im 17.. i feel like such a little kid around every one.. they all treat me that way.. little things mess with me really bad. i have borderline personality disorder.. i haven’t had a very good life and i understand that.. i understand that there are people out there who have had it worse than me.. i just don’t no why all this has happened too me. if there really is a god out there then why are all of these good people having bad things happen to them..i was raped by my brother and my little sisters brother from the time i was 5 […]
Seriously,
I’m 20. I have had major depression my entire life, I have chronic anxiety, borderline personality disorder, and literally have NO friends.
I have no family either, I live with my grandmother who is “insane” , I love her but I cannot take her abuse and her outbursts especially when I am already suicidal.
I’ve been looking at the posts, and I like the helium idea, I will be around a little longer I suppose because I need to get the equipment and the final exit book.
Until then, it would be really nice to talk to some like minded people, its nice to know that I’m not […]
Borderline personality disorder: Society’s way of saying that you’re a ticking time bomb. Abandonment issues only get worse with time. When you get numb to the pain, your mind simply widens it’s threshold. Boxing lessons: They will happen. You have only two choices in life: Die, or grow another day older. Immortality can be measured by things accomplished in your lifetime, as well as how long you endured this lifetime.
I am in my late 20s, in a lesbian relationship, and diagnosed borderline personality disorder and have depression. I’ve been going to therapy for a few months and have been taking my meds as prescribed.
I have a degree in psychology and a Masters degree in forensic psychology. I enjoy running, surfing, basketball, snowboarding, and wakeboarding. I love my family.
My mother is understanding and supportive, as are my younger siblings. I also have some support from a few good friends.
However, my relationship is a chaotic rollercoaster and I can’t bare it anymore. The anger and pain have disolved my strength to keep going.
At […]
I wish I had killed myself when I was 16. It’s been 20 years of regret. Diagnosed with clinical depression, anxiety, borderline personality disorder, PMDD, traits of OCD, and a horrible eating disorder which has ruined my life. At age 36, I’m living a life I never wanted. I thought I’d be married by now, own property, and enjoy a prosperous career. None of which has happened. I made a horrible career choice by becoming a teacher, and have hated myself for it for the past 11years. I fake it at work. Put on that professional face. The truth is, I hate every aspect of […]
hey everyone …..xx
hope you are all well .. <——- that question is so fckn annoying dontcha think .. = of course we are not well dumbass !!
well i know im not – i dont know what to do .. im so lost – numb – sick of my life !… im so scared im confused ..
today ive not really been in touch with reality to be honest – ive not even got washed or dressed – TRAMP ALERT !
Hi all. I’m feeling empty and alone. I feel like I have no friends. People make me feel like an outcast. I have social anxiety and am constantly worried about people judging me. I feel like everyone is against me. My therapist thinks that I may have borderline personality disorder as I sometimes cut and I seem to have trust/abandonment issues. Thank you for reading this.
do i have borderline personality disorder?
i desperately want to know what i have why i have it and how i can fix it.
i dont know if these questions are ever answered but atleast i will die knowing that i did care enough to look for an answer. i want to be able to grasp what it is that is wrong with me and then be able to tackle it.
this empty feeling is consuming me. i want to be able to say that i can one day be normal. i want to be able to live my life, set goals and realize them.
I would like to think myself a normal girl.
I know how to be happy, and I have been, and I know it’s possible to be again. I just don’t know when.
I go through cycles, every time I’m heartbroken, I try to take my life. I quite possibly do have borderline personality disorder.
The last heartbreak was half a year ago, and I can’t seem to get over it.
This time it’s different. I don’t think I want to recover. I don’t want to be heartbroken now, and I don’t ever want to be heartbroken again.
I can’t handle it.
I’ve overdosed 4 times already, been hospitalized 6 times in […]
I have been planning for months. I told my friends and they don’t believe me. I told my therapist and she thinks I should go on medication. I have borderline personality disorder and ever since I have been diagnosed with it it has made me feel even worse. I never wanted an excuse. I don’t want to know the reasons why I act. I don’t want to realize that it’s my fault everyone has left me. So I’m done. I’m going to buy a couple bottles or boxes of pills from several stores so they can’t restrict what I buy. I’ll get alcohol from guys […]
I wrote that on my arm last time I was on a psych ward, and then was about to take my life when the girl with learning disabilities across the hall from me came and knocked on my door wanting me to do her nails. She had been through so much and we were friends, she really didn’t deserve to have to watch me be brought out in a body bag which would have happened right outside her room. So I held on for a while and now I feel the same hopelessness again, the same desperation I just wish there was a way to […]
I have attempted suicide a few times without success. I have suffered from menatl health problems for years an now been told i have a borderline personality disorder I feel more scared of living than dying I have researched on what the best an most painless way of dying an the helium seems a great choice so am in the process of purchasing all the equipment i need so i can die painless.
i want to disappear, forever. it’s been a year, the most agonizing and painfully slow year of my life. i should be better, but i’m not.
recently, i was admitted into a psychiatric unit as an inpatient. i was on suicide watch. they locked me in a room and had a police guard sitting outside my door. then i was diagnosed with depression and borderline personality disorder. i had to call my mom. she cried. it hurt.
i cut. i hate myself. i hate my elephant body. i count calories meticulously, but i also go on terrible binges. i purge. my sad bouts get progressively worse. i […]
I hate repeating myself but i am very stuck and didn’t receive any help the last time i posted about this topic.
I am asking for some advice. I don’t need to be told “Yup. It sucks. Welcome to reality.”
I need help!
Are there any effective treatments out there for Borderline Personality Disorder? I’m worried about my mental health and would prefer to ask someone with personal experience before going to a doctor.
If anyone can help me and give me some advice. It would be really appreciated.
Thanks.
Hello, I am 15 years old and I have tried to kill myself 17 times already.
My Dads a murderer, I don’t get my mum anymore, I’m scared, she’s so empty, so angry. You see my mum suffers from borderline personality disorder, I’ve been brought up around so I should be use to it by now surely? But I’m not, I’m petrified, my Mums also physically ill however won’t go to the doctors. I’m afraid she might have cancer.  It’s like she’s in denial, like she refuses to acknowledge her ill health. It’s hard, I’m lonely, I have my friends, but thats not my mum. Its always been me […]
Hi everyone, am a forum newbie. Decided as it is new year, will also register straight away.
Where to start, I am female, 30 from the UK. I have suffered Borderline Personality DIsorder as far back as I remember I, just came out of some calm BPD remission time (no love life or want for one) ie a want for a love life arose. But the feeling was not reciprocated, hence been feeling suicidal, now here. I don’t want sympathy. I just wish to be abit of a lurker and learn good methods for the time when this happens again, which it will (always does) and […]
Hello, all. I’m back to write again.
So I reached out and found some resources. I was diagnosed with borderline personality disorder earlier this year.
I had hallucinations as a child that established my black and white thinking. I never knew what the hallucinations meant, until recently. It all makes sense now. Somehow my brain got hard-wired to think in black and white. (Maybe someone gave me LSD as a child. The hallucinations were so clear and vivid and lasting that I have never been able to forget anything contained in the hallucinations.) And then […]
i’m 23 years old. my birthday is on the 13th and i keep thinking……..maybe i won’t make it til then. i’m a single mother of 2 kids. it’s definitely hard……but looking at how perfect they are makes everything worthwhile. i feel guilty for the way i feel. i never feel like i’m good enough. i hate myself so much that it’s hard for me to find the good in anyone else. i didn’t have a really horrible childhood. but when i was 8 my mom told me that my dad wasn’t really my dad….he was my step dad and my “real” dad lived in california. […]
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