the better. That’s wishful thinking of course but after, you can live such a different life and if things still don’t work out then, you can always do what you’re doing now. Just give yourself another chance. I’ll even stay with you the whole way!
I know but I don’t know
I just can’t put myself through that and I am 20
http://us14.******.com/frame/Crisis-Chat
Hey do you want to come here so we can chat? Please? i’ll meet you there
http:// us14.******.com/ frame/ Crisis-Chat
20 is so young, I’m 45, I was depressed at 20 due to spots and boils I used to suffer from but I’m glad I’ve lived a lot longer than just 20 years, things did pick up for me since 20 and although depression has remained, I’ve had a lot of good times and you will too.
Will that work on a phone
I don’t know if my first comment went through because it says it’s waiting for moderation but just take out the spaces in between frame and / and come to that chat please? We can talk more. Please That1guy94?
http://us14.******.com/ frame/Crisis-Chat
Sorry didn’t see all these till early this morning but I think you will be happy what I did
Yeah it should work on a phone
that1guy, that chat is a chat for this website btw 😕 😮
Hey That1guy94, that’s one thing about SP, we’ve all got crap in our lives we’re working through, you’re not alone, talk and keep talking and keep going.
So I just stood up and got out of my truck cuz I had to pee but could hardly walk and I feel week and not good and ok
How is your heart rate at the moment?
I am not sure I feel weird
Do you feel sick or have you been sick, what was special about the girl you cared about may I ask, was she sympathetic to your depression, could you talk to her about it or did you keep it to yourself, if you are ok to talk about it?
Hey sorry didn’t see your post. But she was open about it and understanding. I told her a lot but not everything and she is the only person I have ever told that much now until I told my dad tonight/this morning
Peeing is good haha. If your heart is going crazy, try to keep calm (yeah easier said than done), deep breaths. You’ve got a lot of people here hoping you pull through man. If you can make it through tonight, I promise things will look different. Maybe better, maybe worse but definitely different! Try to stay hydrated if you can… water always helps.
Hey sorry as well didn’t see your post. I am home now and feel not the greatest but still alive and if you read my new post I think you will be happy
How do I go on the chat
Go on the website without the spaces http://us14. ******. com/frame/ Crisis-Chat. And it should let you in.
Guy… I hope you live man! I really do!
You are really fucking yourself right now. They are gonna find you, revive you, and stick you behind a locked door where you won’t be able to do ANYTHING without some one watching.
Hope you get what you are looking for, cuz it’s certainly gonna be what you deserve regardless of what you want
First off fuck you realtalk30. That is some horrible stuff to say to someone.
And I hope you feel like shit in the morning and really your lucky I didn’t see that way earlier
But I will post something new on here like a new post
Hey man, you still there?
Yea I am. I just posted a new post if you want to read it