This is the first time I post something on here but I feel like I’m finally ready to do something like this. For this first post I think I’m just gonna tell my story, I need to get it off my chest.
On the 30 of September 17 years ago my brother was born. And 2 years later on his birthday, I was born. We always shared our birthday and it was something really special. Me and my brother were always close, like few brothers and sisters are. Besides being my brother, he was also my best friend.
But it all ended on the 25 […]
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well, here I am, 15, a pothead, a whore, doesn’t have anything to praise or look forward to after life. I’m all kinds of fucked up, I was always put last to 4 other brothers and sisters. I was raised by drug addicts and alcoholics and it’s  my fault I turned out like this when I was never told aanything different. I was never told about the danger of sex and drugs, I was raised by people who abused all of it, and I’m  the shitty one in the bunch?  Ha. You’re all so ignorant! If  you never wanted me to be so  horrible, maybe […]
blood on the flore
and i dont know what to do
hart in my haed and the
pull the triger and im dead
mother fucker stop hitng me im beging you pleas
with my heart string blues
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the people in my head i sware thay whant me dead
“hay that rimed”
SHUT UP BRANE IV HAD IT WITH YOU
im lost and not to be fownd
im going way down to whats ever is below
GAME OVER PLEAS PRES START TO PLAY AGEN
i lost im not doing that agen in 2 days iv gon geting brter to this
LOVE TO YOU ALL MY BROTHERS AND SISTERS
I wish I had a normal life with parents and going to parties and having fun.
I wish I could see my mum again, at least one last time to say goodbye.
I wish I didn’t have anxiety problems, depression and OCD.
I wish I didn’t have to pretend to be happy all the time.
I wish I could actually meet my brothers and sisters and let them know I actually exist.
I wish I had a proper family, not just an aunt and an uncle.
I wish I had people around me who would understand me.
I wish my mum was here so she could hug me and tell me everything […]
I’m fat, not got the prettiest hair, I’m being treated for acne. Usually these things blown out of porpotion is why I would be depressed right? I wish. I could diet, or get defrizzer or continue with my face gels. But whats the use? My “HOME” life is awful. There is no way to describe it. My dad is every bad word that exists. My mother is useless. My siblings all hate me. I hate my two little brothers because they mirror my dad. I hate my older sister for the pain she causes me, she torments me..shes 0 years old and can make me […]
yes i lived in a poor home , yes i was raped as a child, and yes i was all so abused and beatten ,yes my father was never in my life ,and yah my mom had too many responsiblities to care for all five of us so i was raised by T.V,despite all, my brothers and sisters are all doing fine but me i am crazy to them, i am constantly depressed and i cut my self a lot and in the end of a normal day i would find my self on the edge of our roof top or holding a knife and […]
i can create a beautiful life in my imagination. i am able to share my imagination with people. however, i can’t live the beautiful life which my inspired imagination painted for me. my ideals that ostensibly obstruct my connection with humanity are strangling me now. i am a man who lives in a constant fear state. i live out my life in other worlds that are not real since i cannot live in this one. it’s not that i want to die so much as it is that i can’t live. i will always be half of a great man. never a great man. a […]
I am a person who has been through so much in my 24 years of life. When I was 17 I was told told by a phsycologist that I have been through more than most 80 year olds go through in there life time and that he was amazed that I didnt having a severe mental illness like schitzaphrenia or bipolar. If you want to know about my story read my post, “crushing lonleness”.
However I believe that I would not be there strong, brave and socialy gifted person that I am today if it was not for all the pain that I have not […]
I am Envious of the River
The River is free
I am trapped
The River knows it purpose
I am lost
The River is full of Life
I am Dead Inside
The River is eternal
I am Mortal
The River wants Nothing
I cant be satisfied
The River Feels Nothing
I feel only Pain
The River See’s Nothing
I see only sadness
I wonder if the River is envious of me
I wrote this back in my very dark days, I just i would share it, I am fighting my depression everyday and am happy again.
It can seem pretty bleak sometimes, But remember to win you have to fight.
So never Give up SP brothers and sisters
This has no specific age range but is directed more towards those who have not yet been free to make their own decisions.
I want everyone who wants to to live. Especially you my little brothers and sisters. Because you have not yet been able to live your own lives. Have not yet been able to freely choose anything outside the limits placed on you and the strong influences upon your minds and emotions. From your posts many of you have an amazing and solid grasp on life and that would be wasted by you dying and not being able to enrich yourselves with your talents.
Many […]
I’m S. I suffer with bipolar disorder. I was bullied all through school and had trouble making friends. I was raped when I was six then again at 12 after which I attempted suicide. I grew up with a perfect family. I have always been extremely close to my mam, dad and sisters. Last year I found out my dad is not my biological father when someone emailed me saying that I’m there sister. I now have 7 new brothers and sisters and a biological father who is currently in rehab. My family hasn’t changed but I haven’t coped with it I’ve just pushed it […]
I can’t take this anymore, every new day I live I feel like I can’t take it anymore of this I am fighting to many things I want to take my life!!!! So bad I am starting to hate my family I can barely have a convo with them I feel like they wouldn’t care if I was gone they could live their day like they always do they wouldn’t miss me!!! I am battle depression anarexia and now suicide I can’t take it I just want someone to talk to but I can’t talk to my family or my friends or the people in […]
Well nothing happen today. Well except for demons talking to me ! Well I been feeling kind of sad today like I want to cry but I’ll just hold my tears inside. Well I don’t why I’m Feeling sad and nothing hasn’t happen too me today ! My brothers and sisters are nobody wasn’t messing with me. Why is this everyday feeling ? I really don’t know !!!!
Brothers and Sisters,
Let us not hate
Let us not hurt
Let us not loathe
Let us not war
Let us not envy
Let us not poison
Let us LOVE!!!!
Let’s open our hearts to Jesus Christ.
Lord, Bless our hearts, and enter in them.
Lord, help us heal our wounds!!
Amen
Brothers and Sisters,
I have seen and felt your love in this website. It is encouraging to share with you all, even when at times we do not agree, but that is fine to me. I am not here for you to all agree with me, but to share with all of you how I feel, and what I want to say to you all.
I believe there is always hope for us. We all have heard this many times, and sometimes we become numb to this. However, I still say there’s hope. There’s a small shining ray of light in this darkness. This darkness of […]
Thank you, Lord!.
Thank you, Father!.
Thank you, God!.
You truly are the path of happiness and joy.
I have never in my life felt more happy than now at this very moment.
The darkness of the world confuses us, and makes us pursue earthly desires… money, vanity, lust, fame, food….
Lord break our chains to these sins. We have become slowly slaves to these earthly desires. We wallow in our sins, and we rationalize to ourselves that this is the way. That such pleasures that never fill but increase our void is what is right.
Lord break our chains to these sins. Let us break free. Slaves no more […]
1/ I have nothing to look forward to anymore in my life as over my life time I have been fisically motioal vrebally abused sexually because of all this abuse that I have been through i can’t sllep well without having nightmares of the abuse i have also spent time in prison where I was sexually abused there by older males I have tried to commit susicide a lotal of 93 times since my first sexual abuse at me when I was 9 yeras old when I was in a state home for boys the first time was done by a boy aged 16 years […]