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i feel great now

by tphg
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I just took a dump and the empty feeling usually last for a solid 10 minutes, so ten minutes of bliss to get all of this out.

I decided yesterday to quit smoking and masturbating, to go back to who I was 3 years ago. I’ve an active imagination and I view my mind as a cockpit. There are voices about but for the most part, my pilot is in control. 3 years and I thought I was in control, but little did I know that my pilot was actually my lizard brain. 3 years spent on myself, finding pleasure, “finding myself”. All that happened though […]

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Gets worse and worse….

by shockwave
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Hi
This is my 3rd time posting on this website, i guess it’s because i have no one else. I am getting more and more depressed every day and don’t no what to do.I was thinking of taking an overdose when i looked up consequences of an overdose and it said brain damage and that put me off that idea.
I have being depressed for nearly two years now and i guess things are getting worse and worse lately. i think it was my friends that kept me on the right path, but now i’m no longer friends with them. i suppose i have […]

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by Noodle12
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I had a thought on the bus today. I can’t remember all of it. But I was listening to some piano music and looking out the window, so many things went through my head. It’s not cold today, but a fresh layer of snow covers everything, it looks like its at least -30 c. I’m sick today. I didn’t want to go to school, but the medicine I had this morning worked enough. Despite staying up tell 3 am, I’m wide awake.

I don’t know why I’m depressed today but I am. I’d rather be alone or with my best friend than talk to anyone today. […]

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Lost In my thoughts

by Unknown_Schizophrenic
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Every now and then I catch myself getting lost in my thoughts.  I know Im not the only one, but at times I feel that I do it more than some. My paranoia will kick in, I start getting lost in the thoughts, and ideas that it brings. I catch myself thinking that this and that are true, but deep down I KNOW that they are NOT true. This has gotten worse within the past couple of years. I know that the thoughts I have are not true, but I often think what if that is, what if that will happen? When this first occured […]

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I was NOT lying…

by Jaeny Ll
written by Jaeny Ll

Monday, February 27th, 2012. I had been Sexual Assaulted.
I walk through the hallways, watching people look at me, whispering, calling me names, wanting to beat me. They don’t know the real story about what really happened, so they had made-up stories. I cry every night because of what he told people. everyone is against me, everyone hates me. He doesn’t know the damage he had done; damage is still being processed. People harrassed me everyday, yet I know that if I end my OWN LIFE they’ll regret what they have said.
Many people took sides. Two of my best friends had my side, also […]

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Please say it’s alright

by swim-away-little-fugu-fish
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I am in debt so far over my head that i’m afraid of everything. i don’t answer my phone because it is always the bank. i shred my mail without reading it.

I have watched myself do terrible  things to people i supposedly loved for no reason with no way to stop it and it will happen again and again. no reasons, just pain and anger and manipulation. words i can never take back. i strangled my ex until  i could feel his pulse in my hands and i wanted so badly to kill him for what he’s done.

I’m so broke I started doing porn and […]

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I am me.. Get over it.

by MaddieIsn'tOk
written by MaddieIsn'tOk

I smile during pictures. I smile ’cause I can. I smile when my best friend Becca, takes my hand. I smile when I see you, because thats what is polite. I smile during the day. But I don’t smile during night. I step off the bus, and head to the house. I say “Thanks for the ride” and look down on my phone, more drama has arouse. I close the door slowly, hearing it creak. The hardwood floor echoes my sobs and my shreaks. I am not happy with my looks or my smile, they made me insecure. I question life for a while. I am […]

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No.. Im NOT ok..

by MaddieIsn'tOk
written by MaddieIsn'tOk

Yahh. Everyone asks that question. “Are you OK”? What do you think Im going to say? You expect me to just completeley scream out my feelings.. No! Im going to say “Yahh. Its all good”. Well. I used to. But I need to tell someone my feelings.. Im only 12. I live in Florida, and my stepdad and mom moved  me away from my family in Minnesota. 🙁 I have a 5 year old little sister who looks entirely up to me.. And my mom is pregnant with a boy now. I want to kill myself. I might. Im in the seventh grade. I went […]

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dying

by In_memory
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They dont know how badly i want to die. I’m suffocating. Every day is a battle. I think about how easy it is for me to just overdose or cut to deep.  dont want to feel pain anymore.I dont want to be stuck here. I can’t do this anymore. I just want someone to notive how much I’m hurting. It hurts so deeply its a struggle to breathe.i cut to take away the pain for awhile. But when it’s this bad i cant do anything. I’m a basket case. I hate it here. I just want to be free of myself. I am […]

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Scared…

by pleasehelp
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I may seem like I have a lot, but I don’t. hear me out…

There’s these two guys(we’ll call them Thing 1 and thing 2). Thing 1 and I met about a year and a half ago. When we met, I was dating this guy. We broke up, and I eventually fell for Thing 1. We almost went out, and over the course of the next year were really close and almost going out. We still are. But, this winter, Thing 2 came a long and moved in to our school. While I still liked Thing 1, I also REALLY liked Thing 2. Me and thing […]

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im done.

by Whateverbell
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i always write here when i feeling some type of way, and right now i do.

