Today I was happy.
I went to the pool today with my assistant manager/close friend (I helped her recover after a very brutal divorce with her crack-addict lousy excuse for a husband.) Now normally when I have any cuts or scars on my legs, I tend to hide them. But today I said, “Fuck it! I’ll show them off and let them get some sun. Maybe they’ll fade out a little like the older ones.” I had an incident a few days ago that I’m none too proud of, but I decided to go nonetheless. When we got to the pool and the sun was […]
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Okay, well I have friends. I do. I hang out with them sometimes too. but why do i still feel so alone? I call them my bestfriends, which in most cases is true… but at the same time.. they know NOTHING about me. They know the crazy girl.. the one who likes to party, whose had sex, gotten high and gotten drunk.. But the true part of me that matters most.. they dont know exists.. The part of me that cries myself to sleep at night. The part of me that has scars, and cuts. The part of me who almost committed suicide and still […]
I know that there are so many people that have problems way worse than mine. So, please don’t judge me..
Lately, i’ve been thinking about suicide. I guess I haven’t done it yet because I’m weak and a coward.
My parents are getting a divorce after 15 years. That’s my age. It really is my fault becuase if my mom hadn’t been pregnant with me, they wouldn’t have been miserable for the last 15 years in a marriage that fell apart.
I just started a new school, moved to a new house. I’m a sophomore. On May 20, 2012 one of my bestfriends got in a wreck and […]
i’m bryana, 16. i may seem like the happiest girl around, always smiling when i’m around people, trying to make people laugh constantly, but when i’m alone in my room all i do is cry and secretly think about how i’m going to kill myself..here’s my story, well part of it. i used to be the biggest tomboy ever, i’d play baseball even played peewee tackle when i was in third grade. i had so many friends and was soososooso happy all the time. even in middle school it seemed like everyone just wanted to be my friend as if i could do no wrong […]
Hi everyone, it’s been a while since I’ve been on here. Not sure if ppl worried about me or not…
I lost a friend recently.. He was one of my bestfriends, and he helped me so much with my depression.. And now he’s no longer going to talk to me… Ugh I miss him….
It’s getting hard… My depression feels like I’m getting worse..I also think I need knew friends becuz the ones I have no don’t really treat me right.. I don’t want to get into details…
-RawrImaTurtle….
have you ever felt left out? have you ever felt so unwanted? My bestfriend has said and started rumors about me and wont answer my texts, but I know shes there. people call me a ginger, im not A ginger i just have a red tint to my hair! it seems like they all hate me and that the world would be better without me. ME is a word i thought was pretty, smart, nice, and funny but it turns out at night I find myself crying and thats not ME. I want the things to back to the way they were last year, everything was perfect. this […]
How do you know who to trust these days….
My friend and I were just talking about who can we trust…
Three people who I thought were my bestfriends totaly screwed me over…
I honestly don’t know who are my true friends and who aren’t…
I just want to break down and cry…
I wantt to know how people can be so curel…
hey all suicidal angels.. im calista.. well, im suicidal..it’s been awhile..ive tried it so many times but here I am, typing this up. How I wish im dead by now..i just dont wanna live but in some point,i feel i dont wanna commit suicide and pray to God that someone might stab me up or something..It can be anything,i just dont wanna live.
Since I was 5, my life really intense. Parents always want the best out of me, so I gave them all. I do so many things in life, Im always the best student in school and in college, i cook, i bake, i […]