I’m not really sure what I want to say here…I feel like I’m doing better now, I’m out of counseling, back in school, still facing challenges. I’m still trying to be the person I want to be, but I find it difficult since I’m stubborn and always focus on the past, and I still get anxiety around people I don’t know, and I still have vengeance for those who hurt me or are hurting, and I don’t want to be like that… Anyone know good tips or advice to help me be a better compassionate person?
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Im not sick and throwing up anymore. thank god that was horrible im never gonna try to overdose again. dont do it you’ll regret it.
I don’t know what to do anymore… I’ve been suffering from clinical depression for about two and a half years now, and nothing that i have ever tried has ever been able to help. The incessant feelings of pure worthlessness, self-hatred, and pure relentless sadness are becoming very overwhelming at this point in time and I don’t foresee it getting any better anytime soon. I’m just sad, all the time… and its so bad sometimes that I just find myself crying for hours, and i am tired of it… tired of all of it… I feel like a burden and a problem to everyone around […]
Today I woke up feeling really depressed, so much so that I was in my room from 8am until about 4pm because I just wanted to be left alone.
When I got out to use the bathroom, I saw my keyboard. Now, even though I’ve never considered myself “good” at playing, I thought why not try and learn a song. And I did. After feeling the most depressed I’ve felt in days, I was able to escape and now I’m feeling not good but not bad either.
This post is kinda pointless, but I just wanted to share that playing an instrument, even if you’re […]
unfortunatly I don’t gave the money to get a cab or pay for it. My aunt is gonna allow me to get drinks on Friday. At least I’m lucky in that reguard. This is the last two weeks of my life, I wanna get drunk and pop pills ya know. I wanna be freed up to do what ever the heck I wanna do until the time comes. Don’t know how I’m gonna sneak vodka into the house. Guess I’d have to put it in my underwear as silly as that sounds as long as the bottle can fit. Guess for now I’ll stick to popping […]
If I don’t feel better by 2 months or so I’m going to kill myself.
Why do Many people think that everything that is said over the Internet is true and buy into scams and rumors without investigating further?
Why did “human rights advocates” get there panties in a wad when a fully veiled Muslim woman had to remove her religious attire in order to get her drivers license? If someone wants to stand up for people who are really getting there rights stomped on – than stand up for people’s rights to get quality health care, a living wage, the right to choose, etc.
Why did “civil rights advocates” get there panties in a wad when American Jihadist Anwar Al Awlaki, who […]
Last night I didn’t think I’d get to drink here again after last weeks shananagins. But after Donald Trunpesue debating skills, I convinced them to allow me to have only a 12 pack of cooers light. I usually get extra with it but conceded to there rules because drinking the light stuff is better than not drinking at all. Eh I wish I spent my time drunk better. I spent the last two hours debating with them once again on my right to die. I don’t even know why I waste my breath with them on this issue. They don’t believe that I have s […]
That moment that held me back wont happen again. Im smarter now i know that happiness aint meant for me neither is love or respect i am better off dead my battle is over and that makes me happy I hope everyone finds happiness in life i just couldn’t get it here
Yeah guys, im still here
not happy, but im here
well…
im not saying that im all ok, im really tired
reaaaaaally tired, afraid of future, afraid of darkness
but i still here!
someone is here too?
im a little… lonely..
maybe i will post some drawings….
when someone dont have how make it emotions flow, its better make something about it
i aways draw when im depressed…
logic, all the drawings are… sad
but it comforts me
Dedicate this to the cruel game called Love.
Fuck love and all its cuntery.
http://youtu.be/cncoJB_C-m0
Original song by Chris Isaak
I like this guy’s voice better though.
Why is it so hard for me. I can’t find happiness in anything. I don’t think I could ever be happy. I hold on to things that I shouldn’t and if I find something that makes me happy, my mind reminds why I shouldn’t be happy. That voice that takes anything positive and turns into a negative. When I was younger I would pray to god and tell him to please please kill me in my sleep. I don’t think I could ever be happy. I used to tell myself “next year will be better,” I’ve said that for 5 years. I don’t think my […]
I feel completely broken inside, like a part of me that should be there is missing. I’m constantly surrounded by a dark cloud that suffocates me. I feel like it should have killed me already. I’m surprised it hasn’t. It’s so hard to live with so much pain. My friends don’t understand – the few that I’ve told about it. They think that chocolate and hugs will make it all better. It won’t.
The truth is that I want to disappear. Except I can’t. The problem with having a perfect-on-paper life is that: a) people don’t believe that you could possibly have any problems, and b) […]
Why movies are better than reality ? Why movie is better than reality ? Why reality is boring ?
by niki
written by niki
Why movies are better than reality / real life / real world ?
Why movie is better than reality / real life / real world ?
Why reality is boring ?
What puzzles me the most is human’s mind / human’s brains and imagination better than reality ( human’s fantasy is better than reality )
for example:
just look at the movies, novels, comics, games, books, , animations (anime / manga), science fiction (sci-fi), fantasy , like Star Wars, Harry Potter, Lord of the Rings, Narnia, X-Men, Marvels & DC universe / movies , The Avengers , Final Fantasy, Kingdom Hearts, Swords Art Online, Naruto, Bleach, […]
I have clothes that remind me of better days,
When I was more carefree and had less of my woes.
I have jeans with rips at the knees,
That remind me of dancing, walking, hugging and fun.
I have novelty socks given to me in love,
From a beautiful mother who I no longer see.
I have hats and scarves that were presents,
From friends and lovers and family.
I have shirts that kissed her and felt love,
That were discarded in fits of yearning passion.
I have shorts that have jumped into the sea with me,
and spent long summers wondering coastal paths.
I am lucky. I have clothes
I’m sick of feeling sad all the fucking time. I’m sick and bloody tired. There are some days where I think ‘how could I have possibly felt that sad?’ but then it all comes rushing back.
I don’t have the right to be sad. My life is a breeze compared to other people’s lives. And it makes me feel like my problems are inferior, which in some ways they are.
I got my English Literature AS result today, and I got a B. And I’m not happy with it. I should be, considering I’ve taken it a year early, and that’s like an A at […]
i love her and she’s like a mom to me. BUT she disagrees on my stance of wanting to die. She knows what I been though. I finally broke and asked her if she could by me that Max Dog ******** cylinder with an exit bag IF a year has passed and I still want to die and I try extra hard to better myself, do more therapy, eat better and continue losing weight, get my licens, and even admit myself into a psyche ward for a couple weeks 6 months from now.
She was shocked but said she don’t know. Sounds like she may even […]
I’m messing everything
I hope crumbling but the way
I need my focusing
For the better and improvement of all aspect
I’m messing everything
I hope crumbling but the way
I need my focusing
For the better and improvement of all aspect
World-peace, my deepest compassionate
Two to two-thousand
Mythology, am the only that knows me
Wearing the mask, I need the spirit
Of you
Back to, celestial
Here to seek for destiny, my advisory
For the pursuit of final heaven’s gateway
I need to reach, the tip of this
What is it
I’ve sang since I was born, for the
The Totem
To create the upwards, the uproar
Of the, ultimate
The boom of shine that the world has even known
But is it just, now, to […]
I’m a nomad. Ricky Hil and the weeknd better keep their heads up. I’m comin for them. I shit on ricky hil but I’m going to work with the weeknd heavy.
http://youtu.be/xzqqKpHQYWI