I hate the fact that i think about suicide 24/7. when i do something bad, when someone yells at me, when my parent argue, when i get bad grades, when i look at myself in the mirror, when im standing next to my best friend, when people are starring at me, anything. I really feel like im going to commit suicide on march 31st.  I have a gut feeling i am, im just so really ready to die. im so ready for all of this to just stop, im not […]

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Today was the worst :/

by silent survivor
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Well if the title doesn’t say it all today sucked for me,well this is what happened. I’m on my break idk why but yea a week of no school ends today 🙁 I decided to hang with my best friend J and my girlfriend A and we started off at the mall ten we went to A’s house and stayed there a while. While at A’s house I was texting J’s crush B and we started secretly talking and A asked what we were saying and I int know what to do so I said no because B used to be her ex so […]

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by Noodle12
written by Noodle12

I’m at school with my iPad and I feel obliged to post something.

Ive sort of been depressed all week now I realize, it’s just been one of those weeks. I’m not diagnosed with being bipolar, but it bloody feels like it. I hate how I only get to spend about an hour each day with my best friend, it’s not enough. I feel lonely as fuck.

The realization has sort of come over that the school I go to really sucks balls. Every second girl is a slit. The teachers are shit with like two exceptions I’ve only been taught by once each. The people here […]

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New beginnings and new problems.

by Noodle12
written by Noodle12

Its been a while since ive written here, I’m writing this on a notepad on the bus but I assume a lot has changed, I’d like to meet some of the new guys here.

But, anyway.. Reason for posting, it’s not really so much about me, there’s just a shitload of stress happening to people around me. My best friend is having the shittiest year at school right now and I feel really bad for her, which is nothing I’d be doing a year ago, but ive gotten different too. I guess life has been gotten more boring and I’ve woken up and started caring about […]

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i dont want to live!!!!

by geordie89
written by geordie89

right im 22, i live in england and this is my story.

 

i met the girl of my dreams and we fell in love and after 8 years she is leaving me

i just dont know what todo anymore i feel like my whole life has just been flushed away and im losing everything. iv gave so much up for her and now im having to start all over again. originally i lived in newcastle then i had to move to london with my parents and i had to start over again and there i made friends and stuff then a few years later i met this girl […]

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Venting

by FadingAgain89
written by FadingAgain89

I am so frustrated and heartbroken right now. My poor little dog is 14 and I took him to a new groomer today. He was absolutely fine before he left, but when I picked him up he was crying and limping. I thought ok give it an hour because he might be stressed out and his arthritis might be acting up. Well when we got home I noticed how swollen he was. Shortly there after his back leg went completely lame and he cant walk at all. I called the vet and they couldn’t get him in, she suggested the emergency vet or to take him in […]

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Why?

by gumgirl
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why is it that simple stuff like my best friend texting me I miss you or my guy friend giving me a hug or my sister telling me she loves me bring tears to my eyes. I want to be able to tell them I’m leaving. I want to be able to tell them I am think about killing myself. But I can’t. I can’t eat. I can’t sleep. I cry and cut everyday. I’m dead on the inside. I’m not who I was. I’m gone it’s just my body now and I’m not sure how long that will be here.

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Lost a brother and losing myself

by argus
written by argus

In short, my brother killed himself april of 2011. He was my only brother and he will always be my closest and best friend, a hero of sorts for a little brother if you understand the relationships between siblings. anyway, he was 29 married no children and i was 21. few months after he passed away i was going to shoot myself in the heart with a 12-guage slug to ensure death and hopefully immidietly death would follow. to this day i don’t know what changed my mind, not fear of death but i guess fear for my family’s wellbeing.. but anyway.. i think about him everyday. shortly after his death i became deeply addicted […]

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life is short

by momo
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my best friend justin had gone through a hard time. his parents got divorced then his mom remarried . his stepdad and justin never saw eye to eye justin told me he wasnt even invited to the wedding. im the only person he ever trusted…he also struglled with his gender… he had very poor grades and got in trouble every day . he has a kid like innocence .he had told me how depressed he was. but at 15 everyone thinks there depressed so i supported him and loved him.. he took prescription pills and one day at school had a tick tack bottle filled […]

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Frustrated

by Prevarication
written by Prevarication

I’m living a very good life.

I have an amazing wife who is also my very best friend and we explore many things together.

I have a great job that is rock-solid even in a bad economy and I bring home a paycheck that puts me in the 30th percentile of the country.

I have two great kids that I have a positive and sharing relationship with, and I’m very proud of them. They are active in sports, the local Historical Society, are both honor students in AP and Honors classes, and much more.

I have no debt (credit cards, etc), I live in a nice house in a […]

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